I’m sorry. I’m really sorry. I would do anything to get your forgiveness.
Well… I’ve tried everything.
We all make mistakes. Just one stupid comment and you shut me out.
I’m really sorry. So very sorry.
I won’t bother you anymore. But know… I valued your friendship. I ruined it. I ruined everything. I’m such a fuck up.
I’m sorry. I’m so very sorry.
The demons in my head are eating me alive. I can’t get over the mistakes I’ve made, the stupid decisions I’ve made. The heartbreak that was my fault.
What if all your decisions have been mistakes? Maybe we are in our own hell bc we unknowingly created it, with each decision we make or don’t make. What if we are so broken mentally that we are incapable of making good decisions? It’s not obvious stupid shit like we’re doing drugs, or choosing to drink, or not finishing school, or the like. I mean decisions we make that we THINK are […]
It may just be the caffine crash talking but i feel like shit. There is a hefty amount of optimism in my mind about he future. But i have doubts and i dont have the energy to do all I’d like to do. Also that pesky anxiety though the aforementioned(in another post) ashwaghanda is helping. I pray. I didn’t always but i pray a lot nowadays. Even if it just in my mind it helps. Depression is just a *****. I think of death and life evenly now. It’s not a battle more of a friendly debate between respected rivals. I’m just hoping that my […]
How many of you fine gentlemen and ladies agree with me on this?
Gotta rely on sleeping pills to take me out of reality. Been in a shitty mood since Christmas Eve and can’t seem to shake it off. Repeating one of my mistakes which is not talking about my feelings and letting my bf think “what the fuck is wrong now” but fuck it Monday I’ll be back in Portland at my house and I’ll get fucked up in my room and sleep everything off and probably bring myself some kind of pain.
I love her. I wish things didnt turn out this way..but maybe its for the best. We wouldnt have learned about ourselves grew from our mistakes. Maybe one day things will be okay. I can have my love returned.
Since we’ve ALL made a lot of terrible mistakes, what advice or “words of wisdom” would you give to yourself if you could go back in time? or advice to someone else so they don’t make the same mistakes you did?
It’s been a while since I’ve been on. I didn’t blow my brain out as soon as I was planning. Which turns out to be one of the worst mistakes of my life. I met a girl, and as hard as I tried to not let my guard down, she got past it and actually tricked me into trusting her. Then, after a few dates and saying that she wanted us to be a couple, she basically said, “Nevermind,” on the day of what would have been our fourth date. I fucking hate life, there’s no fucking justification for all of this bullshit.
Mistakes. Lots of them. Year after year, I’ve made progressively shittier choices. I’ve spent the majority of my life acting and thinking in really dumb ways. I allowed myself to become fixated on what was beyond my reach, rather than appreciating the actual possibilities right in front of me. I was so consumed by what I wasn’t that I wasted what I could have been.
Of course, there were reasons for all of it. I didn’t understand then what I know now. If circumstances had been even slightly different, it all might have turned out another way. I might have lived a worthwhile life.
The choices, the […]
hello you guys its been 5 months since I didn’t publish anything here, but this time I feel so weak and I cant handle this anymore. I’m in a trouble you can say that and I have no idea what is the right thing. I want to cry and I don’t want this life anymore .I know all people make mistakes and we regret our mistakes but sometimes its too late to fix your mistakes and your whole life will change because of your mistakes. I have only 16 years old and I’m pregnant in 3 months my parents still don’t know anything, I don’t […]
gone away now does he dare
take the path that leads nowhere
all alone and without hope
he’ll no longer have to cope
just a sip is all it takes
to wash away all his mistakes
half asleep and fading fast
now his pain will finally pass
now he’s gone and how they cry
in the grounds where he will lie
no one cared when he was here
why now must they shed a tear
Some people turn to physical self harm. Mostly this works for them. Mostly it works for me. I mean, it used to.
I’ve gotten better at this self torture thing. I don’t even need the physical aspect of it anymore. I don’t have to hide palpable injuries now.
Instead I have my mind. I can bring my mistakes and pains up to the surface faster than a blink of my eye. I know it all better than I know the palm of my hand.
Because really, I don’t even know the palm of my hand anymore.
Hi, My name is stefan and I’m 31 years old. I made many mistakes in my
life and caused pain to a lot of people. I?m absolutely sure I will end
up in hell after committing suicide. I realy like to talk to other
people that know for sure they will end up in hell.
I?m blind so most parts of this site are not accessible for me. So
please answer me by email. my email address is: stefan@deds.nl
Best regards, Stefan.
Hi, My name is stefan and I?m 31 years old. I made many mistakes in my
life and caused pain to a lot of people. I?m absolutely sure I will end
up in hell after committing suicide. I realy like to talk to other
people that know for sure they will end up in hell.
I?m blind so most parts of this site are not accessible for me. So
please answer me by email. my email address is: stefan@deds.nl
Best regards, Stefan.
Hi, My name is stefan and I?m 31 years old. I made many mistakes in my
life and caused pain to a lot of people. I?m absolutely sure I will end
up in hell after committing suicide. I realy like to talk to other
people that know for sure they will end up in hell.
I?m blind so most parts of this site are not accessible for me. So
please answer me by email. my email address is: stefan@deds.nl
Best regards, Stefan.
Hi, My name is stefan and I’m 31 years old. I made many mistakes in my
life and caused pain to a lot of people. I?m absolutely sure I will end
up in hell after committing suicide. I realy like to talk to other
people that know for sure they will end up in hell.
I?m blind so most parts of this site are not accessible for me. So
please answer me by email. my email address is: stefan@deds.nl
Best regards, Stefan.
I can’t really suicide me because of the consequences it would have on my family, but I think about doing it about twice a day. I am 26, male.
I had a happy and funny life, it was about to get even better. Then I screwed and turned it into a hell, all by my hands. I got plenty of advice and warnings, but I couldn’t stop me from doing a long chain of mistakes and freak out. Now I calmed down but in the last 6 weeks I pushed away a girl I loved, ruined my family’s happiness and made my father get depressed too, […]
Im pretty much a failure, everything i touch i wreck it. All i do is make mistakes and keep losing the ones i love…
Silence is my insanity,
Mother, Mother, stop beating me.
Silence is my laughter,
Father, Father, don’t slaughter her.
We all make mistakes, We all make mistakes,
Stop all this madness and remove all the breaks.
Silence is my sanity,
So why won’t it help me?
I have these little tiny circles in my stomach. Or, by stomach, I mean coating my abdomen. Each represents every little failure of my life. These little tiny circles have friends. They breed. Everyday they fuck themselves, they stick to eachother and never let go. Every one is a mistake I made. An extra piece of popcorn. A handful of raspberries. A Girl Scout cookie. Mistake after mistake. Pathetic.
They bubble and grow, filling in my calfs and thighs, padding my hips, grazing the bones beneath my chin. Like acid burning into me, everyday I feel their pain.
My mother hates them. My father hates them. My […]
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