I’m ugly I’m really ugly. 3rd time of chemo and I’m already really sick, ive lost over half my hair and its terrifying i’m scared I’m really scared. this is causing even more pain. should i kill myself now or carry on suffering in pain? cancer is to hard its awful and i dont see how im going to survive! ive been getting messages that im worthless, ugly, useless, good for nothing and that i should go kill myself. the hurtful things people have said to me its to hard to cope,…. how much longer can i last??? i feel really weak and helpless last night […]
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You ask me for sex; You ask to hang; You kissed me; Yet you hang with her? Then you text me about another girl? Boy get your mind straight! Dang, No I will not take you back, is this how it goes? K, M, K, M, B, K ? I don’t think so hunn. Get your mind straight.. Please? I remember when you were sooo close to hitting me for cutting i felt it all when you punched that door.. Please baby.. Keep going..
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Today marks one year since my dad passed..
its crazy even thinking about it bcuz it feels like it was just yesterday. I will never forget seeing him in his casket at his funeral. That had to be the hardest thing to ever witness or even deal with, but I did it & i’m so proud of myself.
i’ve gotten through so much shit this year ! i’ve accomplished so much, yet made so many mistakes. i’ve messed up so bad at times, but I tried to make him proud the best way I could.
Daddy, i’m so sorry for everything i’ve done, all the mistakes […]
Just a couple days was all it took to know I loved you.I still admit you were the best thing that’s ever walked in my life.When we met you were so happy.Then you talked about killing yourself and that made me feel terrible I wanted you to stay I wanted to be one of the reasons you’d stay but you said i wasn’t enough..but still you stayed we broke up..I never thought it would Be this hard.Seeing you move on hurts so much.Iv tried to get out there open up ask for help..meet new people.But none of them are you.I love you.My first love.And every […]
I really don’t know how to start this,
I fell in love with a girl i couldn’t call my own. We had all these plans like getting married and all this. She was the one i want and she still is. She quit talking to me for about a minth. And i fell apart. I started cutting after not doing it for a year. She didn’t leave my mind. She was always there, we talked 24/7. And the thoughts lingered in my head and they never leave. She left without saying goodbye. I wrote her and she replied a week later. Saying […]
Don’t know what the hell I be on about, But from here and there, I belong nowhere….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
I don’t want to come back. Chat room is mentally destroying me.. And I don’t even come here much anymore. The Suicide Project is dying out.. And me? Well, I was just one of the many members. If you have taken the time to read this, Thank you. You are probably one of the very few left trying to keep the Suicide Project torch burning. Good luck… People need this place.
But me? Well, People always say.. There is no such thing as a happy ending. I guess this is the end of my story.. :'( It’s been Interesting though, I guess. Met some amazing people..
Orangish, For one. […]
i have been feeling pretty good after me and my boyfriend got back together he made me feel so happy again and the happiest girl in the world, me and him was all that mattered to me. I got him back and only realized after he moved away this week that i was so dependent on him too make me happy, he is the only reason i want to get out of bed some days! he said he would come back after two months but lets not bull shit our self he is most likely going to stay with his parents alot longer then two […]
Hello to whoever is reading this. My name is Brooke and I am 19 years old. This is my very first blog in my life, not quite sure what I am doing. I wanted to start just because I am going through a rough time right now in my life and I want people to hear my story.
I want to talk to everyone about suicide. Suicide is the third leading cause of death between 15-24 year olds. Nearly 30,000 Americans take their own lives every year. An average of one person dies by suicide every 16.2 minutes. Crazy right? What causes people do do […]
if you feel lost or like it will never get better i highly recommend you to give this website a look at.. it may help or make u feel better. she did it.. so can we <3 stay strong www.piawnr.weebly.com
i just wanted to say thank you to you guys you have helped me with soo much it. talking to you guys masde me feel like im not alone adn that other people feel the way i do too:). I’m trying to be happy i tried to do it awhile back but someone thing happended and i cracked</3. I’ve decieded not to tell my parents that i probally have reacurring deppresion becasue… well 1 i ont want them to think im screwed up and 2 im afariad of’ve what everyone else will think of me…. anyway THANK YOU GUYS SOO MUCH!!<3333 I PROBALLY WOULNT BE […]
R.I.P
I feel so sorry for her.She made ONE mistake that ruined her life.
She was on webcam to new people to make more friends and to chat.And a group called her stunning pretty ect.Then asked her to flash she thought nothing of it and did it.The into the christmas break she got a msg saying “show me or i send your boobs” she ingored it then at 4am the police knocked on the door because that man sent the picture to everyone.She was hated so bad she had to move school.And again in one school she thought a boy liked her and they […]
The wonder of the world is gone, I know for sure.
All the wonder that i want, i found in her.
When the whole becomes apart, I strike to burn and no flames return.
Every intuition fails to find it’s way
one more table turned around and back again
Finding I’m more lost and found when she’s not around
When she’s not around, I feel it coming down.
How can I have You when everbody wants your soul
Skye…I miss you. </3
Lost without you…
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I thought I was finally okay…
I had found the guy of my dreams…
He loves me scares and all…
He loves me for me…
He helps me up when I fall
And holds me close when cry
But i’ve slipped to far this time…
Farthest I’ve ever fallen….
I know I’m loved by at least one.
But each and everyday I feel
Self hate building stronger.
I’ve attempted to change myself…
Hateing the result each and every time…
I’ve tried to end it well over a hundred times….
But yet I’m still sitting here crying in pain…
The blood from my cuts seep down my wrist climbing over each scar…
He begs for me to not give up….
But this is […]
Let your butterfly fly free. Don’t kill it. Let it live. Butterflys cant fly with a damaged wing. 🙂 <3
Drove my grandma and I to my grandpa’s grave today.
It’s been 8 years..
I lost the closet person I had..
I was the first grand child he help.
He called me his little girl.
We went camping together.
Called me his ole’ hoot owl(:
And his pookey(:
He was my world.
Looking into his eyes, I know I’d always be safe<3
But God took him away from me…Just when I was 9..
He had stage four, skin cancer.
I remember the purple spots all over his body..
And me […]
growing up, i’ve realized that life isn’t a gift. though, it isn’t hell ethier. they are both of a mix, even though that seems a bit impossible.
for me there’s no drive for life for me. i know i’m extremely young, but i think i know this outline of life. i really don’t understand why bother involve yourself with living. what is life about? gettting married? getting a good job? getting an awesome career? or just be happy? < now, how will this help any1 else around me? or to make others happy? hell, no one has the fing answer, i know that, but why? scientificly, we”re here because ceellls, […]
i am feeling suicidal right now and i feel like i might really end it tonight or mabey just wait a few days to say goodbye and see if this what i want.. i was scared at first because i was scared to die i realize now i am not scared anymore that we are all going to die eventually that we do not live forever but i feel like i have finally accepted that its okay to die and i know how i would die so it would make it less scary <3 can anyone help me right now?
this is to all who are considering suicide…please don’t do it, there is so much help for you out there and you can feel happy. my mom had attempted to commit suicide about 5 months ago and i still cannot sleep alone, i have visions at night, and my anxiety is through the roof. something like this cannot be forgotten, your family and friends will be forever scarred, and so will you. i know you may be struggling to the extreme right now but there is so much hope, soo much. please don’t do it, please. <3
I have had 3 suicides in my life. My father , his father, and then my uncle. I was only 8 at the time. It has effected me in every single way. I was in depression.. I used to have a severe phobia of dying and i will admit i also used to have suicidal thoughts, but I found something that I hang on to and that is helping people. I try to show people the light when they are consumed in darkness. I am everyones friend no matter what anyone went through or whatever mistakes they’ve made. I dont shut people out because I […]