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Last Hope

Last Hope.

by Incision 2/25/2016

written by Incision

This is my last chance. My last post. My last idea to change hope for the future. My life has had many happy and not so happy moments, and that’s what is getting to me. I may still be young, but no one not even myself knows everything I’ve been through. You may find no interest reading something like this, but those who do, I suggest you read everything.

My name is Mike. I am 17 years old, and have lived through a lot in this so far short life. I have two medical conditions: Moebius and klinefelters. If you say me in real […]

2/25/2016 7 comments

It’s A Complicated Poem

by well_kept_secret 8/21/2015

written by well_kept_secret

I fell the pain vibrating in my skull.

I just clench my jaw and force the smile to stay on my face.

The voices ask why I even continue.

Well the singing wills me to stay strong just a little longer.

It takes an army to build me up.

But it only takes a few to knock me down.

What’s encouraging me to stay?

My mom once told me the most selfish thing you can do is take your own life.

I once said I took eight Advils.

She said she would give me the Heimlich right there at that moment.

Maybe life’s hard right now. But it’s not forever.

Some day I’ll leave this life.

And […]

8/21/2015 0 comment

Last Hope

by kissnm10 3/15/2013

written by kissnm10

I’m running out of options. My last hope, before suicide becomes the best choice, is to drop out of college for a while and move away. I just need to live, on my own terms, or not live at all. I mean, I don’t know why we bother with this college, marriage, children bullshit. It’s a trap. This world is so damn big. There is so much more to experience than most people ever do. That’s the point. To experience. I’m absolutely done with this not living crap. If i’m going to stick it out here for any longer, I’ve got to get out of […]

3/15/2013 3 comments

honesty

by disclosureflo18 3/12/2013

written by disclosureflo18

to be honest i’m not really sure what i’m doing on this site but i’m ust gonna go with it. I’m not trying to sway anyone into my thinking or anything this is just my own experiences and opinions. So I’ve read a few posts and stuff and it’s kind of strange but i feel like i can relate. People are saying stuff like “oh you won’t do it” and stuff like that but ppl will, they always do and that’s what’s wrong with this site. you shouldn’t test ppl. I’m just hoping to get some advice on how to kill this shit before myself. […]

3/12/2013 2 comments

Help! (please)

by hazelleyes 2/18/2013

written by hazelleyes

So, I have this doctor’s appointment tomorrow.

I’ll try to explain this briefly:

Initially I made this appointment to try and get adderall/ritalin to be able to focus while studying – cus my concentration is zero, for a long time now.

Then, I realized I need to bring up my sleeping problems, cus it’s getting really bad, I can’t sleep, even with sleeping pills, and as last week I was sleeping 16hours, this week I’m sleeping about 4hours. It’s getting weird.

Now, I’m wondering if I should mention the depression (obviously I won’t talk about the suicidal thoughts). I was doing some research and adderall/ritalin apparently is sometimes used […]

2/18/2013 4 comments

Hanging On By A Thread

by hugoka 1/15/2013

written by hugoka

Originally, I always thought that god loved me, and that other people loved me too. I thought that my lack of talents or good traits was just unlucky. But I dont think God loves me, or anyone else for that matter. Even my own mum, admitted that she thought that i am “Sick”. My parents are never going to be happy. Neither am I. It doesnt help that i have no talents or abilities or ethics, even the most basic instructions i find hard to understand. Im slow. Im dumb. Im weak. I have been called all these things by my parents. Theyre right of […]

1/15/2013 3 comments

For what?

by drknght90 1/4/2013

written by drknght90

What’s life when you live it alone? Lost with no home. Call but nobody picks up the phone. The ones you’ve loved have left. They say they did it to help you so how’s that make sense? So now your against the fence. What do you do keep moving on hoping it gets better. But it so much easier to let it all go just to let all fall. Fuck it just let it hang out. Take those pills smoke that shit drink down till it’s all gone. And when the bottle is empty so is ur mind u can escape this time even if […]

1/4/2013 1 comment

Authenticity?

by k.d.d. 2/22/2012

written by k.d.d.

I have never in my life interacted with another human who understands how painful my everyday existence is. Â No one understands. Â I’m terrified to even post on this, for fear of being exposed. Â Superficial empathy can be found anywhere. Â It can be found especially easy upon the lips of the proud. Â I have seen too many people “reach out” as a last hope, only to be ostracized and ridiculed. Â People are harsh. Â This leaves only the option of attempting to survive the evening, yet agin, and hope that the deep sorrow becomes numbing sooner than later.

Certainly, I would think, that there is someone out there […]

2/22/2012 6 comments

lie to the pain

by emped808 1/20/2012

written by emped808

For seven years now ive been lieingÂ to myself believing things would get better, people would change….my efforts to hold on would pay off….but ive hit a point where everything has lost meaning and hope….my thoughts of suicide are my only form of happiness now…my life has lost value i no longer see the point in waken up….i cant escape my thoughts no matter how hard i try….everyone doesntÂ Â Â realize the hurt i feel n why its so easy for me to jus not care about anything…they take it as a Â joke n use me as an escape from their lives….ive tried to reach out for […]

1/20/2012 2 comments