honestly, i feel so worthless- like no one even cares. i have people that say they care, but do they sincerely mean it? no. i know it’s a huge lie. if i no longer decided to live, i bet no one would care. no one would cry. why? because i’m worthless and ugly. don’t call me beautiful, because that’s something i’ll never be & i’ve lived with that fact. i feel like such a waste of space…why do i even eat? drink? sleep? i don’t deserve to do any of those….
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Fuck everyone. Just…. I won’t sleep tonight I can’t cut I am ready to hang everyone in my family and burn them. I give up I give up I give up. No one here gives a shit and I don’t fucking care about you either. And to Everlasting, I’m guessing you’re really gone. Thanks for leaving me. Thanks for that favor! I’m gonna pass it on and lead hurt people to trust me and then just fuck with thir hearts! I can say I learned from the best-so many ppl who taught me that. See how many already suicidal hearts I can crush. Seems ppl […]
I don’t particularly like this. Idk. It’s a little weird for me. It’s meant to be more of a story then a poem. I think it’s a bit shallow and self-involved. Tell me what you think.
Once upon a time there was a girl
There were many girls, but this girl had a head full of words
There were many words, but these words were full of her sadness
This girl was full of sad stories made of sad words
Once upon a time she was strong
She was full of strength, because she was strong to fight the pain
She was full of pain, a pain […]
So, I get annoyed when people complain about how much their life sucks, but hey this what this website is for right?
Okay so i’ve been struggling with depression for a long time , around 5 years or so. I’m 19 now but even when I was 13 and 15 i would get in these slumps, especially when I was 15 since my entire school hated me and I just kept fucking up with my family and things.
I always felt like i was missing something.. Me and my family didn’t always get along but we do now. No one I know has ever known […]
A darkness has fell upon me,
One that has an insatiable hunger for my soul,
It’s been feeding on what happiness i have,
Draining the hope i have for it to stop,
Guiding me to unknown places,
With temptations of opportunities to feel better,
Food has lost it’s taste,
I have no appetite,
Sleep kills the high,
I had worked all day to reach,
(I feel sick…)
This darkness is consuming me,
Taking a firm grasp on my mind,
Making me more vulnerable,
The darkness,
it knaws at your thoughts,
injects you with it’s drug,
tears the flesh right from your bones,
After it has had it’s fun,
When […]
This is such a weird, yet brilliant website. A place to explore each others internal thoughts, without having to know each other’s name. Reading each post here, I know more about some of these normally unheard people than the people who spend every day with them. Maybe some of the users of this website get annoyed by the use of this website by teenagers, sadly like myself. Anyone who has been through teenage years will blame it on hormones. “Everyone feels the same at your age” “This is normal” “Everyone goes through hard times in their teens” and I’m left feeling no better than I […]
Hello, I’m new to the site.
My name is Jaspar and I think I’m going to die…
What to say? I came to this site out of desperation…I’ve tried everything, therapy, meds which just leave me feeling sick. nothing is working. I’m just so fucking tired. I’m scared, so very scared of dieing…but the pain of life is too great and Depression got the best of me. I’m actually almost…excited? that I may end my suffering and go into an eternal sleep. I just have to find the right method of suicide now. I can’t stop thinking about it. It’s like death is fucking calling me. My […]
I thought I was better. Until this last month. Everything always crushes you with every pound it has. Everyones fake faces and voices and fake friendships even fake family. I recently started cutting and taking sleeping pills again. Sleep is so much more comforting. Even a nightmare is more peaceful than having to talk to and look anyone in their plastic eyes. I’m back to sleeping 16 hour days and cutting in the shower.
Please listen to my music
Soundcloud.com/virtue_official
Because I feel like I’m okay for only a day at a time.
Because I can’t be happy without feeling guilty.
Because even when I’m seeking help, I don’t feel helped.
Because being in therapy makes me feel like I’m crazy.
Because being told everything is okay, only feels condescending.
Because today I carved the word horrible into my own thigh, and forgot one of the ‘r’s.
Because when I’m told ‘I love you’ I don’t feel it.
Because I stay in a relationship when all I feel is used.
Because what is important to me is not important to anyone else.
Because the simple things are the hardest.
Because I can’t sleep without crying.
Because I […]
Lifes ok. I got a job, I can drive, ive got family(somewhat) but yet at the end of the day I feel like a bag of SHIT! Every night O try to fight the urge to cut. Or burn or bruise or anything. But sometimes I slip. I dont want to live. I wish I could go back in time, and tell my mom not to fuck my dad, so I could have never been born. I wish there was an easy way out but honestly I don’t have the courage to kill myself. I want a painless way.. Then again life is painful, so […]
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I’m tired and I
I want to go to bed
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don’t try to wake me in the morning
‘Cause I will be gone
Don’t feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don’t want to wake up
On my own anymore
Sing to me
Sing to me
I don’t want to wake up
On my own anymore
Don’t feel bad […]
Emptiness,
I welcome you home with open arms and back into the ravines of my heart.
The one composed from archives of incisions and hallucinated lullabies
I am left dreaming of infinite sleep, humming softly words from a dead mockingbird.
I Hate Being Around People. All I Ever Whant To Do Is Be By Myself Because It Seems Easyer That Wayy,I Have THE BIGGEST Insecurity Issue. I Cant Sleep At Night And when I Do I Feel Like I Didnt Even Sleep,I Am So Confused. I Always Feel Sad, I Get Irritated Really Really Quick Sometimes With Out Reason,I Feel Extremly Fat, I Dont Understand Myself,I Get No Point To Anything, And I Dont Know How To Find Myself Because I Dont Even Kno Who I am..
So lonely but apparently having emotions is wrong is since I am a guy. It’s really just depressing how the world looks at my situation. Basically I’m a wuss for crying even though I have perfectly good reason to. Â Wanting to hug and kiss someone makes me needy although isn’t that one of the key thing man walks the Earth? To find love and acceptance? I was put in a crisis center aka mental hospital for people my age and you would think I would hate being there. If I can tell you this I love being in there. Sure the beds are hard to […]
I hate the fact that I have things that hold me back from committing suicide. It’s just like the guilt and the people I meet and know and the future I might have that holds me back from doing it. I hate how I have these good times where everything goes smoothly and it seems like it’s going to be okay and then it turns to shit. I just hate it. I hate how one bad thing affects my whole day. How one person can call me an asshole and not to have an attitude when I react to somebody snapping at me and then […]
Every time i’m about to fall asleep, i would wish that i would never wake again
This is about me 3 years ago and how I survived looking into the horror that I have created. I was a lonely person my whole life and I been reading all the time. What else does a boy with no friends have to do. Anyway at age of 17 I spent months in my room reading. I had hundreds of books there. And one book which I ran across had affected me in a very bad way. I got interested in it and I read it over and over and somehow suddenly it affected me. I began to have paranoid thoughts and become scared […]
ME.
underneath im: stupid, a loser, a loner, a cutter, unusual, different, shunned, hated, betrayed, embarrased, failure, sad, unloved, defeated, lonely, DEPRESSED. so strange i can make this seem untrue. i fake my way through life- “fake it til u make it” would that make me a liar? an attention seeker? i dont think so but i dont care what i think.. ha i dont even know who i am cuz i care what u think, i change all the time. just to make you happy. but that will neva happen cuz u will never be ok with me. dont feel bad its not just […]
I’m sixteen and i’m an alcoholic already at my age. My town isn’t exactly big on morals so getting a hold of it isn’t a problem
But… I think alcohol saved my life.
If i wasn’t drunk every evening, I believe I would not be here today. I firmly believe I would have killed myself long ago.
I am so disillusioned with the world and the only time I don’t care about who or what i hate and why or how much I hate it is when i feel so inebriated.
I guess i’m just wondering how healthy this is mentally? It’s obvious it isn’t good for my […]
why? i just want to give up. be dead. im sick of pain i have felt it enough. im miserable, i cant sleep, im too stressed to do anything. i wanna end this forever take me on a free vacation to peace. i am on my last nerve to just do it tonight get rid of the pain and set me free. yeah i should do it tonight i stalled last night and ended up being miserable til 3am i dont want to do that again:/ i wanna do it NOW.