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i hate it here.

by demi
written by demi

well i’m 14 and don’t really talk to people about stuff like this but.. i dont want to be like this anymore, i dont really want to live at all anymore.

summer break started 3 weeks ago and just before it i lost my friends, they started talking about me and all that stuff but i started hanging with new people and it only made me realise that i hate myself even more. i’m a typical teenager, i dont stand out like the rest of them.

i have a lot of family problems- my mum and dad argue a lot, i argue with them a lot and […]

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NEW WORLD ORDER

by onebullet
written by onebullet

Since many years,the world had been control by a group of elite families,their objective?complete control of the world,introduce a fascism way more worse than the past one.thousands of cameras in the cities,,new 2014 chips inserted in kids to ensure their security,television and football to take away the atention from the real problems..The most powerfull families cleaning the path for the arrival of the antichrist,he will come in form of hero,intelectual and you know God.The majority of the people would believe in him,if you dont you would be persecuted and isolated ,they will call you insane.When every single one is […]

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ending it while pregnant

by username020
written by username020

Is it wrong, should I push through this and give my baby a chance at life even though he wont ever know his real mommy? Baby isnt viable yet not that it makes me feel any better…I just cant last through the rest of my pregnancy.

Every day is harder to live..I already have everything ready for me to go..the dad couldnt care less about me, but claims to want the baby even though initially he told me to abort it. I cant leave the baby alone with him when Im gone, hes an addict and his new girlfriend hates me and will hate my […]

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Urge to Splurge

by seppuku
written by seppuku

It’s 6am here and I’ve been awake since 1am. I go to bed very early and love to get up and go on the computer during those blessed early morning hours when the rest of the world is asleep. That’s pretty much the only time I feel anything approaching to contentment and relaxation these days.

I’ve yanked up the pep pill dosage and have been rewarded with a little window of enjoyment. I know it will quickly be replaced with the  anxieties, frustrations and despairing thoughts that every day now holds for me, so I might as well make the most of it.

My elderly ma is […]

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Let’s try this out.

by greyacrylic
written by greyacrylic

Um, hello.

I’m not quite sure if anyone is going to read this, or how this works in general, but I am just going to say what I feel like saying.

Usually, what was happening to me in the past couple of years, was that I would become moderately anxious and depressed when the end of the school year came around. I would go to my psychotherapist, and by the end of summer, I would feel just fine. This process repeated for about 2 years. 

But this year, I feel like it’s not like the “process” at all.

I started feeling worthless and depressed towards the beginning of the year, and then […]

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A letter

by Astoriesend
written by Astoriesend

I’m new to this so I don’t really know how to start out but I guess I will try my best. All my life I’ve delt with hardships but who hasn’t? My parent were divorced when I was 6, my father was a drunk, my mother was a partier. An when they decided to split it wasn’t peaceful. They didn’t care about us kids they just cared about the money that came with the kids. And this is still going on till this day, I’m almost 22 now. It’s hard going through life knowing money is always more important than your life. And I’ve had […]

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I Am Unlovable.

by notwhoiwanttobe
written by notwhoiwanttobe

I find some sick satisfaction in judging others. I always compete. I always need to be better than anyone else. I always fail to be. I’m so negative. I loathe myself. My body is so hairy, even as a female, because I have PCOS and Hirsutism. My stomach is HUGE even though I lost 30lbs (I went from 140 to 110 last year but I look 150. I’m 5ft 3). My wardrobe is that of a 5th grader. I can’t afford anything new. I’m always afraid I’m going to be homeless. I have been dating a guy for 7 years who is abusive in all […]

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new beginnings??

by Mary Love
written by Mary Love

my friend introduced wicca to me and i’m soooo interested in it…we even did a séance to my dad…it was soooo emotional. I would like to start practicing but I have no idea where to start and me and her have lost connection….any ideas or references???

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My never ending story

by lost_cries
written by lost_cries

In fourth grade I moved to a new school..I was heavier than most of the students there and they made sure I knew. They constantly bullied me n called me fat and said worst thing about me. My teacher even pulled me by my hair and threw me into the principles office. I always went home crying. After that year I moved schools. I made sure I worked out so I wasn’t as fat by the time 5th grade came, I entered that school (I left my grammas house n moved in with my mom) I made some friends but I still heard the words […]

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Just a thought

by missreanimator
written by missreanimator

In my teens, I was diagnosed with bipolar paranoid schizophrenia. I’m currently 26, without insurance, and no way to afford therapy or medication.

I’ve attempted suicide twice before, first by ingesting a large number of different pills (blood thinners, sleeping pills, basically everything in the cabinet) and the second by ingesting rat poison. I continue to practice self-harm, mostly by tearing at my arms with my nails, or beating myself in the head, for the sake of not hurting someone else because the fact is I want to. I’m angry at everyone all the time, and it has only gotten worse in recent months since my […]

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PAIN

by DeathDreamer
written by DeathDreamer

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”Why are you measuring me? Thank you sir, but I don’t need a new suit.” – He’s the undertaker…

– I ran into your ex today…. with my car.

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I WANT TO DIE. Right fucking now.  It never gets any better I swear. My soul is bleeding from exhaustion.  I am so tired, so bored of trying. I can’t take it. I want to close my eyes and never wake up. I’m just waiting for the right day to do it. I can’t take another winter. Fuck this […]

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Moonlight

by Nobody915
written by Nobody915

Hey guys.

I made a new video and guess what? I hate it. You know why? Because the person I made it for didn’t even appreciate it.

I don’t even know any more.

I’m losing happiness. I thought I got out of the tunnel. I just… don’t know any more. I don’t want to deal with any more pain. But I also don’t want to die. But, it seems as if the only way to not feel pain any more is to die. Why must God or whatever put me in such a position? I have died once, and I don’t plan to die a second time. But […]

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by notwhoiwanttobe
written by notwhoiwanttobe

It’s too hard to watch everyone but me get married, travel, do great things. I’m just sitting here, wasting away, working on a business that’s failing hard in it’s first week, and I have no money. Yes, I’ve applied to actual jobs and have been in the long process of a government position. Nothing’s really happening for me. It’s far too depressing. I’ve tried very hard for things to happen. Honestly, I’ve held a few campaigns from DoSomething.org, I’ve started my new business a week ago, hired so many new sales consultants to generate business (so far, nothing  despite their 10+ years sales experience), and I […]

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My little fuzzy ball of crazy

by KnightKat-369
written by KnightKat-369

Ok, a few years out of high school I decided that I was ready to die. Things weren’t bad, I had a job that put a little money in my pocket, I had a great car and I was dating a girl who was fun to be with, but still I was just ready to go. Then I meet a new girl that I fell in love with. I figured she wouldn’t stay with me for to long, there was a bit of an age gap between us. So I figured I would ride it out and see how I felt when she finally moved […]

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The end

by justintg
written by justintg

Well.. I’m less than 20 days from being 18. I have had social anxiety for most of life, at least from when I was ~4. I have had countless episodes of it, whether they are a friend of mine or not, I will get nervous. I had to take medicine to walk the stage without panicking, as well as with my speeches this year. I am on medicine and I think it’s where I got the depression for the most part. I was told I have depression symptoms but since taking the medicine the thoughts of suicide has gone in more depth. I have now […]

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Orbit

by bullfrog
written by bullfrog

New piece that Shakinbakin and I put together. I wanted to give him something that he could really sink his teeth into so I wrote a progressive-themed piece for him to play with. It’s sort of a new style of writing for me, for that reason, but I think it turned out well – mostly thanks the Shake’s incredible jamming out on the track, tbh.

Like normal, the poem is posted below for anyone who wants to read along.

>inb4 extend a metaphor much?

Orbit

A fresh sun dawns on the face of a new son
The opening refrain of a song as yet unsung
A race that’s not […]

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Walking Dead 1

by Teaks
written by Teaks

I first had thoughts of suicide when I was six years old. I don’t know why or what triggered it. I just remembered, that there were reports of people committing suicide by jumping off buildings in the newspaper, and I was, for some reason, unhappy, and wanted to hurt myself.

I remembered bashing my head on the tiled floor of my room, then climbing up on a high chair and jumping off, hoping I’d snap my necks when I land.

I remembered banging my head on hard walls, like I am trying to silence screams filling up my head.

I remembered being at school, unhappy. My classroom was […]

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I can’t get rid of psychological pain

by SGR
written by SGR

I’ve recently moved to a new place, in a new state, away from all of my precious people. I can no longer afford my depression medication, and that, combined with the loneliness, anxiety, and feelings of unworthiness are pushing me to a point I’ve never experienced before.

It hurt so intensely earlier today that I cut my thighs to bloody ribbons, but not even that helped ease my pain. I can’t go back home, because to do so would only add a financial burden onto my family’s already burdened shoulders.

I know I can’t kill myself yet, but I’m afraid. I’m thinking of it more and more, […]

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