I am in total emptiness. I am useless,lazy and i am hated by my wife which is pathetic. I cant see my cute daughter because i am restricted to. I made several suicide attempts in which I failed and i tried to live also which I observed i am not capable of.I am just passing my time In cyber cafe and alcohol shops just for my parents.Anyone can talk or share thoughts with me because i am 2 years experienced in suicide and negative feelings.
Thanks
Over the entire 16 years that I have been alive, many people have told me different things. Now you woukd think that all the good things woukd stick with me and make me feel better, but that is not the way that this stupid ball of dirt we live on works. All the negative, mean, and hurtful things have stuck with me and I keep hearing these voices in my head repeating them. I can hear “Are you really that self-centered?” “When you lived with your mom, you were so horrible I alnost didn’t want to come back.” and “I have known you for over […]
This is just my perspective which is born out of paranoia and a lack of self esteem and self worth so things might be different to other people, it’s not absolute truth for everybody but it’s the absolute truth in the world that I live in. I’m not even suicidal any more I’m just tired of this living thing. Ya dig?
I don’t believe that anybody in the world truly cares about other people, it’s just all so fake and selfish. People will keep other people around as friends or partners to service their own needs without ever really establishing some form of connection or trust […]
I want to kill my self I am sick of this stupid life but I am thinking about my kids what are they going to do after me killing my self I should be more mature but this is not a life actually I feel it is ke a knife in my back and I am moving according to the mercy of the knife holder I hate you I haaaattte you I am too coward to say so too coward to make any step to divorce I am a negative introvert person fuck me !!!!
Im 17 years old. My dad is a heavy drinker and is addicted to meth. When I was younger my dad used to touch me inappropriately when he was all strung out on meth. Everytime I now see him strung out, I play the moment of him touching me. I’m scarred for life. I can’t look at my father the same. I smoke weed to cope. I am really depressed with my home life. No one in my family has ever graduated from my moms side or my dads side, an I want to be the first. But I don’t .believ in myself. I lack […]
Anyone here ever experiment with heroin if so what was it like was it enjoyable? Yes I’m aware of the negative effects I’m not a complete idiot I do nothing being completely clueless
when youve lost all hope of ever being happy again whats left
when youve lost interest in everything you used to care about whats left
when you feel completely lost and hopeless whats left
when your whole life falls apart around you whats left
when it seems like the world is going on without you whats left
when everybody elses happiness makes you miserable whats left
when just waking up makes you feel like shit whats left
when negative emotions are the only ones that remain whats left
when you see death as the only way to escape the sorrow whats left
when the pain […]
I just really hate my life… waking up is the worst, coming to a job where you are always on the outside and useless.
My friend tells me I should be happy I have a job… I can see her point but it’s life I have such hatred against, not a job or finances. It’s waking up, breathing, not existing, being eternally hopeless, eternally saddened by things that make others happy or normal… everything hurts and is negative. There’s no “thing” or “sunny day” to change the bleakness of everything in every waking second.
If I were cut out to be here I’d have figured it out […]
Everything that can be wrong with a person, is wrong with me. I’m a negative, bitter, asshole, shit-talking, coward piece of shit. I fucking hate myself. I dream of the day I die. I’d kill myself now but I’m the only child, I can’t do that to my parents. I’m a pathetic, lazy ***** that never learned to develop work ethic. I’m useless as fuck. People look at me like I’m an outcast. That awkward weirdo. I have no friends left, I’m lonely as fuck. I want to die so bad.
I am an 18 year old male. If this content is too graphic please remove the post, I just don’t have anywhere to turn. Ok, lets get started.
I have a phobia, which entails people thinking I am masturbating. This may sound weird, but it has been developed over the past 4 years, and furthered by constant negative reinforcement.
It all started around the time I was 14, I had begun masturbating prior to this, but before this I really didn’t feel the true motivation to do it. Maybe I am a late bloomer? Anyway, I was caught several times around this age by my mother, and […]
life is killing me. for the last 3 years i’ve held it sort of together but I have no strength anymore- mentally emotionally or even physically.
the man who abused me 3 years ago is the only person who understands how and why im broken- hes the one who did this. i hate with such contempt the only person who ‘gets me’.
The kid I loved like a brother, depended on him to keep preaching how everything will be okay, that one day I can go home where there’s no sadness, well he gave up, said he cant help me anymore.
my mum said i’m making […]
Here’s an article about the positive effects of negative emotions. I think it’s good to remember that no matter how bad you feel, the feeling was designed to help you fix or compensate for whatever is troubling you. Killing yourself is not the solution…
http://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/201412/beyond-happiness-the-upside-feeling-down?tr=MostViewed
A whole damn year has passed and to be honest I’m glad that it is finally about to be over! My 2013 leaked into my 2014 and to be completely honest 2014 was so very unkind to me truly it just screwed me over and over. Today is the day I say good bye to 2014 and leave all the horrible things that happened in the past. I want none of 2014 to even taint my 2015, because this truly will be a new start for me. I will be starting a year without the negative people and the negativity period, this year I will […]
I’ve been fighting this off for decades. I’ve had a couple of failed attempts not because I didn’t make a real effort but because something always happened to stop. Now, I’ve lost everything which I had gained and nothing left has any value except my children but that’s no longer enough. I want death and to be out fem this pain and suffering. The reasons are numerable but the answers are empty as to why to keep going. I just want out. I don’t know why I’m writing. I suspect it’s just to get through the next moments and maybe the day. If I can […]
I always asked my self this question (why do people change???) but I never found an answer for it. I found so many people changed in my life some are my friends and even my mom had changed these few 2 years maybe even I changed and I didn’t realized that. there are some positive changes but most people if they changed they change into the negative side . when I use to be a kid I use to come back from school and I find my mom baked for me a cake and I sit to drink my milk with the cake but now […]
we decide whether to be happy in our lives or to take everything in a negative way. I learnt a very important lesson in life which is to make people all my friends and laugh with them and have fun, but never tell your secret to anyone keep your secrets for you because some people will listen to you but then they will make fun of you. if you feel you need to talk just write o a paper what is annoying you . just be happy and don’t over think and try to be positive ..
people should really work on being more positive and encouraging, yeah people may not care about you and you may not have a strong support system but you owe it to yourself to care and love the person you are. yes easier said that done, but don’t be so negative about it. get into a mind set that you will change for the better and you are already half way there. change your attitude and things tend to follow. JUST A THOUGHT. xoxo
Last year on December 9th I lost my virginty, to a guy I thought really liked me. We where talking over the summer and he was always busy. After many tries we finally saw each other. The place where we going to go was closed so he said lets just go to the park. He asked if I had any smokes, I told him no. So we went across the street and he made me pay for the cigs. As we got to the park it […]
I hate it when people argue about me. No matter where I go, people argue about me being alright. I admit that I’m not, but I can’t tell anyone that. I don’t want to bother them. My problems, rather my opinions never really mattered to anyone. I know others might say otherwise, but in reality as humans we refuse to accept others opinions rather than our own. No matter how good-natured you claim to be or how open-minded you are, the fact that an idea, a thought different or similar to yours, stirs up negative emotions, whether you admit or not. That hole in your […]
I have been depressed and suicidal for many years. My desire to accomplish some of the goals that I have in life is the only thing that is keeping me alive. Experiencing a peaceful death is one of the goals that I have. It is a privilege that very few people that are suicidal get to experience.
I don’t believe that a suicidal person should have to experience negative emotions like fear, anger, and sadness during their final moments. I believe that a bullet to the head is always the best way to go. The death will always be quick and painless if the gun is […]
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