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Why can’t I do anything with my life

by Held 5/10/2015

written by Held

I’m tired of my life and don’t want to live any more. I used to be very much afraid that others might think I’m weird or stupid. That kept me from trying new things because I did not know how to behave in unknown situations. So my life is pretty much the same and very boring.

I tried killing myself but wasn’t able to give myself that little last push to actually do it. What I’m wondering now is, why I’m still not able to do the things I want. I mean I have no reason to be afraid of any consequences. I will die anyway. […]

5/10/2015 2 comments

My self-esteem is a *****

by justanothergirl09 5/9/2015

written by justanothergirl09

I don’t know. I have a lot of problems with myself. When it comes to self-esteem I suck. Oh you see a pretty outfit? Oh wait you’re too fat for it. Oh that guy’s cute? Oh, he picked the prettiest girl.

When I was younger I didn’t care what people said about me because I was happy being myself. About a yer ago all that changed. I saw how people dressed and I thought that I should start dressing like that. You know, just to look pretty and fit in. I started changing my style. Getting ‘better clothes’, ‘better shoes’. I wanted to be accepted. Then […]

5/9/2015 7 comments

Why I’m Here

by louise52 4/20/2015

written by louise52

My story is both hair-raising and mundane at the same time. I was a very promising student, talented musically and didn’t have too bad a childhood, but went down with clinical depression aged 19. Back then there was not so much awareness of the condition so I didn’t really get any effective help. Depression through my twenties came and went, I tried out ‘alternative’ lifestyles and was somewhat of a political activist, I didn’t pursue a career because it was kind of fashionable in my circle to be a dropout I guess. Also the episodes of depression would hit hard, still undiagnosed, still not really […]

4/20/2015 4 comments

life and stuff

by twilighttimes 4/8/2015

written by twilighttimes

I think last year was probably the worst year of my life. Although in retrospect maybe that was a good thing, since it forced me to make some changes in my thinking and perception and personal philosophy that ultimately have led to a much more satisfying and content existence. Sometimes its only when things get to their worst and a situation becomes intolerable that you actually find the motivation to make changes. A couple years ago I came to the realization that I was pretty much bored with everything and that I didn’t really care about anything. I took this boredom and apathy and convinced […]

4/8/2015 2 comments

The ugly truth

by someday_sinking 4/5/2015

written by someday_sinking

No matter how many people try to argue the contrary, our society and culture thrives on superficiality, the idea that how we look quantifies our objective worth is the most widespread knowledge propagated and perpetuated. I was born with intrinsic ugliness, not quite deformed but my facial features are distinctly warped and exaggerated to the point of being undesirable and to be honest, quite repulsive. Naturally people are drawn to beauty – don’t even try to deny it. People are primarily drawn to celebrities because of their conventional aesthetic superiority to most people, if they have a good personality it is amplified and glorified, giving […]

4/5/2015 13 comments

Little Brother

by NewGuy 4/2/2015

written by NewGuy

Warning – really long and pathetic post

So I still want to kill myself. And every time I think about this, I think about the reasons I shouldn’t, or why I haven’t already. And most of the time I realize I’m just living out of fear of something. Like the possibility of an afterlife. I think I overcame this. And the other major one, which I think I overcame a few months ago, is the idea of my mother mourning me. I’ve never liked it when my mother expressed her love for me (which I think is common for teenagers with low self-esteem – even though I’m […]

4/2/2015 2 comments

Mondays are melancholy

by FeelingFunny 4/1/2015

written by FeelingFunny

Sunday is gloomy, tuesday is there as well as wednesday, thursday is the sign that youre almost through the week, friday is full of fun and saturday is silent. I’ m pretty drunk and bored.

4/1/2015 0 comment

How would you choose to die?

by gabriel 3/9/2015

written by gabriel

I think falling prey to a madman on a mass shooting spree would be pretty badass, or some hot girl to rip my heart out like in a mortal combat fatality. Either of those would be awesome.

3/9/2015 26 comments

I can’t do it

by i-Like-turtles 3/6/2015

written by i-Like-turtles

I’m pretty sure half of us Ben to a mental hospital or asylum. I already went back like twice I feel as if I’m going to go back again and I don’t know what will happen. I just wanna be in a coma for 3 years or something like that advice?

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3/6/2015 2 comments

I almost did it…

by Bootstrap 2/27/2015

written by Bootstrap

A couple nights ago I stood in the bathroom, staring at myself in the mirror. My eyes were red and swollen; I’d been crying for a while. I had the bottle of pills in my hand. I was planning on drinking the dozen or so beers I had in the fridge as well, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. Probably more out of fear than self-preservation or a desire to live. And it wasn’t even a fear of dying; it was a fear of living. I didn’t want to make an attempt and have to live through it. I couldn’t stand the idea of another […]

2/27/2015 2 comments

Paradox

by AarinaDaae 2/14/2015

written by AarinaDaae

Paradox

I am a paradox,
I am neither happy
nor I am sad.

I smile at pretty things,
and laugh at funny things.

But late at night I become
a mess of emotions and thoughts
and I wish I could just disappear.

-I’m not sure of the author but I do not own the rights to this poem. I’ve never encountered something that spoke so truthfully to me.

2/14/2015 0 comment

Falling in deep 6ft under…..

by BrokenAngel8 2/12/2015

written by BrokenAngel8

Well I just got dumped this past saturday after 2 1/2 years of being together. I guess I should have realized the signs when he stopped answering my messages of fb for two weeks…. The worse part he didn’t even give me an actual reason on why…. Just a bunch of shitty excuses and fake lies like oh It would be better if we were best friends…. NO ALL YOU DID WAS FRICKEN STABBED ME IN THE FUCKIN BACK AND LEFT THE KNIFE IN IT!

I’ve been pretty much in a pretty bad funk/depression all week going by so slow feeling like I’m in a time […]

2/12/2015 7 comments

incapable of coexisting

by 12ccht 1/28/2015

written by 12ccht

This is my final year if highschool. I have no will to continue going to school, it makes me miserable. I have no will to continue working. I am payed well for my age, $14hr is great money for a highschooler, but I haven’t been able to enjoy it. I feel myself spiriling into another bout. This happens every month. My job is physical, fast paced and stressful. At times, I feel my body and mind trying to shut down on me. I’ve wanted to just give up, lay on the floor and cry at work many times. I should be happy to […]

1/28/2015 0 comment

Somewhere we can talk

by jennjenn 1/25/2015

written by jennjenn

I have no friends. I have a fiance, who doesn’t understand depression. Who I cant really talk to. I wouldn’t want to tell him how bad I feel. Nobody really wants to hear our sad sob stories. You have to get it out though.

My whole damn life, like everyone else I guess, I have always thought, I don’t need to worry about doing blahblah, idk, drugs, too much sun, my credit. We’re all supposed to die before the repercussions of our poor decisions happen. Well I’m living proof, they are coming. I didn’t die at 18, 21, 25, 30. The brain damage from drinking, or […]

1/25/2015 4 comments

I’m a horrible person…Right?

by BrokenHope 1/18/2015

written by BrokenHope

People say that I’m selfish, how can I give anything if I have nothing to give? I have no job, no car, no money, no nothing. How could I be so selfish if I have nothing myself? People say that I’m conceited, how am I conceited, I’m not even pretty anymore, There’s nothing in it for me, I’m disappointing people without saying a word, why am I such a failure?

1/18/2015 3 comments

Protected: Where are my slippers?

by LittleBead 1/11/2015

written by LittleBead

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

1/11/2015 3 comments

Again

by m_1990 1/2/2015

written by m_1990

Second post.

My first post gave you an idea of my backstory. This is more of an update to that post (I don’t know how to update posts, so I’ll just made another).

I feel alone sometimes. Not all the time, just sometimes. I can’t tell you how often because it is random. My life went from being so busy and involved with music and entertaining to one which is more quiet and normal. I really like the change, please do not misunderstand me. Life is far better now. But I can’t understand why I sometimes feel so alone still?

Before, I kept a diary. I was lonely. […]

1/2/2015 0 comment

Nothing Left

by Realm of Great Darkness 12/15/2014

written by Realm of Great Darkness

All I’ve been doing, for nearly twenty years, feels like it’s amounting to nothing. I feel like If I were to die tonight, I’d have lived life to the fullest. I’ll be 34 on Yule; I’m still pretty young as considered by some, but it’s like I have nothing else to experience, other than the things I’ve been doing for the past two decades since my emancipation. Does anyone else have this feeling?

12/15/2014 1 comment

Yup, I’m a fucking pedophile

by blackstrat 12/12/2014

written by blackstrat

Well, this is my first post here and I might as well start off by telling everyone why suicide sounds pretty great right now. I’m not attracted to girls like guys should be. I’m not attracted to other guys either. Well, I kinda am. Guys between the ages 2 and 10. Yup you read that right.

Ok, let me explain some things first; a pedophile is NOT a child molester. I’ve never hurt a kid and I never will, because I have a conscience. I love kids, so I don’t see why I’d ever want to do something as horrible and selfish as raping one. Not […]

12/12/2014 50 comments

I hate my new life

by StuckInAlabama 12/4/2014

written by StuckInAlabama

So, up until about 6 months ago, I had a pretty ok life. Had a good paying job, owned a nice house, had great friends and neighbors and a pretty active social life. At the time, I didn’t realize how good it was. I sure do now.

My in-laws used to live about an hour from us but about 15 years ago, decided to move to some tiny little hillbilly town in Alabama. My husband, being the poster child for “Mama’s Boy” has been begging me ever since they left to move there. He said it was quiet and pretty and wanted a less complicated life; […]

12/4/2014 3 comments

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