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Breeding Time

by ClairDeLune 4/25/2014

written by ClairDeLune

Why does everyone have to dress like hookers when it starts to get hot outside? Seriously, do they feel it is mating time and they need to attract sexual partners for breeding? And then when someone not as optically attractive as they are wears the same kind of clothes they are criticized and laughed at for doing the exact same thing. Anyways, there are enough fine pieces of clothing which aren’t too warm to wear and which cover more than just the reproduction organs.

And imagine a guy wearing the same clothes, or even worse a NERD wearing those clothes: I don’t want to think about […]

4/25/2014 21 comments

“Here I Am, Damn Strong I Stand”

by waste2304 7/26/2013

written by waste2304

Here I am
Here to stay
Fucking happy night and day
Your words mean nothing
Effecting me in no way
Because I am me
I am here to stay

Bully me yeahâ€¦thatâ€™s okay
I donâ€™t listen anyway
You are bigâ€¦
Iâ€™m not afraid
You Bully me
Call me gay
Hell yeah Iâ€™m gay
Gleeful everyday

You pick on meâ€¦if I do say
youâ€™ll get it back soon one day
Yeah Iâ€™m a nerd
thatâ€™s all I get
thatâ€™s considered a compliment
Iâ€™m not like you an idiot
But do your worse
I am up for it

In conclusion
And in the end
Here I am
And dammit […]

7/26/2013 6 comments

chain of control

by onebullet 6/19/2013

written by onebullet

welcome to the world kid,you have about 13 years to be happy,to be you,to be like nietzche said a superman,dont care about religiÃ³n,responsability,education,prejuices,tabus,even sex.in this period you are you in your pure state,not influenced by society.when this period ends your mind starts to change,your feelings are new you will have to go to school,study like a damn nerd,obey the rules.now you are not you anymore,you are influenced by the people that surrounds you,their ideas,their fears.your doors are closing slowly.that pure kid that you where is dying.religion enters your life even if you dont like it at all.you have been raised to be a responsable,calm and […]

6/19/2013 6 comments

After six years as a shut-in, it’s finally the end.

by Chaosut27 6/13/2013

written by Chaosut27

I’m not sure why I feel compelled to share my story, but for whatever reason I’m not sure I can stop myself from typing these words. But I will try to keep to details to a minimum and will just cover the most important aspects to keep this short. In high school I was an introverted nerd, but the first year actually turned out to the best, and it was only downhill from there. I had large ears and a stutter, the latter of which would often limit the conversations and connections and I could have with other people. In grade eight I started to […]

6/13/2013 8 comments

I’m going nuts

by owl 5/18/2013

written by owl

I would say I had a terrible childhood. But it wouldn’t be true. I wasn’t popular, but never severely bullied either. I was your normal nerd, with good grades (but not too good), few friends and a passion for books. And that’s everything I remember from then.

When I was about 15, I started to understand the world. I felt frustrated by not having answer to some questions, and started looking deeper into myself and into the world. I rationalized everything, and got a working schema of reality. I thought that was all, and was anxious to get that knowledge to the rest of the people. […]

5/18/2013 0 comment

Focusing on others helped me

by JasonTeague 2/15/2013

written by JasonTeague

Stumbled across this site as I was feeling down about Valentine’s Day yesterday. I hate the day. I’m a bit of a nerd and geek and still single. All my life I seemed to make stupid mistakes and never seemed good enough.

I’ve gone as far as tie ropes around my neck, write suicide notes, and pack my stuff to make it easier for those left behind to clean my mess.

I still struggle with suicidal thoughts but not as bad as when I was younger. I’m 45yo now.

What has helped me is to focus on others. Volunteering at church, making friends […]

2/15/2013 4 comments

My Story.

by SunshinesBlackhole 1/10/2013

written by SunshinesBlackhole

Hey everybody, I’m new here…..kind of.Â Anyways I felt like I wanted to share my story, but I have no idea where to start or how to start. So I’m just going to ramble on and on until I feel like it should end.

I guess I was always suicidal.Â I’ve always thought of suicide as a little girl and its almost an obsession now.Â I remember trying to commit suicide when I was six or seven, but not strong enough to push the steak knife into the skin of my neck.Â Such a weak little girl I was.Â Anyways about two years ago is when […]

1/10/2013 2 comments

Follow up on Growing Pains

by kyuketsuki 9/6/2012

written by kyuketsuki

So… after picking up my martial arts class, I got involved with Quidditch. Don’t call me a nerd because if I were actually a hardcore nerd, I would be dead right now. Quidditch is intense. It’s like rugby with three hoops and three balls and a running snitch. It is tough! I was already sore from martial arts, my shoulders were dead. I couldn’t even do a pushup they were so dead. Well, we started off practice with running, karaokes, and ‘superman’s. I failed the superman part. I couldn’t fucking do it right. It sucked. I’m not a fast runner, but it was awesome, and […]

9/6/2012 4 comments

My Sappy Story

by GhostlyNinetyFive 7/31/2012

written by GhostlyNinetyFive

(Sorry for the sarcastic title; I use humor to cope.)

Hello, I’m Ghostly. That’s my username in place of my usual, more personal one. I feel like this may be the best place on the web to deal with suicide openly and honestly, so here I am supporting those who feel alone in this, and potentially talking people through some tough times, and I’m glad that’s what’s going on here. You are all very kind.

Maybe “helping people” is an overstatement, or a little premature. I’m just glad there is some forum to talk on that isn’t monitored to death or trashed by trolls and idiots. I’d […]

7/31/2012 10 comments

Feeling like a nerd

by Margaret 7/24/2012

written by Margaret

So it accured to me, as I was reminiscing about my life. I made a yahoo chat account and didn’t want to use my actual name in the name field, so I put Cindy Cambell as a disguise….Sometimes I wonder how much people value thier lives.

7/24/2012 3 comments

I am an NPC.

by spoiledsoup 7/16/2012

written by spoiledsoup

“Non playable character.” Or to be more accurate, an AI. An artificial intelligence, played by the game or computer itself. No personality. They’re only there to add little elements to the lives of everyone around it, perhaps to make their gaming more difficult or to allow them to open a new door. I am fully aware I just used a gaming metaphor, and now you know how much of a nerd I am. Not that I am a gamer girl or anything, the only game I’ve played in years is sims. I’m just an idiot kid out of high school with no friends, no skills, […]

7/16/2012 7 comments

For anyone who has ever been teased (especially about looks)

by Crazypandachick 7/6/2012

written by Crazypandachick

Growing up, I was that girl who always believed (and had been told) I was fat and ugly and that even makeup and surgery wouldn’t fix that (still have only worn makeup once in my life, and that was for a performance). I also embraced the label the perfectionist “nerd” and girl who hung out with the “weirdos” of the school (I love them <3), so I know what it is like to cop a lot of crap and be bullied. And even though I consider myself someone who doesn’t let verbal abuse affect them, I know what is is like to feel like crap […]

7/6/2012 4 comments

Just A Thought, Do you guys get a lot of exercise?

by evanescence 5/13/2012

written by evanescence

I was depressed for the past few years (5 years) because of feelings of inadequacy and immense pressure from school. All that was amplified by the fact I never attracted the interest of girls and every girl i ever liked never cared about me that way and slowly friends stopped talking to me.

But everything stopped when my mother finally allowed me to gym. I suddenly received an increased efficiency when it came to my studies which was a major source of pain for me.

Slowly my pain started to fade, I stopped having my strange suicidal dreams of scenarios involving how she never cared […]

5/13/2012 15 comments

Im a waste of space

by kteixeira 5/9/2012

written by kteixeira

I’ve come to the conclusion that im a complete waste of space, and i want to eliminate this pointless shitstain of an existence i call a life from the face of the earth.

My whole life i was labeled ugly and worthless, and any word that can add the prefix “un” would describe me. Im unathletic, untalented, unattractive, unimportant, unmotivated, uninteresting, unappealing, basically anything you can think of.

I grew up with my father always angry, and telling me i was a worthless human being. He would say it was his way of building me up to be a man, but all it did was make me […]

5/9/2012 9 comments

Self-defeatism.

by lul 3/19/2012

written by lul

Why bother attempting something when all it will lead to isÂ embarrassmentÂ and worsening of the situation? When somethings fucked, you can never fix it back to 100%, so why do you try? It will never be as good as you could possibly make it.

The social problems started in middle school. Being a quiet nerd has downfalls. What’s worse was trying to break out and improve myself, only to lose the one thing I had going, which was intelligence. Giving up good marks to have a couple friends and still be bullied.

The bullying ended in 9th grade. I suppose everyone was just tooÂ weirdedÂ out by me to even […]

3/19/2012 0 comment

I just want to survive

by jaboha14 1/21/2012

written by jaboha14

I had an absolutely amazing life for the longest time. I’m not attractive and I’m shy, but I had amazing and wonderful friends, very good grades, and I was happy. Over the summer I had to move across the country with my family. I am miserable here. Nobody talks to me, and they all look at me strangely at school because I’m punk and I have piercings and I’m not the most attractive person. I have no friends and no one to talk to. I tell my parents I’m upset and I can’t do this anymore, but they tell me it will pass and I […]

1/21/2012 2 comments

i have no idea what im supposed to put here…. if youre reading this you already know whats going on.

by nate 6/29/2009

written by nate

might as well share my story… this is gonna be rambling and probably not very cohesive, fyi. ive commented on a lot of other posts on this site. i go on here multiple times a day, to check and see whats new here. my goal in life is to help people. specifically, keep depressed people from killing themselves and hopefully get rid of their depression. i have dedicated my life to that goal. so far i have been very successful at keeping people from killing themselves, but not so good at ending any kind of depression… as far as i can tell i just drag […]

6/29/2009 4 comments

Voices in my Head

by voicesofdoom 5/19/2009

written by voicesofdoom

I try to remember why I wanted to kill myself. I don’t know. I can’t recall, but somehow I still know why I want to be out of this “reality”. Sometimes I wish I was in an empty space, where I can hear nothing, not even a sound, not even me breathing, nothing at all.

I was 12. It was long ago now. I wanted to die, but i never found the courage enough, then this person cae to me, she helped me a lot, and I don’t even remember what she looked like. I felt I was I love with her, she took care of […]

5/19/2009 5 comments

I have everything to live for, but I really really want to die

by Kikisdeliverservice 4/19/2009

written by Kikisdeliverservice

I have a lot of things. I have a lot more than many people. Â I am healthy, attractive, happily married, and just about to graduate from a great grad-school. I have everything to live for, but I every time when I turn around the corner, I see death calling me. I really cannot think about anything that I want bad enough to live for. Tonight I relapsed. I took aÂ needle andÂ piecedÂ through my skin and my veins. For a brief moment I felt something. When I saw my blood oozing out of my arm, I felt maybe a brief moment of something. Â I know exactly what […]

4/19/2009 6 comments

This is going to be long.. Sorry people

by devils advocate 3/12/2009

written by devils advocate

Hi my name is Madelaine and I am 19 years old. Iv been suicidal since I was about 13 years old and it just progressed from there. For 10 years I was sexually assaulted so as I started going from a little girl to a teenager my mind just soared with anger. I was bullied all through primary school and High school. I was the geek, the nerd, the one noone liked because to them I was ugly. It just kinda stuck so I think I am ugly…

My mother never accepted me. I was never good enough for her. So i just wanted to die […]

3/12/2009 8 comments