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New To The Idea

by otoha0309 7/27/2013

written by otoha0309

I’ve recently started truly considering ending things.

I met the woman of my dreams and fell head over heels in love with her. She was beautiful and amazing and felt like the woman I felt I deserved. So like an idiot I rushed foolishly into marriage with her. And immediately after getting married she changed into a totally different person. She started having conversations on her phone with guys talking about how they wanted to hook up with her and she would go along with it. So we ended up arguing and fighting about it but she took it way beyond just a fight. So she […]

7/27/2013 4 comments

Hometown

by kyuketsuki 7/27/2013

written by kyuketsuki

I’m back in my hometown for the summer. It’s between the semesters for college, and I’ve been suffering the entire time. Is it odd that the moment I stop on the pavement I got a stomach ache? I couldn’t get a job and I’ve chosen to drop one summer class. Just from those two things, my parents think it’s reason enough to beat me. To scream at me. To call me ‘retarded’. They didn’t even pay for my classes. My grandmother left me money for college; from things like this… but they think that because I spent it on a class that I dropped, I’m […]

7/27/2013 0 comment

Life is not precious and it’s not a Gift.

by Kmoney2 7/26/2013

written by Kmoney2

Every day I wake up thinking that this day will better than the last, but it doesn’t work that way. Every day is the same crap. Hoping that someone will hire me, but it doesn’t work like that in today’s world. You have to wait and wait and wait hoping for someone to hire when you know they won’t. I have always wondered why interviewers want a hand shake after an interview. They always say they will give a call when they really don’t. To me right there, that is backstabbing. They always act so happy to see you, but never call if you have […]

7/26/2013 8 comments

avoiding the inevitable

by PainNlife 7/17/2013

written by PainNlife

Each day that I wake up I am just adding time onto my pain. I distract myself with T.V , this website and the internet to keep from killing myself. The urge is there. Sometimes I feel this deep rage inside me and a voice screams in my head “YOU NEED TO FUCKIN KILL YOURSELF” and I have to convince myself that the time isnt right now. Why am I lying to myself? I think is just the will to live. My heart, mind and spirit are all at war within me. My heart and mind says its over and this is the end but […]

7/17/2013 3 comments

Opening up.

by Depersonalization 7/16/2013

written by Depersonalization

I had never heard of this sight until tonight. I saw a friend post about it on Facebook & instantly thought that it was a sign.

Let me just begin with a little bit about me. I am 18, I live in a town I hate, & I hate most people. I’ve never really blogged, but I’ve always wanted to. It really helps me to write & I need to have a way to calm myself down. I really don’t know how to explain myself because I don’t really know who I am anymore. I don’t want to hear that I’m too young & that I […]

7/16/2013 4 comments

after so many years

by AliceNwndrlnd 7/13/2013

written by AliceNwndrlnd

I am still alive. now at the age of 21 looking back on what i have been trough and it starts making sense again.
I reached to the breaking point again and remembered this site from long ago and was thinking i should spill my thoughts here.
I never told much about my self from the few posts i made here and now i feel is the time to reveal some details about myself just so things would seem more clearly.
so what to begin with? since when i was a little kid our family had lots of problems. we never were a big family, […]

7/13/2013 5 comments

All because of me

by XXSADXX 6/29/2013

written by XXSADXX

this week was by far the worst. my dad went to Darwin for the week for work and my sister and I were fighting non stop but of course every fight was my fault. my mum always blames it on me and gives me punishments but not to my sister! my sister has this way of making it my fault all the time, like even though im stopping her from doing a bad thing I get in trouble. on Wednesday night my mum was driving me to ipsha for our musical and IÂ got angry becauseÂ weÂ were really late and she wouldn’t drop me off because it […]

6/29/2013 1 comment

Away

by flatus 6/29/2013

written by flatus

Money’s scarce but family honor
Brings it home, brings it home
And down the shop the tongues they snicker
TV dinners, beer and liquor
http://youtu.be/qKDc6F0yXdw
Skeletons fall out of cupboards
Curtains drawn fall open to allow
The light shows up the dust
That plays around your face

Innocence and lies don’t make a perfect match
Leave your door unlatched
I know a word can be untrue
And yet still move you

6/29/2013 0 comment

im back and fighting with slow and uncareing blows

by why i dont no 6/28/2013

written by why i dont no

my frends had prom today its all over facebook… i didunt go… i dont even have a girlfrend to hug or a frend… im the sad lonly kid who knw one whants to help cos it will bring them down… crying my eys out chane smoking… this is something i will regret for the rest of my life i startid to cut agen… my dad says im nothing and you may be reading this now thinking “but im your frend” well thank you for that but idk when your siting in your room smoking with asleep playing havent been out for days no money stragly […]

6/28/2013 3 comments

First post

by ussmd 6/28/2013

written by ussmd

Where to start..
I guess with how I’m feeling right now. I’m doing awful. And by awful I mean I want to kill myself. I wish that sometimes I would get the guts to try it again. Or I wish I would have died the first time.
My boyfriend has depression as well. And when he is having a bad day he just goes home. (Normally he stays with me as we mostly live together) Like today he got off work early. I didn’t know what time because he never told me. He just said he was having a hard time and didn’t want to […]

6/28/2013 1 comment

Once in a lifetime

by flatus 6/26/2013

written by flatus

And you may ask yourself
“Where is that large automobile?”
And you may tell yourself
“This is not my beautiful house!”
And you may tell yourself
“This is not my beautiful wife!”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I1wg1DNHbNU
And you may ask yourself
“Am I right? Am I wrong?”
And you may tell yourself
“MY GOD! WHAT HAVE I DONE?”

Letting the days go by let the water hold me down
Letting the days go by water flowing underground
Into the blue again after the money’s gone
Once in a lifetime water flowing underground

Same as it ever was
Look where my hand was
Time isn’t holding up
Time isn’t after us..

6/26/2013 0 comment

Programmed robot

by Sam 6/25/2013

written by Sam

I have not told anyone this but one of the reasons I’m gonna kill myself is because I will not live the 9 to 5 pace. I don’t want to work like a programmed robot doing the same thing everyday. Life does not sound interesting. What’s so appealing about stressing about money your whole life. I don’t want to keep living simply because people say I have too. My life has never been easy I’ve worked my ass off to get everything back to where it should be. Nothing is what it seems it sounds good but in the end it causes a hole in […]

6/25/2013 2 comments

My plan

by ColemanSilk 6/20/2013

written by ColemanSilk

My plan is to check out around age 45 (I’m about 40 now). By then my will to work or deal with life will have about expired. I plan on getting a divorced a year before the deed, so the wife is used to living alone when it happens. I’ll make sure to write a will to leave everything to (ex) wife 6 months before I eat the bullet, so my asshole family members can’t contest it by saying I was insane at the time.

I have heard objections to this plan and this my summarized response:

At the point at which I begin operating at a […]

6/20/2013 6 comments

Lonelier

by Ford 6/20/2013

written by Ford

I went to my old high school today. It was awful. I arrived and I couldn’t find anyone for a while so I just decided to randomly walk around the building for a while. I got made fun of for wearing my sunglasses indoors by some random dude (really? REALLY???) who apparently thought I was ‘trying to be cool’ (in reality I was just really fucking stoned… how sheltered are these people?)… I eventually ran into an old teacher of mine who found one of my old friends and I went to sit with her and two other visitors (apparently, she’s really popular??). I was […]

6/20/2013 4 comments

do i deserve to belong here?

by Hiphopanddrop 6/17/2013

written by Hiphopanddrop

Hi people, been like this for as long as i can remember, most of my problems are from me being lazy, i mean apparently a doctor says iâ€™ve got depression too but truthfully i just think its my own stupid fault. Iâ€™m a big, lazy fat, 20 year old who spends his days indoors doing nothing, I see you great, amazing people and i wonder am i allowed to complain, you people are having to live through the real problems and i donâ€™t feel like i should be allowed to complain. Iâ€™ve wanted to kill my self for such a long time now, though Iâ€™m […]

6/17/2013 4 comments

Dispite the fact that this is not a personal chatting site I still hope I can fine some one to talk to.Dispite my my family and the friends I ,worked so hard to make, I find my self looking for some one to connect with.Dispite the fact that I found an awesome friend that got me in ever way that I couldn’t possibly crush on, becuase he was gay, I still ruined our friend ship by not being able to talk to him any more. Dispite finding and other cool person later one I still ran away becuase white guys don’t like tall black chicks. Dispite the fact I had a guy friend who liked me and was black I still couldn’t bear to let him hang out with such a boring, poor, unatractive person, when he can do much better. Dispite the fact that I am goraphobic messed up in most ways I still want to go out and just hang out with the people that shine brighter than the sun. Dispite the fact that I am a dark cloud pouring down rain and lighting. Dispite the fact i haven’t been lonely in three years I still feel the despair of being so diffrent that even is I was accepted by people no one should dare want to hang out with some one like me, even if they said they did I will only be a disappointment and a waste of time . I don’t know………….society is made for money, bright personalities,pretty people, and people who are smart. No matter how hard you try something’s are impossible to gain,I guess you only can work hard to fake it by make up, studying, and following thougths with the bright lives………….Dispite the fact this is not a personal chatting site I still hope for so e one to talk to even if it’s only short…..lol ……I like the terms for this site ….it’s ironic ……by reading it you still hope for what the terms say don’t hope for……lol….^^

by animerocks500 6/17/2013

written by animerocks500

6/17/2013 17 comments

wubwub

by seekinghelp 6/16/2013

written by seekinghelp

Well hello there! One of the many depressed among this site.(: I’m in depression, thinking about suicide, so I’m seeking help because God knows what the fuck I’m supposed to do. I wonder why i’m told “Don’t kill yourself!” because I don’t really see the point of living. The only thing keeping me in this fucked up world is because I’m afraid of Hell. Yes, I’m a Christian. (:

Why do people try so hard to live? Even if i were to live, and live a better life, have nice house, nice cars,a nice someone that loves me, I really wouldn’t care. People work so hard […]

6/16/2013 3 comments

It does not get better over time, sorry to say

by ctb-driver 6/15/2013

written by ctb-driver

At least that is my life. Ups and Downs, however the “ups” are smaller and the “downs” are getting larger. Work, no money, illness, family and tons more. I’m tired and need a really long break. Since I own nothing, the break will be permanent

6/15/2013 5 comments

A fair world

by nesternest 6/15/2013

written by nesternest

I’m always imagine a world without the existence of money. Why did money exist? Money causes unnecessary hardship and jealousy. If we can help each other regardless of status and selfishness, wouldn’t it be wonderful. The resources are already exist on the earth, but why some receive more than the others. Humans are evil, we grab the resources and claim as ours, we control the needs through money. Why greed and selfishness exist. I can’t wait for an asteroid to hit the earth. And I’m so tired to impress others, nobody is going to appreciate me if I have no status and ain’t rich.

6/15/2013 2 comments

Why live?

by alliKat 6/7/2013

written by alliKat

Ive never been that girl to be “depressed”. Im always laughin,even when there’s that one thing that killed my mood,i always find something stupid to laugh at…now i realise that that was my brain’s automatic way of blocking out what i call pain.

Something happened tonight that changed me,my whole mental state. My dad hit me..not just hit but PUNCHED me. He misinterpreted something i said and took it as an insult, so then,he punched me. I must admit, im not the most respectful child,at all. But i NEVER thought my own father would punch me,as if i was one of his scumbag friends. Ive always […]

6/7/2013 16 comments

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