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Midnight Thoughts Destroy

by PierceTheVeilAddict 6/15/2013

written by PierceTheVeilAddict

It’s nearly midnight and what’s happening? The thoughts are returning…..The voices are speaking..no, YELLING at me >.< I can hear them now….. “Die ***** die!” “Who says you’re worth living?” “You don’t deserve to live. Your own parents didn’t even want you. HA!”

The thoughts destroy me, kill me, suffocate me, eat me alive. My demons…they’re real. They exist. I don’t want to go on but..I have to. Not just for myself. I’m not living for myself anymore. I’m living for him. And her. For them. They may not care about me but I love them with all my heart.

It’s like…I can scream at them and […]

6/15/2013 1 comment

Fade

by erinphantom 6/14/2013

written by erinphantom

I can’t remember when I haven’t felt like IÂ am Â just waking up because I have to.Â If it was physically possible just to continue to sleep – I would.Â I hate facing the day.Â I drive home hurt and scared and angry every day.Â I fail as a wife, I fail at being what I feel I should at my job…I am a burden of misery to my best friend whom I ***** to every day.Â She moves to Germany soon and I know our friendship will fade away.Â Every day is the same.Â Most nights during the week I just cry myself to sleep.

PeopleÂ keep […]

6/14/2013 4 comments

Here I Am

by Olivia Katelynn 6/14/2013

written by Olivia Katelynn

Never thought I’d end up here again.

Im sitting on my bed with a pile of pills in front of me and i dont know whether or not to do it. It seems like everyone has given up on me. My mother saw my cuts and everything started falling apart. My sisters have nothing to do with me any more. My parents send me to my room a lot. My friends exclude me from many things. I just want to be normal. I want the cuts to heal, but they cant if i keep making new ones. I dont know why i cant stop.

Im a fail. […]

6/14/2013 3 comments

Another addition to this cycle…

by JustKeepDreaming 6/14/2013

written by JustKeepDreaming

Again, it’s me.
I figure I should do a re-cap just so no one gets lost.
My father abandoned my mother and I when I was five months old.
My mother met a new guy when I was four and I caught them having sex. Since that night, she made me watch and take part in sexual activities.
My mother moved me twelve hours away from my last piece of sanity and put me through hell with that new guy.
When I was eight my mother and I were out of a house so she shipped me off to my fathers.
While living with my […]

6/14/2013 47 comments

I’m graduating in two days…

by Imsodone 6/13/2013

written by Imsodone

So, in two days, I will be graduating highschool, on the surface I’m happy and just as excited as my friends, and I am, don’t get me wrong, this is a huge step in my life but.. at the same time. I don’t know, there’s this little part of me that wants me to feel miserable.

I can’t wait to leave highschool and all the dicks in my school, I’ve seen enough of them to last me a lifetime. but I’m going to miss my friends, I don’t know when I’m going to see them again, cause some of them are moving away, like far away, […]

6/13/2013 4 comments

Five more minutes….

by lost_soul 6/13/2013

written by lost_soul

My guess is that everyone on here is afraid of something. Afraid of the future, afraid of consequences, etc. Right now I’m afraid of something everyone in life has to eventually go through – growing up.

Well I’m not really afraid, more like I’m TERRIFIED. My whole life there was someone to help me, even a little bit, and I always had another milestone I could postpone adulthood to. But now I’ve reached that point and now I’m on my own. I do and don’t want this moment to come. I do want to become independent and not under the stigma of my parents’ reputation […]

6/13/2013 0 comment

Dear World.

by renegadeRaenbow 6/13/2013

written by renegadeRaenbow

Today I was happy.
I went to the pool today with my assistant manager/close friend (I helped her recover after a very brutal divorce with her crack-addict lousy excuse for a husband.) Now normally when I have any cuts or scars on my legs, I tend to hide them. But today I said, “Fuck it! I’ll show them off and let them get some sun. Maybe they’ll fade out a little like the older ones.” I had an incident a few days ago that I’m none too proud of, but I decided to go nonetheless. When we got to the pool and the sun was […]

6/13/2013 1 comment

Death calls me again and again.

by shruti2910 6/12/2013

written by shruti2910

am 19 year old, a second year student of Psychology from St. Xavier’s College.
I do not exactly remember how long it has exactly been but I have never had a good relationship with my parents since I was some 16 year old after I had my first relationship with a guy.
Though they let me go out to college, but my life is equivalent to hell. I do not say I am the only suffering person in the world, but for me, at this moment, only my pain matters.
Day before yesterday when city enjoyed one of the loveliest weather, I asked my mother […]

6/12/2013 3 comments

New discovery

by StorybookSuicide 6/12/2013

written by StorybookSuicide

I got to me great aunt’s house yesterday, the same time that a guy who looked like he was in college was there. Apparently, he was Katelynn’s boss and best friend. He was giving Katelynn’s violin to my aunt, obviously, I was confused since Katelynn didn’t play violin. At least I didn’t think she did. She played violin. She was in 4 recitals. She had a job. And I never had any idea. I didn’t know that every time she came home late was because she’d been working part-time to buy a violin. I didn’t know she was actually a junk artist, and I don’t […]

6/12/2013 0 comment

So, Uhm, Hi…

by JustKeepDreaming 6/12/2013

written by JustKeepDreaming

Well, I guess hello.
I don’t exactly know what I am doing here..
About ten minutes ago I was ready to end my life, but a person I know recommended I check out this one website awhile back and I figured it couldn’t hurt. That’s how I ended up here.
I don’t really know what I am suppose to say, or do. But I just really need to tell someone what is on my mind.
If you are also on this site reading my words, it is safe to assume that you’re dealing with something around the topic of suicide so you know the amount […]

6/12/2013 12 comments

A Story

by TheOneWhoStayed 6/11/2013

written by TheOneWhoStayed

I just want to share a story, my story, for anyone that might care to read it. Â It will probably be the only thing I post on this website. Â You’ll never know who I am and I will never know who you are, but perhaps we’ll meet someday, get drunk together, and you’ll tell your story and mention a story you read on this stupid website and I’ll say “hey, that was me! Â I wrote that!”. Â And we’ll laugh about it and go build a bonfire in the woods and howl at the moon, or something. Â That’s the kinda thing I like to do, anyway, […]

6/11/2013 1 comment

Sometimes it’s all I can think about.

by silenteyes84 6/10/2013

written by silenteyes84

I’ve been struggling for a while now, it just feels like there’s only so much one person should have to handle. Some days I’m fine, I get up go to work, do what it is normal people are supposed to do. Most days…most days, I just want to die, not because I’m bored or lonely or crying out for attention; but because I’m tired. I’m tired of slogging through bull shit and being told that I just got dealt a shitty hand and if I stick it out it’ll get better. I’m tired of hurting, I’m tired of caring about everyone else and being cared […]

6/10/2013 2 comments

I want to get help but need some advice

by givenup 6/10/2013

written by givenup

I don’t know what to do any more. Everything I try to do fails, my friends are all starting to give up on me and I don’t fit in with my family, they keep on making my life a living hell and I know that I can’t keep on going on like this.

Every day I think about just ending it all, it would be so much easier. I find my self lying awake at night unable to sleep and imagining how much better off everyone would be if I wasn’t here any more.

I want to get some help, but I’m so scared to go […]

6/10/2013 14 comments

Why?

by FuneralAddict 6/9/2013

written by FuneralAddict

Do I remain here.

It would be so easier if my parents were no longer here, then I could just exit this nightmare forever.

I’ve never belonged, or really wanted to. People are as hard as f******g nails.

6/9/2013 1 comment

Freshman Year…

by LostHedgehog 6/8/2013

written by LostHedgehog

My Freshman school year was complete utter hell. The summer before freshman year was something you would normally only have written in a crazy book or a fake story someone made up. I was a young 14 year old who was in a abusive relationship and after it was broken off it followed me into my first year of high school. He was telling everyone a bunch of insane stories about how we had sex everyday and he spent the night almost every weekend. The only time I ever saw him was when he was standing at my locker and then he either was asking […]

6/8/2013 3 comments

I can’t

by Redheadd 6/8/2013

written by Redheadd

I am 15 years old about to turn 16, I haveÂ attempted suicide before but my parents got me ‘help’. I had been doing good for the past monthsÂ but lately it seems like my problems are coming back and the suicide thoughts are as well and I feel like thing won’t get better anymore. I don’t have anyone to talk to because no one really cares or seems toÂ understandÂ please help

6/8/2013 9 comments

Why live?

by alliKat 6/7/2013

written by alliKat

Ive never been that girl to be “depressed”. Im always laughin,even when there’s that one thing that killed my mood,i always find something stupid to laugh at…now i realise that that was my brain’s automatic way of blocking out what i call pain.

Something happened tonight that changed me,my whole mental state. My dad hit me..not just hit but PUNCHED me. He misinterpreted something i said and took it as an insult, so then,he punched me. I must admit, im not the most respectful child,at all. But i NEVER thought my own father would punch me,as if i was one of his scumbag friends. Ive always […]

6/7/2013 16 comments

Utterly useless

by GreySkies 6/6/2013

written by GreySkies

I’ve just joined the site, and this is my first post. I probably won’t write much because I can’t be bothered- nothing is worth bothering with for me. I’m one of those people that passes everybody by where it matters.
I’m 36, I’ve had great chances in life, but blown them all. I’m female, and single. I’ve mostly always been that way, regardless of the fact that i’m a ‘head turner’. It doesn’t mean shit when I don’t have a job, I lost my only baby (pregnancy), my only ever real boyfriend (he walked out in the night whilst I was sleeping and left […]

6/6/2013 10 comments

My final words

by ForeverLonely 6/6/2013

written by ForeverLonely

I’ve had this saved for some time now. Realised from the moment I thought it that one day I would use it. My family, especially my parents, have the right to know why I decided to do the unthinkable. They have no idea I’ve been researching it for months. Devious really. This is a material world and I want out.

To My dear loving family

Forgive him all for what heâ€™s done

A departed soul he has become

His pain and sufferingÂ so much so

He had no choice but to go

Young, loving and so very proud

But in the end was beaten by deaths dark […]

6/6/2013 2 comments

want to die but should not claimed suicide

by devi 6/6/2013

written by devi

life seem to come to a stand still, do not know where to go, what to do, my husband cheated me for a girl, i tried to live with him,13 long years Â waited and waited but no he has built a strong relationship with her, a friend approached me promised me to be a good friend but got into a relation, i thought my husband would feel jealous and would be by my side but no he and his girl friend has taken photos in private. my parents have brought me up with good habits, i somehow got over the relation becoz it didnt help […]

6/6/2013 3 comments

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