It doesn’t matter to the sun. If I go or if I stay. The sun will rise like its just another day. It doesn’t matter to the sun no it only matters to me. It doesn’t matter to the world if I jump or if I drown. It will just keep turning round, turning round like it did the day before. It doesn’t matter to the world no. It only matters to me. It doesn’t matter to the moon if I cry tonight alone. That moon will just keep hanging round, hanging round, shine on some other woman’s dreams. You see it doesn’t matter to […]
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I did this because a friend inspired me. He was promoting doitinadress.com and I got this idea, and here’s the result of that. This is my hobby, paintball, and video editing, filming, this is what keeps me happy with life. Find your own happiness through life. Have love for all, because all has essence of spirit, and will give you love back if you try to percieve it
My boyfriend and i are together for the last 4 years(long distance relationship),very very happy,but 6 months back he told me he will not marry me,since then i feel very insecure and immensely fear losing him.Even though i’ve always been sure he loves me a lot,out of frustration i’ve been yelling things i shouldn’t have and hurt him,hes been very forgiving all this time but last night he said he couldn’t bear it anymore and told me not the contact him in anyway.I can’t control myself what do i do?I really never wanted to hurt him,but hes the only one i feel i own,which i […]
After sitting in the bath with a razor blade in my. Thinking I should just do it. Just die. Just get it over with an leave. But then something stopped me. I thought what had led me up to this? What has been so bad that has led me to thinking that killing myself is the best answer. I sat in my bath for about two hours just thinking, and meditating. It doesn’t  have to be like this. I making it like this. I don’t have to be depressed I don’t have to constantly feel bad for myself and only think about my past. Yes […]
hello, well i recently lost my sick daughter. i knew she was going to die eventually but i didn’t want it to be through suicide. i feel so upset and ashamed that i wasn’t there for her. I’m the worst mother in the world and i did not deserve to have such a beautiful and kind kid. i got a letter and some of it was,
dear mum I’m sorry i have been such a disappointment i didn’t mean to. why did you never understand? but none of this is your fault and i will always love you.
she said more but its too heartbreaking. i miss […]
I want to hate every part of you with me, yet I still love you.. You just totally fucked me over.. I want to give up on EVERYTHING, would it be bad if i was gone? Mhh.. It’s getting harder now.. I don;t know how long i’ll be able to do this anymore.. Gosh dang it! Please I’m begging you help me?
We might be getting back together…I don’t know why I’m still crying…..
My life drags on.. Day by day.. Night by night. The easiest I can make it is sleeping, dreaming, only the dreams sometimes brings nightmares. Can life really be this difficult? Is it really possible that souls can be so.. Broken, that the only way out is taking ones life? Was it necessary to even put the broken souls on earth to just suffer in silence? To cry themselves to sleep? To be so needy of death to save them..? Are tears even worth it? I can put ink on paper and still have nightmares about waking up. Life is displeasing. What if I left? […]
I can’t go on anymore. Â The pain is to much for me to handle, no one wants me, my mother kicked me out, my father is on the brink. My life is just lies. LIes about school, love, and health. I am not fine…so why do I keep saying I am? I am broken and bruised the only way I feel anything is when the cool metal of the blade touches my skin, I promised I would stop. I can’t .
Death th constant in my life- thoughts,actions,success- my goal, my one and only goal
Mitch Lucker’s death really hit me hard. I cried over his death like I should have a family members’. Â A lot of people say how can a band change your life, before one did…I thought the same. But when a band or maybe just a single song changes your life…you just know. Suicide Silence and Mitch Lucker in general are one of the bands that made me who I am. Changed my life really.
RIP Mitch we will miss you. You changed my life and so many others, thank you <3
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The love of my life lives in Kansas….I live in North Carolina. We have been off and on for almost a year now. We got back together about 2 months ago then he broke up with me. I fell back into cutting and pills. He swore he didn’t like anyone else, it was just the distance. He asked out my best friend 2 days after he told me that. I want to fucking hate him so much….but I can’t. He doesn’t know I know. I promised him I wouldn’t cut or get high…..yet my arm is filled with new scars and my pill bottles are […]
I threw everything into the river, everything that represents him. A gift for valentines day he gave me, a bracelet, a love not, a comb he left at my place, only little things which I still had. They had to go. I went, I threw them one by one, banishing the memories that they were bound too. Then the last thing, the box.
I call it the box to those who actually care, that know about it. The box is about 20cm by 7cm by 5cm, small, brown, smells of worn perfume and nights out. Inside, 4 blood soaked tissues, a pair of scissors, a suicide […]
It has been a year and a half since i have seen your smiling faces.
why did i let it come to this. i have nothing but remorse for not being there to see yall grow and learn. there is so much i have and will miss. Being here is not the same without yall. i regret the days i should have cherished, for i will never have them back. Love dont live here anymore, Its been cold since you went away. Im sorry for what is to come, ill always love you. There is no place in this world for me. just remember how i […]
There Is so much pressure on my heart I’m surprised I’m not dead cause of It…..sadly.
When the only thinq you have left Is pride and then when thats taken away from you what then?I keep thinkinq back In April (a few days before my birthday) my friend made a comment about his qirl and I and I told him *****’s just *****.He qot pissed and his qirl wanted to “fiqht” me.After that we started drivinq back to our side and It was dead silent.He went to my house to drop me off,Instead I qot out the car and he followed me.We talked.I’m tellinq him dude […]
I just want to die. I have plenty of friends, great job, beautiful house. But I’m just tired. Tired of pretending my life is great. My husband is a selfish ass. And of course the only thing that matters is how he sees me. Even though I know he is a selfish ass. I want him to give me some credit. Not put me down for every thing I do, think or say. Of course I’ve tried to talk to him about this ( only for 18 years). but women are the ever ” I can fix it” – with enough love understanding and communication […]
I some times come to this site and read the articles on here. Sometimes to get ideas and others because it makes me feel less alone, but no matter how much I read it, I just feel useless. Why am I sad, why can’t I be happy, why can’t I want something, why do I have no motivation, no drive, no love for anything? Why can’t I try to be the person I want to be? Why can’t I end it? I just want it all to end and disappear I wish I was never born then I won’t be a burden on anyone, I […]
I can’t help it. I just can’t stand it anymore. I’m so alone… There’s no one for me. No one to care, no one to help, no one to even just see.
My friends have been ignoring me, and I don’t know why. I know I’ve snapped a few times, but they have too. And now, one of them, one of the two who mean the most to me, hates me–at the very least. I want to say is was because he wouldn’t communicate with me. I feel like he’s blaming me for everything that happened, and I hate it. I get blamed for enough […]
Im ending my life tonight. I am tired of being bullied and abused. I’ll always love you babe</3 Don’t forget that! Well i guess this is goodbye. Goodbye guys, thanks for all the help you tired to offer.
 Remember, Your body is to fragile to be hurt.
-Lexis
everythings supposed to be perfect. i have the most amazing boyfriend ever but… i still want to cut and puke. i cant eat normal even though he begs me to. im still depressed. i still want to die. i still feel fucking empty like i dont exist…. WHY? this was supposed to fix everything having my best friend in the whole universe as my boyfriend but somethings wrong. i just wanna starve, cut and die but he wont let me.
i dont know how much longer i can last