Tag:

saving

I’m Already Dead

by Counting The Days Until I'm gone 3/6/2016

written by Counting The Days Until I'm gone

Rather than equivocating death, I have conceded that death has already bestowed its unrequited love upon me. Simply so, because though I still breathe, and whilst my heart still thumps, the mere essence which makes each of us has perished within me.

It is as if though I’m only being kept alive by a hypothetical respirator and though this hypothetical mechanisations is working tirelessly, what sense is the life that its saving. For that individual can no longer be happy, can no longer assimilate to usual locomotion, all that is left is his bodily mechanisations and, in actuality life has already left his body.

My body, however is […]

3/6/2016 11 comments

The Last Stage

by Zetsumei 1/22/2016

written by Zetsumei

Monday is when I go back to college but I’ve been falling slowly now. My grip on life is getting weaker by the day. Yet, I realized I’m beyond saving, be it by my own strength or another person’s. At the beginning of this forked path, I’ll post every uplifting/encouraging Japanese song I know for a week or so. The first one is Only Human by K, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ppINLeLEnFo. Here’s hoping it helps you more than it did me.

1/22/2016 19 comments

scared

by auron 12/30/2015

written by auron

so my ex and I were together for a year, we did drugs all the time and I ended up in a psychosis with so many delusions that I broke up with her thinking I was being followed among many other things. I’ve wasted a lto of money, I have a shitty atar and I constantly feel like I’m fighting my own mind, each day is a tremendous struggle. it’s my brithday in 3 days and I’ll be turning 19. my ex has cut me out of her life completely, calls me a stalker and talks bad about me. My current girlfriend does not make […]

12/30/2015 6 comments

Nothing.

by utterly worthless 10/12/2015

written by utterly worthless

I am so disgusting. I hate the way I look. I will never be happy. I’ve never been happy. I just want to die. It’s not even about me escaping my pain. It’s more about saving other people from having to tolerate me being around. Friends abandon me, relationships fail. My family are oblivious. I mean nothing in this world, so why can’t I just die? I’ve tried so many many times to end it, and it never works. I don’t want help. I just want to go.

10/12/2015 2 comments

I need strength…

by Bluerose 8/12/2015

written by Bluerose

Im doing my best not to cut. Been clean for years.. But i know that the sight of blood would calm me down…

I feel as if there is so much hate and anger inside me that i need to release some of the pressure.

I cant cut… Not because i want to live.
I cant cut coz im saving all my strength for aug 23.

I gave myself a chance and delayed it for as long as i could… Thats going to be my final day.

8/12/2015 2 comments

This Lost Link

by Bisban 8/3/2015

written by Bisban

To be this, I’m the last

Of the Lords, saving the underground

Just leaving behind

The Goddess, pure, like the wind

I seek to, like a blooming flower

I want to go, home

How do I conquer the destiny

I’m riding, the one, on the Rhino

Like that kid, that loves WWF

WCW, and the new, world order

Order, like the name

Only piecing this puzzle like picking the leaves

From the ground

8/3/2015 0 comment

No matter what

by GalaxyEyesXx 6/4/2015

written by GalaxyEyesXx

Why do we pick days for suicide? I have been trying to plan mine for a fucking year, maneuvering the date around birthdays or special occasions. But then I realized, it doesn’t matter what day it is. It doesnt matter if we leave a note expressing our apologies to loved ones or telling them how much we love them. It is never going to take the pain away. Suicide is selfish and I’m not going to bullshit myself anymore. It just is. But people make selfish decisions all the time, not revolving around death. I’m choosing this for me. For once in my life, I’m […]

6/4/2015 4 comments

Downgrade

by Rotted_Flesh 6/1/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

Knowing that you HAVE to be somewhere, at least 5 days out of the week and for at least 8 hours a day makes life already suck. Obviously I realize that you have to work to survive, but why not simply… survive to survive? Humans thousands of years ago didn’t have “jobs”, they were keen on self-sufficing, foraging, hunting, migrating.. just being alive was enough. Where did that go? Why can’t we just be happy with living, eating, socializing and we as people being our own livelihoods? I think things would be a lot better, rather than working some shitty job you hate and saving […]

6/1/2015 4 comments

end of the road

by worthless_loser 73 5/28/2015

written by worthless_loser 73

I have tried to hang in there as long as I could. Waited and waited for the only thing that could save me. But she (and them) chose to let me be. She didn’t find it in her heart to save the man that used to be her entire world. The man who did everything for her (and them) for 5 1/2 years. No, that must have never happened. Our relationship must have never existed. I, therefore, never existed.

It must be a heavy burden to carry. Being the one thing that can save a human life. And yet, when faced with the same choice in […]

5/28/2015 4 comments

Please someone kill me.

by Juanita 4/24/2015

written by Juanita

How tragic can be life
Thinking and talking about suicide
Just in the edge of our sad eyes
A tear is falling down, tired of the frustrated tries

And how broke can be our aim
Living depressed of saving fates
Just one cut can be enough
To end this hell and delete this chains.

But we’re not the falling angels
And we don’t need to go to heaven
As we collapse we can stand up
And keep fighting for the crashing of a few cups.

Wanting a rainbow without a storm
Wanting feel full without crying alone
You can’t say the true before to say […]

4/24/2015 1 comment

False Prayers

by Sammi6xoxo 4/17/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

I’m sending up a prayer
To the emptiness up stairs
I cry in desperation
And hope that someone hears
I’ve been taught so much
About clinging to my fears
And how a single touch
Can dry up every tear

Who is my saving grace
Does my hero have a name
Should I be looking to myself
To numb all of my pain
I’m tired of trying
Id rather hold your hand
I wouldn’t feel like dying
If someone tried to understand

4/17/2015 19 comments

No one will care…

by Ghost9er 1/15/2015

written by Ghost9er

My previous post was about my saving up but, due to recent events… I’m just going to do what I had in mind quite a few months ago… I am going to go out to the woods, take some pain killers, cut myself up(if that doesn’t work) I’m just going to climb up a tree and hang myself… No one will find my body, no one will care, no one will notice…
My life is just a nightmare that will never stop hurting me…
I have to end my pain… once and for all! :'(

1/15/2015 0 comment

The world- Good or Bad?

by HighlySensitive 1/8/2015

written by HighlySensitive

I think life is really beautiful, but I’m really depressed. There is so much crap going on in the world right now, and yet, there is an equal number of good things. Watching the news makes me think about why life is even important. But beautiful moments like a person saving another person by sacrificing his or her life, or a new wonderful scientific discovery, makes me think that maybe, humanity is not completely lost. Maybe there is hope.

1/8/2015 4 comments

Support when you’re suicidal

by Disenchanted7 12/31/2014

written by Disenchanted7

So I spent the first moments of the new year on the phone to Lifeline (a UK service) and the only thing they were interested in was persuading me there’s reason to live or having me committed.

But what if you’re past that point? What if you’re determined to die and just want to talk to someone impartially? I feel it’s disrespectful to completely ignore the suicidal persons issues or pretend they don’t exist just to be a hero(ine).

So I’m still here questioning my suicide method, to sit drunk at the edge of a tower block, take a cocktail of tablets, then inhale a huge amount […]

12/31/2014 3 comments

thanks

by tc13 12/6/2014

written by tc13

dear sp, i want to thank you, all of you, for saving my life. this episode has been a rough one, with closer calls than i care to think of. yea, life is still shit, and still not sure what all to do to fix it. however, i found a group of like minded people, with the same problems. how refreshing. all of your words touch the fabric of my being. i carry your pain and anguish as my own, as they are the same as mine. what amazing people i have found here. such talent. such wit.(kumbuyya moment folks, woo hoo) will we survive? […]

12/6/2014 3 comments

Throughout the sky

by RealTalk30 10/31/2014

written by RealTalk30

Spending all my time trying to find my feet and then I lost my legs. Look at me like where’s the happiness, but if only I can grow it like hair I’d be all in this. Don’t look at me like my woes reproduce like lice, standing over me like you’re Jesus Christ. Nail yourself to someone else who needs saving, or walk on water if you like, as long as you walk away.
Because I don’t need release from this..no need in letting go..the meaning in between the seams are splitting just to show you what I know. If I find it hard to sleep tonight, […]

10/31/2014 1 comment

I feel like I don’t deserve this life

by Ze3ny 10/26/2014

written by Ze3ny

Fuck. That practically sums up my past 7 years. I’m 16 years old and a junior in high school and I have given up. I’ve always wanted to go out, explore the world. But, there are certain things stopping me. I’m a pathological liar, and I have ruined every opportunity to make peace with my parents. I’m failing (all) my classes, I don’t have any type of extraordinary features, and I don’t believe I am worth saving. I have constantly wanted to commit suicide, but I never had the balls to do it. The couple times I did, I failed horribly. I don’t know if […]

10/26/2014 7 comments

gee i don’t know anymore

by notsurehey 9/8/2014

written by notsurehey

I can barely talk to you…
I can’t even say a word to you…
If I were to commit suicide.. you would be the main reason why I no longer want to be on this earth… open mother daughter relationship? Lol yeah totally.. we can’t even talk about the weather.. I hate u… your a *****.. thank you that I’m able to talk to u about being so depressed.. oh wait… I can’t.. because it’s “just a phase”.. a phase that’s been going on for a while.. thank you mom.. I love life so much.. I’m not sad.. I’m so hard working.. I’m gna be […]

9/8/2014 4 comments

Salvation

by theWhispersOfMySins 8/30/2014

written by theWhispersOfMySins

According to dictionary.com…

Salvation:
1.the act of saving or protecting from harm, risk, loss, destruction, etc.
2.the state of being saved or protected from harm, risk, etc
3.a source, cause, or means of being saved or protected from harm, risk, etc.

Why is always easier to be someone else’s salvation?

Why is it always easier (or is for me, how about you?) to be stronger for other people?

8/30/2014 8 comments

Waiting

by hooded_girl 8/27/2014

written by hooded_girl

I’m waiting for someone to save me, because I can’t save myself anymore. Superman? God? Man? Woman? Child? Someone…..? I need to start over or end it… I can’t live like this anymore. I am tired of wishing on stars and counting cars.

I am so tired of pretending everything is ok…. I know it isn’t, and I am done lying to myself. I am done trying to make myself look happy when I’m not. I can’t anymore. I’m broken… And I know there’s no fixing this time.

8/27/2014 1 comment