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i hate my life…

by alice456 1/4/2016

written by alice456

hey.

so, I’ve been married a year and a half. Everything seemed fine. These past couple months my husband has been telling me that I’m fucking useless, I dont care about his house, he married me because i was desperate, I need to lose some weight, I should only use only room in the house, we shouldn’t have gotten married, he jokes about leaving and cheating on me. He’s called me stupid multiple times. I’m tired of walking on egg shells because I don’t know what will set him off. I’m tired of going to sleep crying every night because of the worthlessness I feel.

if this […]

1/4/2016 10 comments

Powerless

by thedrowninggirl 12/27/2015

written by thedrowninggirl

(TW mentions cutting)

I’m scared. I can’t shake this misery. I don’t know how to.
I’m so afraid of death but so afraid of carrying on with my life- is it just going to be like this from now on? Hurt piled upon hurt upon hurt and the remedy all in other people’s hands?
I don’t know how other people live. How do they know who they are? The only identity I have is my achievements and when I’m prevented from achieving (by rejection, by being overlooked, by not being WHAT PEOPLE WANT) my drive to live just runs out immediately.
This morning I cried and […]

12/27/2015 1 comment

I survived …….. but I don’t know for how long

by Holden 12/12/2015

written by Holden

Guys i need to share this with someone. On the 4th december around 10 pm I took 160 pills of paracetamol with half botle of vodka. It was 72g of paracetamol. I read that 12g is lethal. Anyway, I passed out and woke up at 5:30 am covered with vomit. There was vomit everywhere, even inside my fridge ( i guess i was trying to drink water). How can be possible someone walk while inconscient. I really think God saved me. At 7:00 a.m. I went to the ER, I was vommiting, sweeting, I had fever and I couldn’t think clear. I stayed 4 days […]

12/12/2015 4 comments

Insurmountable Sadness

by Take a Deep Breath 12/2/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

It is taking me again… I don’t want to go. I’m sobbing and I’m tired… I’m so tired loves. Save me from myself. From the depression… Save yourselves from the sorrow that is me

12/2/2015 4 comments

I can’t do this anymore

by justanothergirl09 11/26/2015

written by justanothergirl09

I don’t want to be here anymore. I want to go far away. Can I just die? There’s nothing to live for. I have people all around me but they’re not a good enough reason to make me want to stay alive. It doesn’t matter if I die right now. It would just save me the trouble since I don’t have plans for my future. The person I love the most is gone and there’s no reason to live without her. I’m thankful for the people around me since others have had it worse, but this is not what I want.

I guess I could say […]

11/26/2015 1 comment

Darkness

by Alfred1688 11/15/2015

written by Alfred1688

Darkness I ask you to set me free

Free me from this place where I don’t want to be

I can’t stand this suffering anymore

Give me the peace that I yearn for

Days, months and years I fought

Yet I still can’t ease my distraught

After each demon I slay

A new one arises the next day

My armor is weakening and starting to decay

Yet I pick my sword and head into the fray

I have become lost and weary of this fight

For the victory I seek is nowhere in […]

11/15/2015 1 comment

My rambling

by thelost 11/12/2015

written by thelost

Her eyes shine bright in the unnatural light of this night. A smile from her lights my skin alight. We fight and fight, but it ends up alright. Two souls, drifting through life like a kite in the wind. One smile, and I’d trade my sight for the might those blue eyes provide. Am I right to ride, this miracle of life? After I lied and lied while the old me died. I thought I could confide, but with every revelation there was naught but hesitation in her eyes. Those eyes, those lips, they provide what I nee to survive. A purpose behind this useless […]

11/12/2015 2 comments

Have you ever reached that level of desperation?

by iicookieii 11/5/2015

written by iicookieii

The one where you’re so desperate to kill yourself that you’re willing to do anything? Where you’re willing to swallow anything, try anything, jump in front of anything? That level of desperation where the smallest and most minute of annoyances is enough to convince you that life isn’t worth living and that your only conceivable course of action is suicide? Where you’re just so desperate to end it all you just want anything to come along and take you away, even if you know that it won’t kill you, just hurt you.

I hate it when I reach that level. It’s like being a a wolf […]

11/5/2015 1 comment

I can’t

by Masuani 11/3/2015

written by Masuani

Im tired of people saying everything is gonna be okay.. It’s not its really not. I’m tired so tired.. My dad won’t help me and my sister out. We’re gonna…. We’ve lost the apartment annd were gonna be put on the street.. And its like he doesn’t care. He helps sometime but this is a dire problem.. And everytime we bring up the topic he just ignores us. He pays my step moms rent and lights but he can’t even spare 350 for a deposit.. I’m tired I’m going to shove this. Knife so far up my wrist vain. They won’t be able to save […]

11/3/2015 2 comments

words not said

by hiitsme0819 10/23/2015

written by hiitsme0819

i want to yell scream at the top of my lungs let them know how im really doing give them a chance to save me a chance to reach out and offer another option just one reason to stay a chance to show me someone out there still cares but i cant find the words dont know how to get it all off my mind without seeming like im just fishing for attention but maybe i need a little attention maybe i need the people in my life to let me know i still matter

10/23/2015 4 comments

what to do, what to do.

by L0STgirl 10/22/2015

written by L0STgirl

when you told me you loved me, I believed you. now your nowhere to be found and I’m here falling off the deep end with nobody to catch me. this fall feels never ending, like I’m stuck in time, just floating there in emotions greater than sadness, pain, and loss. I’m trapped with no way out. You, you were suppose to save me, I can’t save myself. but now thats my only option. how can one save themselves when they look in the mirror and see absolutely nothing, I don’t even feel worthless, its greater than that, greater than disappointment. it’s just nothing. that’s when […]

10/22/2015 3 comments

Time to kill myself..

by NoBuddy 10/11/2015

written by NoBuddy

Wake me up inside. Bid my blood to run, before I come undone. Call my name & save me from the dark. Bring me to life

10/11/2015 9 comments

DUCTTAPE DUCTTAPE DUCTTAPE BATHTUBBATHTUBBATHTUB

by jennjenn 10/10/2015

written by jennjenn

I read all these fucked up stories on ID. I’m the next fucking one. “Im the devil and I will cut your face off.” “I’m gonna break all your teeth out, stab you in the eyes and leave you wandering the streets. Duct tape you and leave you in the shower for a few days.” You fucking monkey, you retarded slut, you don’t do a fucking thing, fucking worthless whore.

Everyday. Walk on eggshellS. I’ll do anything, anything to make it stop. He didn’t save me, he damned me, to this life. Takes away every option. I had such an amazing opportunity, all the right pills, […]

10/10/2015 3 comments

Such a waste

by disgusting 10/7/2015

written by disgusting

I heard from an old friend again yesterday. He’s this 20 year old kid who has a hard time dealing with life and figuring out what he wants and who he is. I’ve known him since he was 16 but never met in person because he lives way too far away. He looks up to me for advice and such but he will talk to me for a few days then disappear for months on end, leaving me to feel like I can’t rely on him coz he’s just a kid. He waited until he was 18 to tell me that he liked me and […]

10/7/2015 12 comments

I honestly have no idea what this post will be about yet

by infinitely.spinning 10/3/2015

written by infinitely.spinning

Sooo… hi. I posted on here for the first time a couple of days ago, and I got so much support and positivity. If anyone who read my previous post is reading this, thank you so much for your kindness. 🙂

And also, if you’re reading this, be prepared for a rant.

In my previous post, I essentially said how my ex has affected my life more than I thought possible. And not in a positive way. To sum it up: I still love him after over a month of being seperated, and I’m pretty sure he hates me. Because of that, I’ve started doing things in […]

10/3/2015 14 comments

by Delisnak 10/3/2015

written by Delisnak

im ready for the void
im ready for the nothingness
my very last breaths
into the darkness

my heart beat quickens
it starts to race
beating slower and slower
to a steady pace

someone runs into the room
screaming loudly
but i can barely hear them
trying to save me despertly

the world around me goes black
this world is not right
drove me to suicide
im now dead tonight

10/3/2015 0 comment

Final Post: punk in drublic, and suicide as a pre and postmortem message

by Disposable Human 9/2/2015

written by Disposable Human

Through separation and divorce I have lost everything other than court appointed contact with my family: the ex-wife/best friend, my son, my 2 dogs. It feels like the work I’ve done to try and make this all come together as a family was for nothing. And it was.

Two weeks ago, I shot .375 grams of pure crystal meth into my arm and gave myself tachycardia but died slowly enough for the doctors to save me.

Monday, my legal benzo analogues came in the mail. They’re like xanax on steroids. I took a couple handfuls (that stopped my heart) and then woke up today with no memory […]

9/2/2015 1 comment

What makes Imp impossible?

by impossible_girl 8/26/2015

written by impossible_girl

I think I might have made a post like this some time ago, but the last few months have been … odd, to understate the case. I have some facets, some core beliefs I’ve formed, that make me an impossible girl indeed.

1) I’m a grey ace. Grey asexual. I can feel some sexual desire, though largely when reading erotic fic or something, sometimes for someone I care about, but I don’t want sex. Romance, yes. Sex, no. It took me a very long time to accept that this doesn’t make me broken, it simply puts me on a different […]

8/26/2015 9 comments

Sleep Patterns

by the-lord-of-the-lamps 7/20/2015

written by the-lord-of-the-lamps

Day after day I sit in my room and watch the sunrise from my bed. Night after night I wake up to the sounds of my family getting ready for bed. I’m so afraid. I’m alone in every sense of the word, and it terrifies me. The fact that nobody will remember me after my inevitable death makes me sick. The fact that my family would only show up to my funeral because they have to nauseates me. The fact that I’m the one pushing people away makes me see red. I can’t understand my own emotions and the only thing I can think about is […]

7/20/2015 0 comment

by LostNConfused 7/18/2015

written by LostNConfused

I’ve never posted anything about my depression online for everyone to see. Hell, I’ve never even told anyone about it for fear they’ll look at me differently. Anyway, here goes. I’m eighteen years old and there’s not a day that goes by I don’t think of killing myself. The worst part is, there’s not just one reason or a specific traumatic event I can blame it on. Honestly, my issues don’t seem half as bad as the majority and I know I should be thankful and appreciative but I can’t. I’m just sad. All the fucking time. I used to think it was because my […]

7/18/2015 4 comments

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