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I Don’t Know

by Ylem 3/22/2016

written by Ylem

Why am I so honest with my psychiatrist?

I tell the truth most of the time. They ask about suicidality, and I tell the truth. I don’t want to be here anymore.

They ask about homicidal thoughts, I say yes. Forgive me but there are people I so want to kill… Slowly. Painfully. Enjoy hearing them scream in agony. Enjoy watching them suffer. I want to look deep into their eyes as the light fades from them and they suck in their last breath. I hate them that much.

I always have a smile on my face. I’m like Ted Bundy. The charming psychopath. I told the doctor […]

3/22/2016 30 comments

I Don’t Know

by JiminyCrispies 2/20/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I was supposed to go out today. I broke down 10 minutes before we left due to the arguing downstairs which made the voices unbearable. I’m going out tomorrow morning now. I’m terrified. I don’t want to go out, I don’t want to leave the house. I couldn’t leave my room until mid-afternoon today because there was a man in the hallway waiting for me.

My mum yelled at me because I’m hearing the voices and Angels. She yelled because I’m seeing things. And she still wonders why I don’t speak to her. She makes me feel awful for having this going on. I feel guilty […]

2/20/2016 12 comments

I Don’t Know

by Tiny_One 2/9/2016

written by Tiny_One

I lost someone who I thought loved me. I took on this new way of thinking & living & he left. No more sexual pleasures for God wants me to wait on my husband is what I told him. I guess that sex is all he cared about. I don’t know how to feel. Part of me thinks that him leaving was the best thing for me but most of me is sad & hurt. Should I just give it to him or should I be obedient? Why is this even a question. Putting a man before God. What is wrong with me?

2/9/2016 10 comments

Beauty of neutrality

by Littlebitlost 11/2/2015

written by Littlebitlost

Well, hello everyone..

I haven’t written on a site like this before but tonight I needed to tell someone, anyone before I explode. Just as an over view I’m an 18 year old in the grey as hell country of England on the south coast somewhere..

I have always been treated for one kind of mental health issue or another. My mom had me put through Dragonflies which is a kind of bereavement councillor when I was in year six so around 10 / 11 years old, I think she was hoping I was just sad when my grandad passed. Don’t get me wrong I was but […]

11/2/2015 5 comments

Know thyself

by isj032 8/3/2015

written by isj032

Just thought I’d make a post for those of you suffering physical pain and discomfort.
Many people are ignorant to the “scientific fact” that the left hemisphere of our brain controls motor function to the skeletal muscles on the right side of our body and vice versa. If you were to accept that movement begins with the eyes (you look in the direction you are traveling or intend to travel) then we must also consider the optic nerve and the way in which nerve impulses are sent from the brain (visual corteX) to the eye muscles.
There are in fact 2 branches of optic nerve […]

8/3/2015 2 comments

I Don’t Know

by InnocentUntilProvenGuilty 5/18/2015

written by InnocentUntilProvenGuilty

I didn’t know what to do. I just got that feeling that I didn’t want to live anymore, that it wouldn’t matter to anyone. It was hard. I was alone and I couldn’t decide whether to live or not. I just don’t know.

5/18/2015 0 comment

I Don’t Know

by alonelybird 5/12/2015

written by alonelybird

I thought I was okay but I’m fucked, I’m just fucked. I’m really fucked up.

5/12/2015 3 comments

Kitty b!$@#ed out

by jennjenn 5/4/2015

written by jennjenn

My best friend died. We were hardcore drinking buddies. She was 26. I told her about my withdrawl nightmare (but it actually happened). She died with an old man, that she didn’t care about, but he bought her vodka. I guess I was the last one to talk to her. It took them four months yo let us know she died from withdrawls. I f!$@ing died from withdrawls. He found her cold, hands frozen in place, thats what he told me.

I wanted her to come here, maybe I could help her. Both parents dead at 17. She was a tough girl. He wouldn’t ler […]

5/4/2015 2 comments

I Just Don’t Know

by kissofdeath10 12/14/2014

written by kissofdeath10

I don’t feel much anymore. It’s like I’m floating just below the water, aware that my lungs are burning, but I’m unconcerned. I see so much and nothing at all. I see that I am likely to end up alone. I see that I cannot have children. I see that I am about to graduate college with a useless degree and a fuck load of debt. I see fires and wars and disaster and hatred and guns and knives and cars accidents and pain in the world. I see that I should do something. There I begin to see nothing. There is nothing to do. You […]

12/14/2014 2 comments

Is there ever a right time?

by liberty96 11/8/2014

written by liberty96

I’ve already figured out how I’m going to do it, I’m just struggling on the when part. Is there ever a right time? I’d do it today but my daughters birthday is thursday. Should I wait till after? I just don’t know if I can bear the pain till then. I know the hold that a death anniversary holds on people so I’m trying to be considerate of that. But like I said, I don’t Know if I can bare to go through another day. I’m so done.

11/8/2014 8 comments

snuffles…

by theWhispersOfMySins 10/6/2014

written by theWhispersOfMySins

On the chance you may read this…

Your absence is noticed. You are missed. SP needs your wise words, your sense of humor, your kindness. And to host the Saturday night party. They were fun and simply wouldn’t be the same without you hosting it!

Know you are being thought of.

10/6/2014 2 comments

No Words..

by Serra42 7/24/2014

written by Serra42

I cant seem to find words for him…i cant bring my self to ask for anything i want or need..because i have been turned down and hurt so many times before by so many others my mind will not accept that he wont..

when i ask him a question..a serious question that is bothering me.. i know the answer i get is the truth…but i cant bring my mind to trust him.. what will i do if i can never trust him .. how do i get past all this.. i dont want to be alone… i KNOW he will leave me because of my mood […]

7/24/2014 3 comments

Know the feeling?

by DeathlySweet330 5/28/2014

written by DeathlySweet330

Have you ever felt so much pain from all your hurtful past events that you break down crying? But then there just one event in particular that makes your skin crawl, even the thought of it makes you wanna fall apart right then and there…..You feel like you wanna break down and cry….But nothing comes out, so you sit there completely numb to the world around you, just being consumed by your own thoughts….Constantly asking yourself “Why?”…..Then everything just crashes down before your eyes…….and after a while……you just give in and wait for death…..Know the feeling?

~.Andi.~

5/28/2014 1 comment

When You Don’t Know

by ITriedIt 4/29/2014

written by ITriedIt

I’m severely depressed
and have epilepsy
not a good combo.
I tried to kill myself 9 times in my 15 1/2 years of life
I reached the edge once
I could see a light
my life was flashing before my eyes
then when it was to late
I realized I didn’t want to die.
I realized I shouldn’t have drunken that paint thinner.
It’s amazing that I’m alive.
I still have my occasional thoughts
then I remember
for every bad thing
it seems like something good followed.

4/29/2014 4 comments

Know how

by Shadowknite 4/3/2014

written by Shadowknite

Everyone wonders if there is a way to make suicide:

painless

like an accident

untraceable

etc.

There is an 8 ingredient injection that I have found, bit 5 ingredients are near impossible to get. so now you know. Don’t ask me to make it or how to make it. I won’t tell.

4/3/2014 2 comments

I Dont Know Who I Am Any More

by I.just.cant.take.it 2/15/2014

written by I.just.cant.take.it

my name is callum im 14 years old and i have destroyed my life. It started with me always yelling at my sister and my mom and dad holding me back my dad always told me it was just a phase and i would be ok. he is gone now and he was wrong. recently i threw my sister into a wall and broke her arm. my mom locked me in the washroom and turned up the heat. she wanted me dead. i broke the window and ran. ran. ran. i was downtown , freezing and starving i decided to head home . my mom […]

2/15/2014 2 comments

ME :P

by marine105 10/23/2010

written by marine105

I dunno, for anyone who wants to know me a little better, here’s some pictures of me.

10/23/2010 14 comments

Help

by painterofmusic 5/25/2009

written by painterofmusic

Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Everything hurts. The secrets I can’t tell anyone, and no one cares at all. Who do I turn to? How do I say the words to someone, someone I trust, that is going to make them understand? Who would I tell? WhoÂ can I trust? How do I get even one minute with them only three days before school is out? I’m going to die this summer. I don’t know what else to do. I can’t stand my life anymore, my mind… I have secrets that are killing me, literally. I’m going to die because I can’t take knowing the things I know. And even […]

5/25/2009 5 comments