I wake up lonely and go to bed terrified. Complex ptsd is something nobody understands nor wants to. I hate taking meds and wondering what it will do to me. I am isolated living here yet triggered by the people around me. Lately I feel like I’m going insane. Too much rage and torment, self-blame, for years. Too much. Nobody is here. My therapist hasn’t called back, the clinic hasn’t called back, I feel like a discarded person. I left the church since nobody there cared either. The neighbors help superficially but not for friendship. I made a new friend but an old one I […]
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Another truth to life I have discovered nobody ever did so much pretending in the end were born alone we die alone no one is there at least not for me never for me many could say I’m just angry and hateful I am but not nearly as much as all the sadness regret loneliness
What the hell is wrong with me, I can’t even get death right. I’m so fucked right now, I’m still alone and fucking hungry! How and when does it stop?! I don’t know if I’m just too nice or stupid. On top of it all, I’ll be homeless in a few days, I don’t have a place for my dog to go, and I just got robbed by a guy asking for a quarter!!!! A fucking quarter!!! I only had 3 dollars!!!! I want to die because my lonliness is heavy on my heart and my head now. What is there to do now?!! I […]
hi I just made this account. My name is julia I love in a small nobody town with good friends asshole parents and school sucks. I’m 15 I’ve been diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety. I take Zoloft everyday so I can function without freaking out. I self harm I was just 144 days clean but broke it today. I’ve been good for the most part but only because I’ve been pushing all my feelings and responsibilities away. I have d’s and c’s in every class except for gym and the only reaywhy I’m doing well in gym is because my teacher is a creep […]
It’s funny how easily humans discard one simple pleasure for another, but I guess the brain wants what it wants. They say change is good, and I suppose it is, but nobody can deny the fact that in the middle of that change lies that vulnerability that can sometimes hurt or even kill you. People are so fragile, I know lots of people that say “I’m so emotionally strong” blah blah blah. Take away their confidence, give them a disfigurement or a disability, let them lose a loved one, and see how they feel after. I want everybody to have the same afflictions and I […]
There’s something that has been bugging me lately, and I would like some of your advices here.
One of my biggest problems is that I’m a nobody (or at least I feel like it). If I died today no one would know who the hell I was or they would forget about me pretty quickly. I have friends, but I often feel like I’m left apart, or that I don’t fit in. And there are a lot of people who I’d like to talk to or I would have liked to, but they don’t even know I exist. People who […]
I found my way back to this site, over 3 years since my first and only post. It’s been so long I had forgotten I even made an account. And how disheartening it was to have the realization that in many ways, I am no better now than I was then. The stigma that is still around mental health leads people to believe that these conditions are just something one can “get over”. That surrounding yourself with loved ones, exercising, getting a pet, etc., will “cheer you up”. I stand as one of so very many examples that this is not the case. Though I […]
Today might be the day I end this miserable life of mine. Either overdose myself on sleeping pills so I will never have to wake up again, or jump in front of a moving car. I’m sick and tired of being lonely and having fake friends who just use me for things and and make fun of me with their “jokes”, and how they always tell me their “kidding around with me” It’s been eight years I’ve been going to the same fucking school and nothing has changed. As we all got older I still ended up having nobody. I’m obviously worthless and live a […]
Let me start off by saying that I am only 16 years old and currently in the 11th grade. I have been going through severe depression for about a few years now and everyday is a struggle for me. When I open my eyes the next morning knowing that I have to get up and start another day of this pointless life that I live. I have been going to the same school for eight years and as the years passed by and we all got older I still ended up having no friends and only having acquaintances and being used all the time for […]
Things have fucked up again. Looks like I’m going to be lonely for a while. I guess I always was anyway. Can’t be a part of this cold world, feeling lost, running from one cold person to another. It’s time for a change of environment and attitude.
I’m going to create my own universe, surround myself with good people and take shit from nobody.
I’m sorry I just can’t do this anymore. I’m done with hope. I’m done with everything. I’ve lost everything and there is nothing left for me. I don’t want to live anymore. And there is no use for me anyway. Nobody will change my mind. I’ve already chosen what to do. I can’t even cry anymore. I’m not scared to die anymore. I am 100% sure of what I should do. And nobody will ever change my mind. This life is hell. And I don’t want to deal with it anymore. I will be free and so happy. And so will everybody else.
This is not […]
I can’t cope with this anymore. Everythings falling apart. Nobody cares about me and the only person that does, the girl I love with all my heart doesn’t anymore either. I’m a wreck. I break down, I get so angry, I cry, I can’t sleep and it happens everyday. I want to end my life so bad. Nobody will care that I’m gone. It will end all the pain I’ve put on people and they wont have to stress about me anymore. I have a plan. I’m going to write a suicide not explaining everything, I’m going to sneak out when everyone is asleep then […]
Well I’ll start off with when it all started, about 5 years ago. I made the worst desicion of my life and I will still never tell anyone what happened. I got bullyed at school for years every single day. Nobody would give me a break. I regretted what I had done and everyday people treated me bad. I felt worthless. I stopped caring about everything because nobody cared about me. Only one of my cousins did. I started robbing houses, shoplifting etc. I would smoke weed and just get up to michief with my friends. I started getting in heaps of trouble with the […]
Through the system
Into this music
The last-space
If I fall, then I go
Through the vast of the world
But what do I do
Do I really want to go to that
I fucked-up and I need to come back
But how, thrown like a Goat
Zodiac, can I, find, hurled through the planet
Santa, is coming for me
Nobody knows, nobody
I’m all the way out
What is the way out
Armitage is nowhere in sight
Android 16, blow me up, to safety
Where we are, where we at
Thinking through a step
What is the Ultron
What is the Avengers
Horn and […]
So, it feels like I have nobody, but I know I have family and everything that care a lot about me, but I so badly want a different life, I’m tired of the same faces, same places…I want to live in a new town, actually a new state, new friends, new family, new name, new personality, new qualities…pretty much I want to be someone completely different from who I actually am and I want it so bad…I used to get urges to kill myself just for stupid random things because i was tired of them and annoyed, but I’ve never tried or self-harmed….I’d also want […]
I don’t know what I’m doing with my life….I don’t know anything actually. I spend every minute of everyday trying to make others feel so happy about themselves and cheer them up when really I’m the one that’s needs cheering up…
I guess it all started when I was in 8th grade, and yes, I know that that is a young age to start getting depressed, but that’s what I was…no adult could understand, you all are probably thinking, “you’re so young, you have so much to live for,” or something along the lines of that, but truth is, you don’t understand…there are so many young […]
Dear WORLD,
I hate my life. i want to die. i hate my family. i dont have friends. i wish to leave this world. i dont want to be here anymore. ive had enough time. give my years to someone who wants them. i dont want to hurt myself anymore unless it is soon followed by death. my heart is hollowed out from the world i was born into. take me away to somewhere far away where birds always sing and the […]
I feel I just can’t go on anymore. The pain controls everything. I have no friends no family nobody to talk to nobody to open up to. I hoping maybe someone can talk me out of this I don’t want to do it but I see no other option I plan out everyday how I going to do it and where but I don’t want nobody to see it or find me it always ends up with someone finding me I just want to disappear. I’ve already tryed pills but that only landed me in the hospital looking like an idiot not a single person […]
ll of my life I’ve been abused and I’m now 37 and it still keeps coming, as a child I was neglected and underfed by my parents who also knowinly sent me to my grandfathers house where I was sexually assaulted constantly and raped by him and his friend, I cried out and nobody believed me and I kept getting sent back to him,
all through my adult life I’ve been abused by various girlfriends and again nobody believed me and now for the last 4 years its been happening again, I’ve been kept locked away in a house with a crazy woman who beat me […]
I’m just a typical girl who wants to be loved by a family because I never have a chance to feel that on my own family. I’ve tried too much times to killed myself but still I’m alive. Still not happy and still nobody cares about my existance. You don’t need to have a broken family to feel like incomplete your whole life I, myself was as example of it. I might have both parents but they don’t care for me a little bit. I need to work on my own to have the things that I needed. How I wished to have some parents […]