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Such a fucking fucked day… And it has just begun!!!

by Ylem 1/7/2016

written by Ylem

This has got to be the shittiest day of my life. I’m at that point. That point. The point that scares the shit out of me and yet excites me at the fucking time. The point where I could just die right now and I wouldn’t give a fucking shit.

Please, someone just kill me now. I can’t stand this shit anymore.

I’m sitting on my bedroom floor. I’m bleeding out. I can hear people talking in the living room. I’m not calling out for help. I’ll just listening to music and drift off.

I hate my head. It keeps torturing me. Why do I have to go […]

1/7/2016 2 comments

Emotionally and physically exhausted

by nicole123 1/4/2016

written by nicole123

Class started again today . We went in the clinic to learn X-rays . I literally cannot stand the people there .I usually just work alone . I work best that way anyways.

It’s so hard to think in class when I can only think about how tired I am . I can barley keep my eyes open. I sleep so much so I dont understand why I can’t be awake . This has such an impact on me . I feel like I have the capability to do nothing .

I like to sleep . I imagine that’s what death is like . Black . And […]

1/4/2016 8 comments

High art

by cathy arsis 1/3/2016

written by cathy arsis

Albert camus is my hero…..I’m reading his book ‘The Fall’ it’s fucking gorgeous. English lit students-and i know ur fucking here-it’s aphorism at its best. Also, stand up comedy is arguably the highest form of art. I think this is a conversation i would like to have

1/3/2016 2 comments

Suicide thoughts

by luka 12/31/2015

written by luka

I went thro a lot of stuff the last couple years. I lost all my friends, i live alone, and practically have no family. I cant talk about my problems to anyone except to myself. i think about killing myself about 50% of the day, and all through the night. I wend to the doctor and psychotherapy. It didnt work out for me. I tried antidepressants but it makes me feel even less alive, and id rather be sad then just could. Feeling something is better than nothing for me. So basicly all i managed to do the last 3 years is loose […]

12/31/2015 4 comments

I am so incredibly bored

by nicole123 12/30/2015

written by nicole123

I am so bored …

I can’t stand it .

My friend invited me to come to a gay bar with him tonight with some other people for his birthday but I don’t know if I’m feelin it . I wish I had the excitement to go out.

And I am even more bored because we are in winter break at my school. There’s literally nothing to do . I watched all the lost seasons and now I’m sad and pissed that it’s over.

God dammit .

Plus being this bored makes me feel so shitty about my self .

Ugh

12/30/2015 17 comments

Couple pills and no one to stop me

by red_river 12/27/2015

written by red_river

I’ve been feeling like shit lately, turns out holidays and depression isn’t a good combination.Today was shittier than most, just one of those days you know? My parents know about my depression so they got me antidepressant and a roster of other goodies to turn those frowns around. Did you know if you take a lot all at once you feel shittier because they aren’t working and they just sort of numb you but it’s more depressing because you have to realize the only way to handle pain is popping useless pills. So then you grab a razor or a gun and you hold it […]

12/27/2015 2 comments

The middle of the night tears me apart

by brokenandbent30 12/25/2015

written by brokenandbent30

I just don’t think I can keep this up. This emptiness inside every night. I even had a great text conversation with a guy who seems cool from a dating site. I still long to die. Or just not exist.

I also realize I’m love with a celebrity. I’ve followed him on Twitter for years and actually met him at his show and took a picture with him. He recognized me. I didn’t expect to fall in love with his personality. This probably sounds insane, but it hurts SO BAD!! To want someone you can never ever have. It’s just torture and he has a girlfriend […]

12/25/2015 6 comments

Nervous

by Harlot.Rebel 12/23/2015

written by Harlot.Rebel

Today im telling my sister that i need help. Im 22 all my life i thought shit would be okay but its not. Mu battle with depression has caused lots of cuts covering my arms and legs and 3 suicide attempts. Im losing. Medicine just didnt cut it. Life always seem to fuck me over in new ways. Nothingd never okay. So this is my last stand. Hopefully i can get the help i need. Wish me luck.

12/23/2015 5 comments

Protected: I cannot stand on that fact that you are not mine.

by daitya1989 12/15/2015

written by daitya1989

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

12/15/2015 1 comment

I’m so sad right now

by Ylem 12/10/2015

written by Ylem

I just need to vent.

All of a sudden, I feel this overwhelming sadness. I don’t even know why I feel this way. So, I thought I should try and look back at things I love doing. Trying to be positive. I find that I don’t really have something that I love doing. Except writing, maybe. Not even that is making things easier right now.

I started looking back into my life, trying to find something that gave me some peace. And where do my thoughts take me?

The Dissecting Hall.

This will make me sound so fucking weird. I loved that place. I respected those bodies. They gave […]

12/10/2015 6 comments

.awkward

by hydrastrikes 12/10/2015

written by hydrastrikes

I have a huge crush on one guy from school for, like, forever now.. New country and new school was a rough start for me, but when I saw him for the first time, everything slowed down, my heart stopped and my brain freeze. His eyes are pale gray and when he looks at me I feel as if he is burning through my soul right out. It hurts my bones to see him, for a moment each time I see him I get a strange stabbing sensation all over my body. I am a pain addict in general, I don’t like self harm, but […]

12/10/2015 0 comment

My story, my death

by Princeisdead 11/26/2015

written by Princeisdead

I was born august 17 1997. Im 18 now and i have been brutuly depressed since i was 9. I was in the group home since i was 9 and got out 4 years ago cuz i couldnt stand being so depressed. I was left alone and have been alone for a very long time. My family has abandoned me and i cant stand this feeling of beeing lonely. I have hallusonations and visions and sleep paralysis. I have been homeless for 3 years. Im dead broke and i only smoke weed and drink not often. Im so stuck. I want to die but i […]

11/26/2015 11 comments

by faildsuicide 11/19/2015

written by faildsuicide

When it seams things may go at last better somth goes wrong.I am tired of this..And can’t stand this yealing.Mum just yeals. Why I have this stuped mind?

11/19/2015 0 comment

Darkness

by Alfred1688 11/15/2015

written by Alfred1688

Darkness I ask you to set me free

Free me from this place where I don’t want to be

I can’t stand this suffering anymore

Give me the peace that I yearn for

Days, months and years I fought

Yet I still can’t ease my distraught

After each demon I slay

A new one arises the next day

My armor is weakening and starting to decay

Yet I pick my sword and head into the fray

I have become lost and weary of this fight

For the victory I seek is nowhere in […]

11/15/2015 1 comment

help please

by jano.11 10/28/2015

written by jano.11

can love turns to hate at some point .!
I want to talk clearly about my boyfriend ..
I believe that he really loved me from the depth of his heart
I will not lie to you .. I did so wrong things to him ,, I cheated on him so many times , and I used him as my slave for a whole three years .. all this time he was okay and never said a word
but once we had a sex on skype
and he got a pic of that thing and he started threaten me with it … when I told […]

10/28/2015 2 comments

Stressed

by PandaMonkey0207 10/21/2015

written by PandaMonkey0207

When my family tells me to stand up for myself and when I do they tell me that I’m not choosing the right path. I swear these people can’t make up their mind. It’s my life and my choices. I am the one who has to live with them. I’m 18 years old and in college for heaven sakes -_- . I can make my own choices and do what the hell I feel like. Jesus. I’m so ready to get out of this fucking house. They think I won’t leave. Smh. The stress I’m in I’ll pack my shit and leave tonight..
I don’t […]

10/21/2015 1 comment

sad truths.

by L0STgirl 10/21/2015

written by L0STgirl

the saddest part: you don’t understand and I would never want you to be able to, because this, this type of sadness is like drowning beneath the waves in water that is two feet deep and all you have to do is stand up to save yourself, but you just can’t.

10/21/2015 5 comments

If you love me you’ll kill me

by MissDysphoria 10/15/2015

written by MissDysphoria

I find myself waiting for the crosswalk light to turn to go, watching all the speeding cars fly by. I like to stand as close to the edge as I can and just imagine the feeling of stepping out into traffic, and the feeling of the impact of the first car to hit me. the only thing holding me back is the possibility of some how surviving that…and all those people watching…me. I was told it only gets harder from here. Right now is harder than I can stand, just kill me now, I hate life.

10/15/2015 1 comment

You’re a good person. I want to communicate with you.

by freedomseeker 10/12/2015

written by freedomseeker

I feel awkard, because I’m drunk. I can’t cope with the love I feel for you. I just can’t. BEcause you’re a good person. The kind of person I’d like to meet. The kind of person I’d like to know. But the kind of person I won’t know. The kind of person I can’t know. And I’m just feeling… I can’t stand it anymore. Loving people that can’t and won’t love me back. Loving people I see so much beautiful things, but who won’t see it too. I just can’t. I know my grammar’s not perfect, sorry dudes, I’m drunk. Tomorrow, I’ll see you and […]

10/12/2015 13 comments

Destruction

by Diablo 10/6/2015

written by Diablo

Okay so here’s the thing, those of you who have read my posts before know that I’m against what mankind is making out of our earth and all the new machinery/technology that is being created. I’m a tree huggin-ground loving hippie, if you will. But, the more I’m in the city the more my hatred grows. The more I wish for some miracle to happen where it breaks down and destroys every bridge, building, house, tower anything. I don’t even want to walk outside my door anymore. Fuck I miss the country so bad you have no idea. (Random thing kinda) As I was laying […]

10/6/2015 4 comments

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