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Why I’m here

by hopeisafourletterword 10/15/2014

written by hopeisafourletterword

I should be dead by now. But I’m not. Why? Because of him. One person. There are so many people in the world and he had to come into my life. I cannot understand what he saw in me and what he apparently still sees in me. I love so many other people but I was willing to leave it all behind because I just couldn’t be happy anymore, but now I am. I haven’t been in love in years. I fell in love with him as quickly as I made the decision to end my life. I don’t get why this happened. I don’t get it.

I […]

10/15/2014 2 comments

Lost and nowhere to be Found

by angelp 10/15/2014

written by angelp

Where should I start :/ I haven’t always been depressed and want kill myself. It all started once my family started have problems and lots of stress one parents shoulders. This stress was transferred to me and I took it in for awhile not knowing what would the outcome be. Then I found out my uncle has cancer and is very sick. This caused me to go into a depression stage while not knowing it yet. My parents yelled At me making me think this is ally fault so this led to smoking Weed, then I started having relationship problems with my girlfriend!! This where […]

10/15/2014 1 comment

Conflicted (Opinions Much Appreciated)

by crossingboundaries 10/13/2014

written by crossingboundaries

This is my second post. My first is a life story of sorts. But the basics you need to know before you read the rest of this are: 1. I’ve struggled with severe mental illness for over half my life, and I’m young. I’ve made five very serious suicide attempts and have been psychiatrically institutionalized 11 times. So, I’m a very experienced mental patient. 2. As ironic as it is, I work in an acute care mental health facility. Most of our patients are either suicidal or have just been medically cleared and sent to us after attempting suicide. So I guess you […]

10/13/2014 3 comments

(a)live?

by MerloBird 10/13/2014

written by MerloBird

so I guess this is my own first personal entry here. sharing personal stories has never really been my thing but I ll give it a try.

I grew up in a what most people would probably call ‘golden cage’.
daddy a big-company manager, mummy a doctor. broom-stick-up-their-asses-rich-people.
From early age on I was their marionette; had to learn how to play the piano so they could show off with me at their business dinners; made me take ballett lessons; the list is as long as time and filled with various stereotypes it s not even funny. Whenever I did not obey I was either beaten […]

10/13/2014 0 comment

I’m Worthless

by Johnlh54 10/11/2014

written by Johnlh54

All I do is hurt people and ruin my relationships. I’m a god awful person who just fucks up everything. I hurt everyone. I judge like I’m better. I wish I had the strength to pull the trigger last year

10/11/2014 2 comments

whats the truth about hanging

by sluthead 10/11/2014

written by sluthead

I have two questions regard death by hanging, suspension , without breaking of the neck. The first question is will you feel anything after losing consciousness ? I know the feeling of lungs heaving must be painful but I want to know if someone would experience it at all, since after 10 seconds or so the person would be passed out. Is it a painful experience? The second question is how loud is the sound of someone suffocating during suspension hanging?? Is it possible for someone to hear, gagging, choking, or lungs heaving while passing? If so from how far away? through a wall? More […]

10/11/2014 9 comments

A Few Kind Souls

by EvilKitten 10/11/2014

written by EvilKitten

At the suggestion of a few of you on here, I have set up a Go Fund Me campaign.

Here is the link to my fundraiser.

http://www.gofundme.com/youngwidow

Please share this link with anyone that you think might be willing to help. Even $5 is greatly appreciated.

Those of you who have read my posts and interacted with me on here probably know this about me already. I’m not the kind of person to ask for help. I’m the stubborn person who always tries to fix my problems all by myself. Maybe that’s why I’m in such a horrible situation right now. Perhaps the Universe is trying to […]

10/11/2014 14 comments

Being sober makes me depressed.Maybe this Is my time to go home??

by lifeishorrible 10/10/2014

written by lifeishorrible

I don’t get high cause I like to,I don’t even like the tatse of swisher sweets.I get high to get threw the day.I rarely cut anymore but now that’s all I wanna do.Cutting when high Is like a high to a high.Without either one & someone not there Its like whats the point??I am by no means a strong person.I need an escape.Maybe I needa go home??

10/10/2014 1 comment

How many of you…

by justme- 10/9/2014

written by justme-

Cross a road as you see a bus approaching far off in the distance, and wish it weren’t hundreds but a mere few feet away.
Peer over the hand rails of a bridge and imagine yourself plunging towards the watery depths below.
Drag a finger along the edge of a blade – wishing your finger were your neck instead.
Feel a faint sense of relief at the thought of others gazing downward at the lifeless body – it had imprisoned you for much too long.
Battle the urge to just jump .. to make the leap of faith into the abyss.
Become fixated upon the person you’ve wanted so deeply to know and understand, disgusted by […]

10/9/2014 2 comments

I am the Definition of Loser!

by NotAttentionSeeking 10/8/2014

written by NotAttentionSeeking

How would you define a loser?

Let’s see:

Would a 25 year old who cannot hold down a job for more than 6 weeks without getting fired and who has been unemployed for about 2 years qualify? Still living under your parents roof?

How about the person of the same age never having been in a relationship or have even had a real kiss? (The main issue being societies expectations. It does not really bother me too much.)

Or what about having no real friends because you have such poor social skills, get socially anxious and are known to have a temper? Where even mental health staff have given […]

10/8/2014 10 comments

IF you really cared

by Bre 10/7/2014

written by Bre

This is me, the bubbly, fun, loving person with a side people dont understand. Lately me and this boy had a thing and it all went to shit and I keep cutting and having bad suicidal thoughts, sometimes I think about taking my whole bottle of pills just so I wont feel pain anymore. My arms burn more than ever and I havent been eating, my stomach hurts and just makes me so upset and I cant eat nothing, my family is getting worried […]

10/7/2014 6 comments

death

by Namelessqueer 10/7/2014

written by Namelessqueer

it seems far away but close by. while my meds are helping me think of it less day by day the universe resists. A friend from college committed suicide last week. It’s taking some time to hit me and i still don’t know if I have it for real. I lit some candles. went to the wake, saw the body. But I still can’t. I can’t describe how i feel or what I’m thinking. I know that before in my head I would laugh when i thought about killing myself. I don’t laugh anymore. It’s not that it feels more real or less real but […]

10/7/2014 1 comment

I’m alone.

by tiffanyroberts418 10/7/2014

written by tiffanyroberts418

I only have one person in my life. Its my boyfriend. He spends most of his time at football and we live 500 miles away because of the college he’s going to. I haven’t seen him in a few months. My mom and dad used to abuse me so I was taken away and put into an orphanage. I was adopted when I was 8 years old. I spent 3 years in the orphanage. My mom and dad were taken to jail. My mom had a shorter sentence than my dad. She tries to contact me daily. I’ve tried to kill myself multiple times. I’m […]

10/7/2014 2 comments

im back

by Chelsey 10/7/2014

written by Chelsey

After all this time,I’m back. I decided to stop using the site for a while,get some breathe,turns out I’m back into that dark whole. I’m worse than before. I hate myself more. I’ve become this person who when I look in the mirror I feel sick. I’ve become this weak person who cannot stick up for themselves. I just do what’s best for everyone else and what makes them happy,no one sees I’m broken inside,no one sees or let alone cares. I started cutting again and they’ve got deeper more of,and some people notice and ask,I give a petty excuse and they believe […]

10/7/2014 0 comment

Making friends

by fairmount 10/7/2014

written by fairmount

KK so im a shit person because i find it so stressful to make friends and when im in the process of becoming friendly with someone all i want to do is cut cut cut cut CUT so they can see and then they can’t reject me lol.

how fucked is that.

i fucking hate myself for even thinking like that

10/7/2014 3 comments

Suicidal Thoughts..

by monkey21 10/6/2014

written by monkey21

Suicidal thoughts don’t make you a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed. These thoughts occur to when our pain is greater than we can cope with. Will power has nothing to do with it. If we could cheer ourselves up, we would. We all experience different kinds of pain and we all have different limits. If you ever feel like giving up, just know that you are not alone. There are many of us feeling the same way. But don’t give in, talk to someone first. Talk to a friend, a stranger, talk to me..

10/6/2014 4 comments

Who’s from Reno, or surrounding areas?

by EvilKitten 10/5/2014

written by EvilKitten

I’m bored and need friends. Chatting in person is pretty nice. So I’m wondering who here is from Reno or within reasonable distance. Maybe we can get a support group going here or just have coffee and try to feel “normal” for a little while.

10/5/2014 2 comments

Sorrows

by xylem 10/5/2014

written by xylem

Some days I feel like my chest is being crushed by all the love and care I would have wanted to give someone. Even now my heart is drowning in a sorrow that has no stars, and no laughter and no sleep.

Some days I wonder if ppl just can’t see how wonderful they really are.. even burned out, or damaged.. There is such beauty in a strong beating heart inside a good person.

10/5/2014 7 comments

by hellblau 10/5/2014

written by hellblau

One day, I realized he might not exist. My soulmate, I mean.
I realized there might not be someone walking around this earth just waiting to meet me. Someone with a private world just as intricate as mine that, one day, I would get to share and be a part of and know.
And I realized I was keeping a vacant spot in my heart for this person who might not exist. That I wasn’t allowing myself to be whole because how could I be whole with my other half missing?

10/5/2014 9 comments

looking for the end

by lost hope 10/4/2014

written by lost hope

No more tears and no more trying. Trying – what does that mean? – Trying to find a place to fit in, trying to find some peace – just a comfortable place in this life – not looking for perfection or paradise – just a comfortable place … it just doesn’t exist anymore! So why keep trying enough of the pain, enough of the hardship, enough of the harassment, threats and harm. Enough of trying.

I look back at my life and consider how did it come to this. I used to be okay, how did it change – bit by bit over 20 years – but, not now too much agony […]

10/4/2014 2 comments

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