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I just want my thoughts to stop

by hollylion 12/4/2015

written by hollylion

All the memories just replay in my head over and over. The good ones make me think how can this possibly be happening when things were so good? And the bad ones make me wonder what I did wrong and think of a million other ways I could have done things differently. Just over and over and over.

The only time I get away is if my sleeping pills work or I’m asleep. I feel like if I had the access and knowledge I would become an addict to something because I can’t imagine living a life being haunted by memories. How am I supposed to […]

12/4/2015 1 comment

Sunday Blues

by nextime1988 11/29/2015

written by nextime1988

Usualy people dread mondays, something i’ve always found dificult to grasp as my least favourite day of the week has always been Sunday, specially since my depression and suicidal thoughts began, specially now during the winter. when the cold and cloudy days take their toll.

And here i am again in the living room thinking about killing myself, and as opposed to perhaps all of you wishing for Monday to kick in.

11/29/2015 6 comments

What are we living for?

by heartless 11/28/2015

written by heartless

Hollow smiles and empty days

Fading light and lonely nights

A struggle to find what’s been lost

A fight that never ends

Watching time slip away

I’m just trying for one reason right now, but I already fucked everything up in my life. Symptoms are getting worse, and the worst time of the year is coming up again. Fun.

Stupid idiot

11/28/2015 0 comment

What is my life worth?

by bah 11/26/2015

written by bah

I’m perpetually depressed, I have no one, no friends, no one to love me or care about me. I wish I could just end my life, but I can’t even do that.

I don’t see how “things will get better” when it hasn’t for three decades.

I have suffered all of my life. My childhood was filled with abuse, my 20s and 30s has been wrought with illness and injuries, ones that affect me every day of my life and will never get better. I am in constant pain. I’m not in my 40s yet but my miserable existence begs the question: What is the point of living?

11/26/2015 6 comments

It gets worst at night

by nextime1988 11/23/2015

written by nextime1988

Barely could sleep last night, if anythig other than water enters my stomach it will come out right after, i’ve been hiding from my family as i don’t want them to see my teary eyes, it’s 10:30 pm it seems to get worst at night, the only place i feel safe is the living room i can’t even go to bed.

11/23/2015 2 comments

Hello

by Costy 11/22/2015

written by Costy

Hello guys. I think I will go next month when I will turn 20. Atheism is right. I ‘ve been through a lot of shit and I think everything is meaningless. Now some of you will say stay alive, some will shut up and some will say go through it. And I think I will go through it. What can be better than eternal silence?

We are just made/evolved so we can reproduce and carry on the species.Everything that happens are just chemicals in our brain. I am really tired. And I hate the most those people that say that life is worth living however it […]

11/22/2015 4 comments

Lost Soul

by jcub91 11/22/2015

written by jcub91

I’m not entirely sure when it happened, probably somewhere in between losing my best friend(whom I loved, and thought was my soulmate) and getting involved with drinking and smoking weed on a regular basis; I lost my soul. I really don’t have any friends and I don’t enjoy spending time with people most of the time. I like my alone time, not because I’m a loner but for the simple reason it seems impossible to make friends who share similar interests and aren’t complete assholes. It just seems like everyone is selfish and act like they are so much better. I didn’t grow up in […]

11/22/2015 3 comments

Goodnight

by safieeatszombies 11/18/2015

written by safieeatszombies

I’ve been here before.

Broken, alone, my heart so sore.

The sadness runs deep

My hill to steep.

My dreams a rumbling nightmare.

And All I can wonder is,

Why should I care.

I’m not in despair.

I just can’t figure out,

If this is fair.

They claim they’re is karma.

The good and the bad.

I should be glad.

You know?

I’ve done many good deeds.

And I should be freed.

Yet, here I am

Sitting in the dark.

Waiting for just a little spark.

A spark of good in life.

Can’t I give up?

This losing fight.

I’m tired of waiting for my light.

I want to sleep.

My last words to be goodnight.

But then I’d be a disappointment.

Like they all claim me to be.

I’m living in […]

11/18/2015 2 comments

Losing War

by Alfred1688 11/16/2015

written by Alfred1688

Every day I wake up with the same thought

Reminiscing about the losing battles that I fought

I remind myself of these miserable pasts

So that I may learn and achieve victory at last

Sometimes I win a battle but not the war

I still go on for what I’m fighting for

But lately I have only met defeat

Making it harder to stand on my feet

Must I give up and accept this fate?

Living in shackles with a heavy weight?

I refuse to live in such a way

But losing […]

11/16/2015 2 comments

I suck at life

by disgusting 11/15/2015

written by disgusting

That’s nothing new… hundreds of YouTube trolls told me that long ago. Anyway, I begged and kept on about trying to hang with the guy I like and I’m at the place he’s living now and about 8 people live here. Naturally there’s not much interaction and I’ve talked more to the other friend who does graphics design for a living and we compared work and gave tips to each other. And I’m staring at him like the piece of meat he is. Like a fat kid looking into a bakery when it’s closed for the night… looking at him and being unable to deny […]

11/15/2015 1 comment

Strange medical condition – Social outcast

by witheringdaisies 11/13/2015

written by witheringdaisies

Hello. I’m 19 years old. Female. College student. Living with my mom. I just turned 19 last month. People always tell me that I’m young and I have a whole life ahead of me, and I have so much more to achieve. Well, that’s true, but how could I continue living with this weird sickness that causes everyone to avoid me?

It’s not the physical pain that kills me, it’s the emotional pain brought by it. To be honest, I’m embarrassed to even talk about it to my closest friends. I’ve been on this medical forum and realize there are others like me, and […]

11/13/2015 5 comments

my dream

by sadsadist 11/12/2015

written by sadsadist

Death in glorious combat nothing in my mind can surpass the greatness of that so I’m one step closer everyday my future is a box or urn having a family and living paycheck to paycheck is overrated from what I’ve seen anyways

11/12/2015 14 comments

Again and again….

by abisslover25 11/11/2015

written by abisslover25

I had several really good days.. Until last night

Today is another day, I can’t shut my brain off, the thoughts circling around in my head I want to die.

Why don’t I just end it because I know how this works, I have a few good days and then they turn bad, very bad. I feel like the good days aren’t even worth living anymore because I never know when my mind is going to switch. I hate everything. I hate living like this. This isn’t a life, it’s just full of pain.

11/11/2015 8 comments

an artsy-fart i wrote for my ex-gf earlier this year….

by joshieboy9 11/11/2015

written by joshieboy9

guess she’s been having trouble dodging bullets these days

guess she’s a liar when she says everything’s okay

we’re just hanging on the time we’ve been given

not dead yet but never again living

11/11/2015 0 comment

I Wish I had Cancer

by TheStonerWhoCould 11/10/2015

written by TheStonerWhoCould

There are so many people suffering, So many people on the verge of death. They wake up every morning hoping their fate will change, praying for a miracle. Every night they dream of being free from their condition and living a full happy life.

And then here I am, a person with a healthy life, with my whole life ahead of me. Healthy and young I have so much to live for, but every day I wake up and hope my fate will change, I pray for tragedy. Every night I dream of being free from this condition called life.

Why cant we switch. Why I can I […]

11/10/2015 8 comments

My story

by suicide.lizard 11/5/2015

written by suicide.lizard

Sorry for bothering whoever a out there but idk. Just wanna share my story I guess. I’m clinically diagnosed with very very bad depression and anxiety, ptsd, OCD, adhd, and dyslexia… I have 4 attempts. All failed of course. I mean I’m still here obviously. But like.. I’m gay. At school I get called so many names… My gf (ex now) spreads rumors that I tried to sleep with her and that I’ve slept with many girls and guys (I’m a virgin). And my life is basically a living nightmare… And I’m not sure I can go on anymore.

11/5/2015 7 comments

Stuck.

by scythe 11/4/2015

written by scythe

I’ve been stuck in the same place for almost 4 years now. I’m a 26 year old male who graduated college 4 years ago. I never knew what I wanted to do with my life but went to college simply because I thought I was supposed to. Since then I’ve been working at a lowly part time dead end job and living with my parents. I’ve looked for work on and off for 4 years now but with my lack of direction and focus I’ve had zero luck. Lately my motivation has been lacking as well, why put all that effort into something […]

11/4/2015 3 comments

I Accidentally Lived

by winterskyout 11/3/2015

written by winterskyout

I’m living, but I’m not alive. Human biology prevents me from holding my breath for too long and survival instincts prohibit the drugs from shutting down my body. The overdose quantity of acetaminophen, Dramamine, and caffeine do not stand a chance against thousands of years of perseverance; and all of that history and perseverance is embedded in DNA, thriving in me and laying dormant. I’m killing it, because I can’t be a part of that humanity. I never belonged with them. I never belonged anywhere. I’m living, but I’m not enjoying life.

I’ve only accidentally made it to the next day. If fate and life were […]

11/3/2015 1 comment

enough

by jano.11 10/26/2015

written by jano.11

sometimes i cant think about anything but death

but when i see the one that smashed me and raped my heart before my body seeking my death

i say that i will not surrender i will not fade

i will be stronger than all that happened to me ,, i will never break ,, maybe i am already broken and feeling death through my vines

he wants me to die

and i will never help him to be pleasured

i will smile i will laugh i will be strong and forget everything about my pain

i will never ask to be dead again and never think about it ,, i will kill […]

10/26/2015 5 comments

Felo-de-se

by Mike Rowedick 10/26/2015

written by Mike Rowedick

Felo-de-se

Why did I have to be born this way?
Life’s a game, I’ll no longer play

Humiliated, degraded with every word that’s spoke
Why am I just a pathetic joke?

Why did I have to be born this way?
In a world like this, I’ll no longer stay

Treated like shit from the moment I awoke
The toughest of souls would find themselves broke

Why keep on living you disgusting, cock-less freak?
The same familiar words from all those whom bother to speak

Isn’t it wrong to treat me this way?
Why the fuck would I want to stay?

Just a pathetic tiny dick joke
Made to feel worthless […]

10/26/2015 0 comment

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