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Complete dread

by disgusting 3/22/2016

written by disgusting

I never thought I’d feel sick to my stomach with anger and dread, not wanting to go in to work. This has been the first full year that I’ve worked through a job, so I’ve never experienced anything like this before. And it’s the same thing I’ve heard my mom complain about why she absolutely loathes working. It’s because there’s always got to be some insufferable ***** there who makes everyone miserable!

So here’s what happened. The boss has been gone over a month now because she’s moving to another state. She’s supposed to be back at some point to tie up loose ends before she’s […]

3/22/2016 7 comments

Anonymity

by fitzgerald 3/22/2016

written by fitzgerald

I guess places like this are why people love anonymous Internet posting so much.

If we met in person, I doubt we’d be friends. I doubt I’d get the lovely support I have been the last few days.

I might be one of the people you felt excluded, or trodden down by.

My friends are the ones with the bright smiles and pretty hair. My family loves and supports me. I got my chance to get an education, and was successful at it. I was never abused. I’ve never been dragged through the gutter.

People say I’m funny, and sweet, maybe too sarcastic sometimes. They think I’m smart and […]

3/22/2016 6 comments

Friends

by lulereign 3/22/2016

written by lulereign

I feel that friendship is more fragile and more important compared to a relationship. I don’t know, but it’s like whenever my friends suddenly act cold, it hurts so fucking bad I just add a few more cuts just to be able to feel. Fucking hell it makes no sense.

Honestly, it really fucking terrifies my how much of a hold this person has over me. All she has to do is say a word, and I think I’ll just fucking crumble. She’s not even the person I’m in a relationship with. But I’d rather lose him than her. It’s really difficult and just tiring to […]

3/22/2016 1 comment

Why am I never enough?

by Hampshire_Girl 3/21/2016

written by Hampshire_Girl

I’m not going to mention the username of the person this message is for, but they will know it’s for them and that’s what matters.

My dear friend

I scan the entries on SP expecting to see a final post from you or from someone posting that you’re gone. I no longer visit SP as often as I did because I’m scared of what I’ll see. I look to see what you’re saying in your responses to others to see how you are.

When you emailed to say you might be leaving soon, I responded that it was best I said nothing. If I say “ok, […]

3/21/2016 2 comments

I’m sorry

by TheValiant 3/21/2016

written by TheValiant

I’ve tried to say more, I’ve WANTED to, but I don’t know what a plastic person can offer that isn’t plastic.

I have a job, a home, health, food, shelter, the necessities. My coworkers like me, my family cares about me, my friends mean the world to me. Somehow it makes me feel even worse about myself, more of an ingrate, more worthless, more hopeless.

3/21/2016 1 comment

Why

by Drowning 3/20/2016

written by Drowning

why can’t life be simple ? why do we have to go though so much pain and suffering ? why must the good die young and the rest get left to rot ? why is the world such a horrible place ? How can we find our purpose in life if we don’t even no were to begin ? Why am I fighting to live if I’m just living to die

Life is hard as it is let alone going though everyday depressed anxious and suicidal how much more suffering can one person go though maybe it’s my destiny to die early

3/20/2016 5 comments

4 truths about 4 lies

by creep25 3/18/2016

written by creep25

1.) Nothing in this life is truly earned no matter what anyone tries to tell you. We don’t live in a fairy tale and people don’t get anywhere in life because they work hard and believe in themselves because if that were the case there are millions existing in squander this very moment that should be living in castle on the beach by now. People get places because something outside of what they do whether its looks, money, personality etc gives them the advantage to do so.

2.) No one has control over anything in life. We don’t get to choose if we are born, who our parents are, What our […]

3/18/2016 15 comments

What’s the point?

by chelle428 3/17/2016

written by chelle428

To be honest, I can’t stop crying and I don’t know why. Nothing particularly bad happened I’m just so unreasonably miserable.

Today, I’m so desperately wishing that the human body wasn’t built to survive, and that it wasn’t so difficult to die. I wish I knew how to use a gun, because if I did I’d shoot myself since I have access to a gun. I wish all the useless leftover antidepressants I had would kill me if I took them all. Maybe the lexapro would since I’m allergic.

I wish I knew one person who was kind to me, I wish I had friends. I wish […]

3/17/2016 5 comments

Session 17: That moment

by R3T31D 3/17/2016

written by R3T31D

So, I just got back from a trip. Had a good time, plenty of laughs, discussed future goals, dreams and what not. Ate good food, spend time with her. Made new things, punched other things, they remade said punched things.

Good times right?

right…

I mean, that is what they should be right…

good… times…

…

And then as if of nowhere it just happens…

… you know what it is…

That happens…

And you keep telling yourself that you got this, that this is not going to get you…

That you are bigger than it.

But are you?

Are you really?

Can you stand in front of it, and say it?

And then it happens again.

Like always..

As if […]

3/17/2016 2 comments

When it hits you

by alina_01 3/17/2016

written by alina_01

so hard that you almost feel like you are in the past again. Like all the hard work you’ve done to be a better person to have a better life just to end up right back at the bottom. This depression is eating away at me and it is truly agonizing I’ve gone such a long time without feeling suicidal. But yet some how I find myself wishing that I could just disappear and be done with life. I’m destined to be alone and I’m mortified by that because I know it’s true. I am so fucked up mentally and emotionally and every other way […]

3/17/2016 0 comment

Call me a dreamer

by PineBapple 3/17/2016

written by PineBapple

So, I’m an existential nihilist; The other day I was thinking about how as humans we constantly struggle to find a reason to live. A while back I read somewhere that the next step of human evolution is coming, and that one person in particular will thrust humanity forwards into that evolution. They said that the next step is transcending the human form by one of two ways: becoming one with technology (if you’ve seen the movie Transcendence it would be similar but on an obviously larger scale) or becoming one with the universe (aka spiritually). What if that is what happens after death, you transcend […]

3/17/2016 0 comment

Ever want to? I do I do

by tired123 3/15/2016

written by tired123

Ever want to walk past one of your co workers and just slap them in the back of the head as you go by???? I do I do!!! I cant stand that little sweet voice, hiding an evil mean person, that people don’t see past, because she is little and cute. All I ever hear is her talking crap about everyone. And for some reason she now thinks she is my boss even though I have been there 3 years longer. Driving me nuts

3/15/2016 2 comments

Remains of the day

by fitzgerald 3/15/2016

written by fitzgerald

I’m packing up my life. Tying up loose ends. Cleaning it out. It’s making me really sad actually. Almost like this person has died already and I’m packing up her life.

I know it’s my choice. I can stay if I really want to. I just don’t think it’s an option anymore. But this girl, she seems like she had potential. Seems like she left a big hole it the lives of so many people.

This is hard.

3/15/2016 4 comments

Im not the only one lying to my freinds and family

by kupo95 3/15/2016

written by kupo95

My ” friend ” a girl I have knowen my entier life is depressed and suicidal. She recently told me she always angry and anxious, she can’t sleep or eat.

She is a normal person but when she told me while she was crossing the street she wished a car turning would hit her so she can die. I wanted to blurt out welcome to the club, but instead I said “thats to Serious calm down all you did was go get coffe.”

Those words felt like Poissonin my mouth I’ve been in her shoes, I am in her shoes.

But I know she is just lost […]

3/15/2016 2 comments

Protected: I just read the comments on my last post.

by whiskered-fish 3/15/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

3/15/2016 10 comments

I’m terrified.

by norestfortheweary 3/15/2016

written by norestfortheweary

This is my first post. And I’m terrified. Terrified that I have to resort to something like this. Terrified that I’m finding myself sinking back into a hole I thought I had successfully climbed out of years ago.

I’ve had depression of varying degrees on and off since the age of 11. I remember clearly the burning desire to end my own life at age 12; a struggle that took me years to overcome. Don’t ask me how; I don’t remember. Most of that time period in my life has become hazy.

But now, here I am. 17 years old, a loving boyfriend, a promising future. And […]

3/15/2016 2 comments

Edict of Self-Inflicting I

by Nathaniel_Morisawa 3/14/2016

written by Nathaniel_Morisawa

It will always be remiss of me to assume that my interactions with them will amount to anything significant and if they do, significance is an illusion; deceit, miscommunication, and utility will form the core of that relationship. In the event that I’m wrong, and the relationship exists on positive grounds, then it is wasted on someone like me and someone else is more suitable to be that other person’s friend/lover/parent/etc.

Remembering this information will be critical to achieving my ultimate goal and not repeating past events which have led to my suffering.

3/14/2016 1 comment

Protected: Feel free to judge me, I welcome your disgust.

by whiskered-fish 3/13/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

3/13/2016 15 comments

a real reason to die

by bnwB 3/13/2016

written by bnwB

I don’t know..

Are all my problems enough?
Is it enough to die?
Perhaps I’m just a young naive girl, in her depressed years, before she’s a woman. Think she’s the only person and her problems would change the world.

I don’t know.

There a so many people, with so many problems. I don’t know them all. Perhaps their life is much harder, than my life it is and they still alive.
What is a real reason, to kill yourself?

Are my problems enough to die?

I don’t know.

3/13/2016 2 comments

Goodbye SP, I’m not gonna kill myself but..

by tiredthoughts 3/13/2016

written by tiredthoughts

I don’t want to be here anymore. I regret it everytime I come. If I ever helped someone with my words then great. I know what I did and didn’t do or say to the one I’m sad over. I still endure those feelings, but I did this to myself. Like I’ve always done before and relized it now. If I was thankful for not killing myself when I had the strength to, I would say it. I’m going to be something I loathe, a cut-throat type of person because I know I won’t find happiness like that again. I’ll either […]

3/13/2016 12 comments

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