“I think that man was half-right. He is better off out of the game – but the game may not be better off without him. A man should not exist for himself alone. Life made an investment in him, and that investment was not paid off.”
-Piers Anthony, On a Pale Horse
so I’m watching 28 days later and there was a joke it’s lame but it made me laugh
so there’s a man and a giraffe the man and the giraffe go into a pub for a drink a little wile later the man gets up to leave the bar owner say you can leave that Lion there and the man replies it’s not a Iion it’s a giraffe
Maybe I want to give up fighting because things are broken that can’t be fixed hope can drive a man insane suicide seems sweet wile life is rough a razor across the flesh can relieve so much pressure watching the blood drip into the sink can look like art work maybe iv got used to living in the darkness and dying is more entertaining then living maybe dying early is my destiny
I can’t believe I am at this point. I cheated on my wife of 10 years, with a woman that I barely knew, and recently she found out about it. I have two great kids, but don’t feel I can be the example as a good man for anymore, as she told me..I destroyed my family, her trust, and replaces the love she had towards me with anger and hate. She says I have literally drained the life from her and wasted her life…I no longer want to be a burden for her, and the financial gain she will get from this is huge, over […]
I discovered this site (thankfully) after a dear friend committed suicide. He was a godly man with a beautiful family and an extremely profitable business. I was looking for some kind of clarity and understanding. I have been throughout my life suicidal, but never acted on it; probably because I fear hell and at first, I had to spare my grandparents. Now, I do not wish for my 3 daughters to suffer.
I was prompted tonight to type this post, because my mom will be called upon this week to decide if Pop, my stepdad, should have all forms of sustenance withheld. He suffers from vascular […]
Because when she died, she grew wings, because when she died she set her soul free.
Because of her death the world will finally know the truth….
Butterflybae’s book is being published, “MASQUERADE” we are helping her to finish what she started. Her blog was a very small portion of what she had written in regards to her book. She kept a video diary as well, that will be put up on Youtube for all to see in the next few days. Also a complete collection of all her songs and poetry will also be published.
Known as: Flynt Stryker
Ability: Pyrokinisis
Backstory: After years of abuse and torment, a fire grew inside Alan until it could no longer be contained. He rose from the the smoldering ashes of his wreckage a changed man. Vowing to protect others from atrocities. He is Flynt Stryker.
Game on, who are you?
I wake up today feeling much more like my old self, but just dumb-founded where that self finds, er, itself. How did we wind up here? It really makes no sense to me now. How could I not have just followed the path I was on before? It’s like I couldn’t stand the idea of stability, and so just constantly interrupted and disrupted any and everything that at any time was going smooth.
Had a house, had a girl, somewhat had a job, but still couldn’t find satisfaction. Maybe it was in part still coming to terms with past and present demons, Dad killing himself, mom […]
I lost someone who I thought loved me. I took on this new way of thinking & living & he left. No more sexual pleasures for God wants me to wait on my husband is what I told him. I guess that sex is all he cared about. I don’t know how to feel. Part of me thinks that him leaving was the best thing for me but most of me is sad & hurt. Should I just give it to him or should I be obedient? Why is this even a question. Putting a man before God. What is wrong with me?
Proof that I’m the ugliest person alive comes from the other side too. I have nothing against this guy at all, so it’s not that. Another transguy I know got featured in a popular news source for being a hot transguy and he’s about as big as I am. How is it that other big people can be good looking but I’m always told how ugly I am?? What is really so wrong with me????
I can’t deal with it if I think of it any more than that. I’m sick of being the ugliest person on earth. I’ve taken .5 and .4 of my testosterone […]
Just sitting here in school and all I can think about is cutting. I hadn’t done it in months. And then just like that my heart gets shattered and I’m back to it. Now, I can’t stop thinking about it. The sharp blade, the drip of my blood, the burn after.. I’m missing her like crazy. And she hates me. She never actually cared. She told me that. Showed me, too. She used me. She’s 23 and I’m 17. My mom found out I’m gay and won’t even look at me. Got a text at work last night where she was just reminding me, “Girls […]
That’s because there is no one no one, no one, whose life will be even a tiny bit altered by my death. Not one person upset, except the people who will smell the stench from my apartment 3 weeks after I’m gone and the people who have to clear up the mess left behind and my rotting carcass. But sad? Nah. Not a soul.
I have no family left, no friends. I go months without uttering a word to anyone except perhaps the occasional post man ‘hello’ and perhaps thank you to the lady at the supermarket till.
Anyway, It’s been a while since I first posted […]
I live with parents trying to support the, by both my money and my attention. But they not only do not appreciate it but also do bad things to me. I do this because I think it’s a good thing and because of my religious beliefs. But God also seems to not appreciate it.
I work every day and the cycle continues again and again. I dream of living like a pirate – of doing what he want whenever he want. I am 31 years old.
Also recently I meet a woman who sad that she loved me, but she only was with me because of money. […]
I’m twisting and turning in bed, hardly any sleep. Just thoughts of her constantly flowing in and out of my head, what we could of been, what I should of done – what i shouldn’t of done. I don’t know if anyone here has ever been through this … But I basically replace, she led me into believing we still had a chance, and god I was trying my best, but she planned it so perfectly just to hurt me. After 3 years and a half.. Those memories of us just so meaningless to her , that she can just go and sleep […]
I just wanted to thank everyone for helping me talk about my problems. No matter how ashamed and embarrased I felt being a 35 yr old man. Crying and sobbing and contemplating killing myself because of a girl that I fell in love with that just threw me away. I want to name names but there are so many that helped. I’m glad all you ppl cared about me. Well I felt that way. As I do you. Thanks also for adding me in the stories as they were fun and funny. They helped feel ok in my darkest of times alone, self sabotaging and […]
I feel so alone, no one to talk to, no one to understand. I am going insane with my resent brake up.. She left me for another man and had no same in saying she has slept with him multiple times already.. I can not face this pressure and anger building up inside of me. I am crazy about this girl and always will be, but she has just shut me off.. Can’t wait to die
I have found that a way to help you figure out things is to analyze your dreams. I know some of them are seemingly meaningless, but it seems to help me. Also sharing them with others help as well. Here are a few of my own:
*warning, this first one is a bit gross*
I mashed a bump and instead of puss coming out, I pulled a neuron out of my skin.
My local college was located in a swamp. A former friend and I wore old time dresses (Gothic era) with petticoats. I found a book of nautical poetry and began to read it. The buildings were […]
A depressing, lonely new year’s. I sent a facebook sticker animated kiss to the guy I like earlier today and he had to once again tell me to not read too much into it that he laughed, and to me that’s like he might as well say I’m too gross and disgusting to think about. I really don’t need reminders, and wish he didn’t have to say those things every time we do talk, as if I would forget that he’s never going to be mine and need to be reminded constantly? No, I don’t need the reminders. He doesn’t need to keep putting up a […]