My son committed suicide after a long time of unbearable mental and emotional anguish. Suicide seemed like a great relief in his mind. A few weeks after he died, we found out that the doctor had been giving him the wrong medicine for all that time and the medicine is known to cause extreme torment of the kind he was feeling. If he had only had his medicine changed, he would have been fine and happy and smiling. His brother had his medicine changed, and now he is happy, though I myself am a resident living in a hospital because of what my son’s death […]
I have tried for a long time to break out of this.
Hello! They say writing and sharing your experiences can be therapeutic, and in my case that is especially true. So, today I thought I’d take a moment to sit down and have a little chat with all of you.
My story really begins about 8-9 months ago. I was going through a rough time, I had just found out I have a lump in my spine. In the past years I have been diagnosed with:
Reynauds Disease
Fibromyalgia
Osteoporosis (in my neck)
Osteoarthritis (neck, again)
Heart Arrhythmia
Severe Insomnia […]
This is my first ever post and will keep it brief. Basically i lost my job then my partner of 6 years left me and now the finances are stretched and i am more than likely going to loose my house and car. Its hard when your suddenly all alone like most of the people here are. I hope every day that something good will happen but it doesnt. I learnt a long time ago to only look after yourself as there are no guarantees when it comes to other people. The only thing that has made things a bit easier are my pet cats. […]
Im frightened of living, but also of dying.
This has been of my mind for a long time, but now i received a message that murdered me emotionally.
Help. I’m stuck between two things. Please… dont mention counseling. Ive tried it and it only brought me down more. My family and ‘friends’ think im okay again.
Im not.
Help.
I feel like I am hitting my head against the wall and I feel like IÂ just cant keep doing this anymore… I am running on the little reasons that I have. I am done trying.. my depression has held me back for a long time…I do not want too keep fighting this battle anymore….
Ive suffered from depression for a long time. I made some mistakes when i was young when i was going through some really hard times. Now many years later ive made up for those mistakes and i work very hard. Sadly, a website posted a picture of me when i was arrested like 15 years ago. Now when ever i meet someone new , or someone from my past looks me up on the internet, the first thing they see is this picture of my arrest record. So even though i was not found guilty and the case was closed, i still am sentenced to […]
This is me by the way.
Alright, well my names Michaela.
And I am 18 years old.
I just got out of the hospital on Monday for my depression and suicidal ideations.
I have been begging and pleading for a specific persons help for a long time so i wont have the feeling and urge to kill myself.
But he has been treating me like shit, putting me on the side and making me feel worthless.
I have had it.
He was the only thing keeping […]
… since i cried last time, i really want to cry, Â just let it all out, i am depressed, i am confused… i really do want to cry but for some reason i can’t… i wonder why?
Sometimes I wish I’d just die already. I wish that I’d drowned when I was 2, or hit my head on the concrete as an infant like I almost did, but the universe is dead set on watching me suffer. I’ve tried so many different things to try and make it all go away, I tried cutting, it didn’t help, I tried popping tylenol whenever I felt down, and it helped for a while, but it doesn’t anymore. I’ve tried just crying for a long time, it made me feel worse.
I’m only 13, and life has already ended for me. My past is full of the […]
It’s been so long since I’ve written. So glad to be back with my family. Have you ever just sought comfort from a stranger? I know I have.
A lot had happened.
Me and Brice (love of my life) went out…once again. He ended up not talking to me for 2 whole weeks. Then he said he never wanted to talk to me again. I once again wrote my suicide letter, thinking I had nothing more to live for. I think it was the 6th time. But anyways he eventually ended up talking to me again. We still talk. Everything is not solved and I’ve promised so […]
so, today i felt like i had to write my suicide note because i was feeling really crappy.  i don’t know if  id ever do it, but i had the biggest urge to tonight. so here it is, just so i could tell someone.
mom, i love you and i always will. you were always there for me, always helped me with anything. but i dont think i could be helped this time. this was my own choice.
i have always wanted to leave. i was always forcing that smile and laugh, just so you thought i was happy. i was never happy. i don’t know […]
This isn’t my first post here…But whenever I post something on this site, I feel like how I constantly feel when I do something like this in the real world – that I’m saying things that no-one wants to listen to, bothering people with my problems when nobody gives a damn. It’s been that way for a long time. Whenever I vent and rant, people just never cared. All they wanted me to do was to shut up and get on with my life, without giving a damn about what my problems were. That, mixed with the near-physical discomfort I feel when I cause someone […]
Hello, its me Anya, im not sure whos caring bout this post but whatever. So my thoughts, they have goten better, i still think bout suicide but in a way a little less negative, talking on here really help, oh and a big thank you to KeepBreathing4Now for listning to me vent, atm i feel happy i havent felt like that in a long time im not sure if it will stay that way, im kinda scared to be happy because it dosent stay that way for very long. Ah its late, good night, see you another day, that is if my thoughts dont get […]
Hello SP
This is by far one of the oddest things I have ever been asked to do. But here goes.
Some of you may remember me from a few years ago. My wife died in childbirth and my daughter of leukemia. I was angry at the world and god. I tried to kill myself. I meet someone here who saved my life. He talked me down from my darkest hour and we became good friends. He too knew grief, we were bonded by pain.
I was diagnosed with cancer this year, I almost didn’t get the treatment, but he convinced me to change my mind. I am now in remission. He has saved […]
I wrote this story last night on a piece of loose leaf.
“I don’t eat because I think I’m fat. I see a photo of me and I look fat. So I don’t eat. I had a talk with Dennis and Gloria today, both separate conversations. I realized I don’t want to die. I want to love and hopefully get sponsored by red bull one day for snowboarding and Roxy. That’s what I really want. I want to be happy again. I need a phone. Serious though. I need to smile and mean it. This is the starting point tonight. I wanted to kill myself and […]
When you left its like you took my happiness with you & left me with all the memories. Every moment we ever spent together replays in my head over & over again. You seem to be all I ever think about. I can’t escape because its all in my head. I wish I could sleep for a long time because when you sleep you don’t feel. I won’t have to feel the pain in my chest or the twisting in my stomach. You’ve moved on & I’m in the same place you left me. Its hard letting go to everything you’ve ever wanted.
hello.
i’m 17, suicidal, and very confused.
I’ve wanted to die for a long time. for many reasons. but the things stopping me have always been the friends who i owe the little sanity i have now, and the hope that i might actually be able to enjoy life at some, more independent point.
Personally i dont understand what family is supposed to be. i don’t understand the love some people have for their families. is that strange? i just. i don’t feel it. my younger brother is the only one that i feel protective of.
however i love my friends with everything i have. they are amazing and nothing will […]
This is what could, as you would say “break the camel’s back”. I may have lost someone I considered a brother, but I could lose the only closest person after him… My sister (not related).
My sister and I have been close friends for close to about six years. We have spent so much time together and told each other many secrets. Even though I still act somewhat paranoid around her, I know she still cares for me and we love each other very much. It was only recently did we start talking again since there was a break in our education that allowed up free […]
I said things where better and I thought they where. I was wrong though. just hours after my last post all hell broke loose. My dad went crazy he got mad at me and he threw me on my bed and was shaking me and hitting me and I screamed that I hated him. he grabbed me and dragged me head first off my bed and slammed me to the floor. He saw my mom at the store and he told me that she didn’t want me. Nobody wants me anymore… My family has abandoned me…and I don’t know what to do.
The only reason I am awake […]