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Bring Me

by Mundane 6/22/2015

written by Mundane

Bring me a poison;
I would like to swallow
The choked feeling
In my throat

Bring me a noose;
I am tired of standing up
It will help to keep me upright
Even when I finally stop fighting

Bring me a blade;
I want to bleed out
All the pain and suffering
That resided in my being

Bring me sleeping pills;
To grant my greatest wish,
My greatest desire
To never wake up to another day

Bring me a gun;
Easy and swift,
I will put it against my head
May it blast my painful memories away

Bring me a disease;
May it slowly kill me.
Slowly, like walking in […]

6/22/2015 2 comments

Why do people say that? Time heals all wounds… classic quote that means shit. Dad, you died 2 years ago, and today is ‘your’ day .. I can’t celebrate it anymore, and I miss you so much. But 2 years.. no relief. That knife that twists in my stomach when I think about how much I wish we could trade places – it still hurts with the same intensity as the day you passed. I can’t stop hurting inside, I can’t stop wishing it was me instead of you – I don’t understand WHY God took you .. you are a thousand times more important, […]

6/21/2015 2 comments

Is this the beginning of the end?

by bayareaguy 6/21/2015

written by bayareaguy

Starting in January, I began experiencing what I call “sinking spells.” What happens is I suddenly loose all energy, like a tire going flat or a balloon suddenly deflating. I have to lay down and sometimes sleep for a couple of hours. I’ve checked my blood pressure when these attacks occur and it’s a bit low. When I awaken, it’s good. My cardiologist has suggested having a defibrillator implanted in case my heart suddenly stops. That’s just NOT gonna happen.

Yesterday evening, around 11pm, it happened again. I wasn’t sleepy when this happened…..insomnia…..well I quickly passed out in bed (not the same thing as drifting off […]

6/21/2015 3 comments

It’s been a long time

by snader 6/17/2015

written by snader

Hi (again),
This is my first post since the one I made somewhere in Octobre 2014, where i said i’d probably kill myself on Sunday. My brothers suicide, loneliness, school, stress and general depression were wrecking me.
Needless to say, i didn’t succeed. Alot has happened since then. Ah, where do i even start?
Okay so things were shit then (still are now so that’s stayed the same) and i felt very very very suicidal. My self harming had gotten pretty bad and i was making solid plans of killing myself.
I never mentioned this, but somewhere around a year ago i developped an eating […]

6/17/2015 2 comments

I am bold and strong because..

by RealTalk30 6/16/2015

written by RealTalk30

…that’s what my sister would have wanted.
If she was alive today.. she’d be the strongest and smartest in my family. She is truly the missing link in our world, and what it’s become.
There for i remain strong.
Nothing will stop me from being happy and at peace with this life.
I do this for you, Angel. I know mom still misses you very much.
I know you are watching over me..over all of us.

And I will never give up

6/16/2015 3 comments

I Hate Myself

by Petrifiedb45 6/16/2015

written by Petrifiedb45

Hi, I’m new to this…..and I’m crying right now. I started getting depressed in the 9th grade and that was when my doctor prescribed me anti-depressants. And that was when I wanted to die so I took 5 of those pills but nothing happened. Through time I got better and better until a couple of months ago I started having suicide thoughts and actually cut myself. I’m a religious person and so after that I prayed and promised I would never try it again. I told my mom I was having suicide thoughts and she comforted me and told me it was okay […]

6/16/2015 1 comment

by totallyagree 6/14/2015

written by totallyagree

Even though I have to tools and I practice, I still feel this way. When will it stop?

6/14/2015 2 comments

Confusion

by KH 6/8/2015

written by KH

Hello,

So today was a pretty bad day for me. I got sent home from school because I couldn’t stop crying. Well, I told them the reason was because of a bad headache, but in reality I just couldn’t find the strength to get through the day. The thought of walking around and talking to people who I know don’t like me, the thought of simply being somewhere I don’t belong scared me. So I cried. I continued to do so until I got home where I finally slept. But my dreams were simply filled with horrific scenarios which I dare not repeat for thought of […]

6/8/2015 6 comments

Just one more day

by Thalen 6/8/2015

written by Thalen

Right now I’m lying here in bed, like every weekend, overthinking, like trapped inside my own mind. I wonder what may be wrong, I can’t find any answer. Since I was a little child, I knew there was something different in me, too shy, too nervous, too sensitive, too depressed.

I grew in a humble home, my parents never went to a school, dad was an alcoholic and agressive person, often came drunk and angry at the nights. Sober or drunk, whatever, he always seemed disappointed about me, and that was confusing to me, because I always did my best in everything. Mom was a victim […]

6/8/2015 3 comments

Vampires are chasing me.

by sickfromthemelt 6/7/2015

written by sickfromthemelt

You cannot reason with some people, some people will not stop, they cannot stop, until they kill your soul, whether they kill you in the process is more of a happy accident than an unfortunate consequence.

I have a soul, I had a heart, I don’t have much else.

No matter how hard you try, you can’t placate them, because they do not know that love and acceptance are very different things, hell, some don’t even know how to love to begin with.

I’ve met them all, and I was dumb enough to put my trust in them, those that will never understand me and, as such, want […]

6/7/2015 4 comments

Hate

by akirameru 6/7/2015

written by akirameru

For the past 7 years I’ve made decisions that only bring me problems. Every time it seems I overcome something, I’ll make a shitty decision that’ll drag me for yet another ride through unpleasant times. I can’t keep up with responsibilities and I’ve slowly but surely tried to get rid of them. One of the few things I was proud of in myself, the value I put in giving my word, is completely gone, as I keep telling people I’ll do something only to give up on it for what seems to be no reason at all. I was supposed to finish college this semester […]

6/7/2015 0 comment

fuck this hurts

by thelost 6/7/2015

written by thelost

I cared about her so much and she threw it away. It was my fault but goddammit that doesn’t make it hurt less. I’m such an ass. I made her do things she didn’t want to and I ruined it. I… I’m a selfish prick… I’m going to cry and wish I could die tonight, but I won’t. I’m better than that. But this won’t stop hurting. not for a long time. This burns. Hollywood Undead. Black Dahlia. Most of it applies, but not all. Fuck. I care so much about her. I just want to make her happy. I thought I’d be okay being […]

6/7/2015 2 comments

Stop being so sarcastic

by disappearingme97 6/5/2015

written by disappearingme97

Maybe I’m just too sensitive. I don’t want to be a part of them anymore. Is it my fault or is it yours. Stop being so sarcastic.

Stop. It makes me hate myself. It makes me hate everyone. But what do I know about hate.

I just know that I slowly don’t like going out with people. Don’t like people anymore. Don’t wanna hangout with people. Don’t wanna be social with people. Cause everything I’m doing has a sarcastic rebuttal. Oh well.

Swallow it. And pride down. Who cares about me anyways. Stop being so whiny.

The world is an ugly place. Ugly ugly place. Oh well.

6/5/2015 1 comment

Whatever.

by AKidWithAName 6/5/2015

written by AKidWithAName

Well, I don’t know what I am doing here. I have officially ruined everyone I am close to’s life. I had a best friend, the only one I’ve ever had, and I ruined it by being an ass. No surprise here. My family is so awesome, and I keep messing it up for them. I can’t stop, either. I don’t know what I’m doing most of the time, and I’ve basically lost all control of myself. I ruined my life a long time ago, but I deserved that. I don’t know how to stop. How does […]

6/5/2015 1 comment

Failed! Afuckinggain!

by No12run2 6/5/2015

written by No12run2

What the hell is wrong with me, I can’t even get death right. I’m so fucked right now, I’m still alone and fucking hungry! How and when does it stop?! I don’t know if I’m just too nice or stupid. On top of it all, I’ll be homeless in a few days, I don’t have a place for my dog to go, and I just got robbed by a guy asking for a quarter!!!! A fucking quarter!!! I only had 3 dollars!!!! I want to die because my lonliness is heavy on my heart and my head now. What is there to do now?!! I […]

6/5/2015 0 comment

triggered by a book

by passionfruit3 6/3/2015

written by passionfruit3

Ive just read this book im not even finished but in the book boy sets himself on fire as a suicide attempt.and for some reason i cant stop thinking about burning a huge portion of my arm on the kitchen stove at the highest temperature. The good news is its got my mind off killing myself im worried about catching my building on fire in the process. Im worried i may not be able to stop myself. I worry about doing damage i cant repair.i told my friend though i don’t mind if i lose the arm.it’s ugly and maybe itll mean ill never be […]

6/3/2015 2 comments

The love of my life

by Regreen 5/30/2015

written by Regreen

The love of my life wasn’t a romantic one. We shared an intimacy that – were I a writer – would be immortalized in literature. It’s akin to David and Jonathan – an epic friendship. It was one of laughter, humility, gentleness, and kindness. When he hugged me I knew he never wanted to let go, he always wanted me to be a part of his life. We could say anything to each other, knowing our friendship was strong enough to be shaken and still survive. We shared star gazing, hikes, dancing, road trips, cigarettes, moving houses, hospital visits, and train rides. We shared tears, […]

5/30/2015 5 comments

Quiet thoughts.

by that1kid 5/25/2015

written by that1kid

Everyday seems to blur by in a nonsensical motion that keeps me forever sick and tired. With each passing, I come to the realization that this life isn’t good enough. Living is just not good enough. It’s been that way for years now.
I can’t grasp as to why no one around me feels this way.
I see all these drunken smiles float by, while I still let myself believe my feet are firmly on the ground. I know they’re not. I feel myself falling more and more. I think of killing myself everyday now. My razor is always close by. I just want to […]

5/25/2015 1 comment

I don’t want tomorrow to come

by MySelfIsAfterMe 5/24/2015

written by MySelfIsAfterMe

I don’t want to live another day like this. And after that there will be another one, and so on. I can’t stand it.

I constantly think about overdose, but apparently is nearly impossible.

Why doesn’t my heart just stop.

5/24/2015 5 comments

The pain that keeps on aching… When will it stop :'(

by BadYear 5/21/2015

written by BadYear

I just can’t stop this feeling of terror inside of me… I can’t stop crying… The pain won’t stop… I will never had the life I dreamed of, I’ve fallen too far… Now I can’t get out of this spiral down…

I tried to kill myself so many times but it doesn’t work with overdoses… The maximum I got was a coma once… I can’t seem to cut myself… Just cut for pain relief… It hurts all the time now…

The sad thing is no one can help me, not even me, it’s just a slow and painful death… But I never get to die… […]

5/21/2015 19 comments

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