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Lonely

Where do I belong in this world? feeling so alone and nobody understand me

by niki 1/3/2011

written by niki

I feel so alone…again.
Maybe this so-called Real world is just not for me, or ‘weird’ people like me…

Here’s why:

– I can’t relate to 80% of people (society) around me everyday, in that they’re actually enthusiastically talk only about money, how to get more money, and how to spend more in luxurious things.
– Music has always been my utmost passion & dreams that I intend to pursue it (so much that I in fact just decided to quit on my 7-years dull furniture-factory family-business job, a decision which shocks everyone in my big Asian Chinese family), but lately after hearing my friends’ talks, and […]

1/3/2011 6 comments

Shes toxic bacteria

by marlajade 1/3/2011

written by marlajade

[Natalie] Anything you wish to say at this very special moment?

LIAR. FAILURE. FAT. WHORE. USELESS DROPOUT SHIT. TOXIC PREGNANT CUTSLUT. JERKOUT TRUCK WOMAN WITH A MANUFACTURED EGO. HOPELESS AT LOVE. WORSE AT LIFE. MENTAL WASTEOUT COCKEATER. DETATCHED MUTE GIRL. SEMI AWAKE REJECT. RSA ENCODED GOVERNMENT SECRET. NAUGHTY NAUGHTY FINGER FUCKIN HORNY LITTLE NAUGHTY PANTY CAM GIRL.

[bleach the girl][a bleach bottle on an empty cabinet]

[comatose[corrode[Clorox[low

Imgonnatearyouapart[imintearsasireadthis]

peroxide. mechanical surveillance culture. misery butterfly. studio meds.

i think youre conceited[and i dont believe you do care]

next to you [they [sic] love you] in the mirror

in the bar. then outside. i fell into the trap. i am a child in playboy bunny […]

1/3/2011 6 comments

catatonic state

by marlajade 12/18/2010

written by marlajade

NORTH. [god is a corpse you can talk to with roses]. I hate it [youre there arent you]. I wake up each day in tears[sometimes bleeding]. I always have. Instead of eating i cut. I am the poster girl for cocaine abuse. Maybe Im already dead. I feel like it. I cant honestly be here. Can i. It hurts so much. dont believe in depression[or a god or deity]. dont want to. didnt feel like it so I never [fucking] tried. [girl] didnt eat cause girl was afraid. Never liked music cause music is false. wanted to die since thirteen. didnt throw up Im always […]

12/18/2010 2 comments

i am black silk sticky taste

by marlajade 12/17/2010

written by marlajade

Yeh pretty much the whole world has fucked up since you left.

My own mother hates me[find me].

I am black silk cigarette smoke. tarnished sticky suicide addict. I refuse to move. I cant breath. I cant understand these people. and lets face it why would I. I havent washed in ten days. My hair is greasy. I’m unemployed. I cut it off some weeks ago, so its not like, getting in my tired face or anything. I sleep all day. Â [pretend to be dead girl cause the woman inside is dying to leave]. In New York the temperature is three degrees below zero. Maybe i tried […]

12/17/2010 0 comment

Change

by niki 12/16/2010

written by niki

“Each day as people make new choices we create the possible futures, so nothing right now is fixed.”

“â€˜Nothing we can do can change the past, but everything we do changes the future.” – Ashleigh Brilliant

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” – Maria Robinson

“Those who have changed the universe have never done it by changing officials, but always by inspiring the people”
– Napoleon Boneparte

“It is not what we get, but what we contribute… that gives meaning to our lives.” – Tony Robbins

â€œNever doubt that a small group of thoughtful committed […]

12/16/2010 0 comment

The Meaning of Life

by niki 12/10/2010

written by niki

If you have 45 minutes, reading this won’t do any hurt,
hopefully even it might give some inceptions or some mind-opening or adding.

http://users.aristotle.net/~diogenes/meaning1.htm#questions1

“An idea is like a virus. Resilient…highly contagious. The smallest of an idea can grow. It can grow to define, or destroy you” – Inception (2010 movie)

12/10/2010 0 comment

Horrible Pointless Life

by BornDepressed87 12/10/2010

written by BornDepressed87

Hello,

Im a 23 year old male from the UK.

My life is pointlessÂ andÂ IÂ have never beenÂ happy.

I have sufferd from depression and other mental health issuesÂ for years. Ive been on so many different types of medication for my mental health problems. I am currently taking Venlafaxine.

IÂ haveÂ a very poorÂ education and I haveÂ no job.

I was very violent in my early teens, I was permanently excluded from school at the age of 13, then I wasÂ sent toÂ a pupil referral unit along with other misbehaved kids.

I was addicted to amphetamine when I was 13 up untill I was 16, I also smoked cannabis heavily at that age. Then I stoppedÂ using them and […]

12/10/2010 11 comments

Distraction

by KlashingKamille 11/27/2010

written by KlashingKamille

I hate life so fucking much. I hate everything. I want to die so much, I want to hurt, I want the shit beaten out of me, I want to have reasons for wanting to kill myself but I have none, and I have like, two friends left after The Betrayal.
But i cant do it.
I cant kill myself, Im afraid, not of death itself, but leaving oppurtunities.
I want first love, first kiss, first time, I want to see my little cousins grow up with me there.
But I hate life.
I have a house, food, clothes, family, all that you basically need.

11/27/2010 2 comments

I’m sick of this.

by lostmaria 11/26/2010

written by lostmaria

So, on saturday i planned on coming out to my parents. I am bisexual and was going to tell them finally. but i dont even know if should now. They have been ignoring me so much. When i try talking to them they just pretend to listen. My mom loves her grandkids more then me. and me and my brother both know she favors my sister. I am so sick of it. I hate my family. I mean everyone. they all talk about me behind my back because i’m always dressing up in black and listen to screamo. I think its pathetic. And when my […]

11/26/2010 2 comments

Depressed for no great reasons…

by KlashingKamille 11/24/2010

written by KlashingKamille

Ive been depressed for a while, Im 14 years old and done with all the ‘all teenagers go through this phase’ bullshit. Ive gone psychologist to psychologist, from hospital to hospital, and happy pills. Im not depressed for any good reasons. I have a house. I have food. I have clothes. Im for the most part healthy. But i cry over the stupidest things, like how i look.

I was thinking about the fight with my ex-friends that caused me to drop out of school (im considering homeschool or just running away, even ‘therapeutic boarding school’ if we can afford it). I start crying everytime i […]

11/24/2010 5 comments

Someone?

by lostmaria 11/19/2010

written by lostmaria

Ive been feeling lonely. no one i know has the slightest idea of whats wrong with me, they all think i’m perfectly fine , even though they noticed something change in me and not want to do things i would normally do.

I just want a friend. Someone i can finally feel close too. I recently lost my bestfriend who was from Arizona too. I would help her with her issues she would help me with mine. I feel all this stuff piling up, and i mean sometimes i write it out in a journal . but i dont think it helps.

I […]

11/19/2010 4 comments

Emptiness

by KlashingKamille 11/18/2010

written by KlashingKamille

I feel ridiculous, having searched for a place to share my innermost feelings and thoughts of suicide…
I’m 14 years old, and have horrid self-esteem/confidence issues. I find myself repulsive, but yearn for love. I get no support from my family, not even my twin sister who hates me for getting attention i dont want. I go to a psychologist who tells me to go to school.
Did i mention i sort of dropped out, except i go every once in a while after my parents beat me.
I hurt so badly, over nothing. I have a house, food in my cupboards, clothes, im not […]

11/18/2010 6 comments

I want help.

by lostmaria 11/13/2010

written by lostmaria

i feel lost , lonely, worthless, and like attempting suicide. but i want help.

11/13/2010 5 comments

Suicide- You can Overcome- A true Story

by stand4more 9/13/2010

written by stand4more

If you’ve ever thought of suicide or even know someone who has, YOU MUST WATCH THIS VIDEO! Hope it encourages you 🙂

9/13/2010 7 comments

Fidgety

by Pathos Angel 8/6/2010

written by Pathos Angel

So lets jump right on in… Im a 20 year old drop out, been on probation for the past three years… Ive got two girlfriends right now which is completley out of charactor for me because im a gentleman for the most part, but anymore i dont care, i feel my relationships are going to end the same way they always do me being left for someone else cause im too nice or too caring, or just not a piece of shit! So why not try n mix things up and Im tired.
Everything seems like its about to just explode or implode or some […]

8/6/2010 1 comment

Miserable life

by twitchn 12/28/2009

written by twitchn

I am now 18 years old, living with my parrents in Ohio. My parrents never really did anything with me especially my father. I am an outcast from my school, and have no real friends when i was `16 i withdrew from people and started playing a game called Second Life(a type of online chatting software). It was amazing how much better this made me feel. i met people and made friends, and it quickly became an addiction. Recently though i havent had anyone to talk to there either. People avoid me in both lives. i have come closer and closer to pulling out one […]

12/28/2009 6 comments

Just trying to be here

by Kieylee102 6/24/2009

written by Kieylee102

I’m trying to be here and be happy but I just don’t know how long I can keep up this lie. I look at the person that really cares about me and feel so bad about lying to them. I’ve lied about a lot and I don’t want to keep lying but I feel that if I tell her what I really have going on in my head I think it would scare her so much she’d be afraid of me. Then just yesterday I did something stupid but she doesn’t know. The other day she asked me if I have been thinking about cutting […]

6/24/2009 4 comments

Just Dont know what to do

by Jenny 6/4/2009

written by Jenny

Hello

I’ve chickened out so many times but I know one day I will do it. I do feel guilty thinking of people that have died that would have given anything to live I feel so selfish. I was abused when I was younger and cant speak to anyone cause it was a family member. I think of the family and how that news would destroy their lifes so I keep it bottled up so they can live their lifes normally whats one life compared to so many. For a while I was happy but that all ended it seems my life is just meant to […]

6/4/2009 2 comments

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