I have made the BIGGEST MISTAKE IN MY LIFE!! I NOW JUST WANT TO DIE BECAUSE I KNOW THAT HE WILL WANT ME TO AS WELL!!… I KNOW HE FUCKING HATES ME AND WHAT IV’E DONEWILL MAKE HIM WANT ME DEAD… I DONT KNOW WHAT THE HELL WEHNT THOUGH MY MIND…. IT’S TO DO WITH THE DARK LORD…. THE BOY I CAUSED SO MUCH DRAMA FOR, TWO YEARS!! AND I THOUGHT I WOULD BE ABLE TO COPE BUT NO, I’VE MADE IT A HUNDRED AND TEN FUCKING PERCENT WORSE!!! I NEED TO DIE, I CANT FACE HIM, HE HATES ME AND ALL HIS FRIENDS WILL […]
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I’ve been really depressed lately, I want to die, I just dont know how to do it, My sisters hate me, they’re always yelling at me, my moms mad at me because I wont tell her what I feel, my girlfriend doesnt know how to help me, sometimes she makes me feel worst:c I have no friends, everyone hates me, I dont know what to do anymore:c I used to have a lot of friends, my girlfriend says that I dont have friends because I make a bad face to everybody but Its backwards, people just look at me and they fucking go away and […]
“I have been getting treatment and have been really positive about it”
“You’re demonstrating black and white thinking and seeing this as all good.”
“Treatment is hard and sometimes it makes me emotionally tired and depressed”
“No one said it was going to be easy. You’re seeing things in black and white and this as all bad.”
“Granted, receiving treatment has done things that made me feel hurt, it does good things.”
“Now you’re splitting, there is something wrong with you.”
“I feel like you have put me in a catch-22.”
“You just want me to tell you what you want to hear.”
“I think […]
Soon, I will have to make a difficult decision. I’m not sure exactly when, but there is already this particular feeling- almost like an adrenaline reaction- slowly pushing my blood towards the surface of my skin, silently speeding my heart rate up, gradually shutting down my ability to feel anything but so fucking tense.
Someone is abusing me, quite badly and I have only recently come to the sense that I might perhaps matter in this world and that I don’t deserve mean hands touching me all the time. I want to speak of the injustices done to me, I want to be humble enough […]
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i don’t know  if anyone is going to read this but I’m 14 and I feel pretty alone, my best friend and only friend went to another school and I talk to her every so often, but I just feel so alone and I have no friends.
The worst feeling in the world to me is feeling alone and depressed. As soon as lunch start at school everyday, I immediately go outside to the soccer field and play soccer and listen to music, by myself, all alone. every step I took with the soccer ball and the wind rushing through my body, was the best thing […]
all I want is for someone to ask me if I’m OK and know that I’m lying when I say that I’m fine
written by ifsomeonecared...
Life has been pretty hard lately. I’ve been really sad quite often  for pretty much no reason and I never want to get out of bed, like ever. I try doing homework and then I decide to just sit there staring or surf the web or go back to sleep. It scares me, I don’t want to feel this way. I wish I could talk to someone about the way I feel but I don’t feel like there’s anyone I can trust.
It’s worse when I’m tired, I just sit there and hardly talk at all and feel terrible and all I want is for someone […]
Im so pissed today.I had a great morning went out for my birthday with my therapist even though they gave me a gift card to buy clothes knowing if they gave me it for anything else i wouldve bought pills and probably taken them.What people dont get is im already going to do that and i can find my own way to get what i need cause im resourceful.But it gets worse
I go on a site to get free stuff and give away stuff and they took the item i was giving away down.Even though people were giving away the same item.Anyway not […]
Yesterday I got into a very suicidal mood which is totally isn’t me, or so I thought. I laid in bed all day and would have rather been dead than have done anything else. I’ve been depressed for the past few months after my mom cheated on my dad and they’re now going through a nasty divorce. I don’t talk to my mom anymore even though we still live in the same house. I feel really alone and like no one understands. I’m 14, I have a whole life ahead of me and I already want to die? It just doesn’t seem right. I want […]
That’s the question that makes me sick.
When I hear that question i want to kill whoever asked.
I don’t know how to make it any more obvious.
Do I need to put highlighter on my cuts?
Do I need to wear a sign that says “Suicidal”?
Or should i just make an announcement to everyone?
Because no matter how many times they ask,
The answer doesn’t change.
It was a no yesterday, and it’s a no today.
And guess what, tomorrow it will still be a no.
So quit reminding me that my life is shit.
If you have to ask someone if they are alright,
The answer is no.
…..
Now do me a favor please?
Ask me if […]
I have always been a fun happy productive person, but this is so bad I want to die
by Karma44
written by Karma44
I had to start over after the recession. I moved to a new city and started a new life. Put the past behind me. Created a new me. Found the job of my dreams! Everything was going better than I ever expected.
Then it all came crashing down. I became best of friends with a coworker who had recently moved there too. We grew closer and closer. Her supervisor got jealous and scared her and turned her against me. They teamed up and got me fired. I never did anything wrong. I am a […]
The recession destroyed life as I new it. Having been laid off 3 times in 2 years, I left my home and started over in a new town. The first 10 months were a struggle to survive, and then it finally paid off. I landed my dream job. Still alone in this new place 800 miles from friends and family, I made the mistake of befriending a female co-worker. She approached me a couple of weeks after we both started working at the same company. She had moved to the same town with a boyfriend of 7 years and they had broken up. She was […]
Everyday I just get more and more depressed. I feel like I don’t have anything happening in my life. All I do is go to school all day, come home and sleep, and then spend about 3 hours on homework. It feels like every time I wake up, it’s just ‘another day’ y’know? I feel like my life has become stagnant, it’s not going anywhere. I have a few friends at school, but I don’t feel like I really fit in anywhere, and I just miss my best friend who is now doing home school, and I know I shouldn’t even be complaining because I […]
I think I need to be heard. I’m not looking for any help or something like that; I just need that people shut up and let me talk.
Well, all this start with me when I was a child. My grandfather is a pedophile and he raped my cousin when she was eight. When I knew about it I start thinking about all the time I spend with that man when I was an innocent and weak girl. By the way, I knew about that because my cousin told me, no one else in my family was enough decent for telling me about it. In my family what […]
I am emotionally numb. I recognize that my emotions are there deep beneath but I do not connect with them. Almost as if they are not real. As if I’m possibly inventing them, in an attempt to pacify a need in me to be normal and socially accepted. I don’t know if I’m depressed. I don’t know if what I feel is anxiety. I can’t speak in public and don’t leave my house much because I don’t want to socialize due to my negative self-image and inability to really empathize with others adequately. But is that considered anxiety? I don’t know. Sometimes […]
Hi everyone basically I am suicidal suprise suprise, this time I don’t want to come back, I deactivated my facebook because individuals were egging me on to kill myself….urgh, I am currently stressed out about TAFE, my family situation everything basically and I have been on 9 different drugs, anti depressants you name it, I hate my life and I am suicidal I want to die.
Okay, well this is my story..
I’m quite young and I’m broken. I’m depressed and suicidal, clearly.. and i selfharm. I put on the fakest smile every single day. I’m miserable, I just want to be dead, to be free, to be happy. I have tried to take my own life many times, I don’t really have a massive story. But my depression has taken over me, my self eestem is horrible, I can’t leave the house without crying, I’m horribly fat and aswell so ugly. I hate leaving the house because I usually don’t have the nicest clothes because i’m not rich, my family struggles […]
Is what I tell my mom. ‘no, it’s okay, I’m just tired’ for my dad. ‘Could you leave, please? I’m thinking’ is snapped at my little sister. And then I’m alone.
School’s out. I’m a kid. I should be ecstatic, right? But I’m not. Lately, I’ve just been feeling so alone, so hopeless. I have small projects I’ve been working in in my spare time, but I’m starting to think ‘why bother, this is stupid’ and abandon them. Occasionally I’ll get my hopes up for something, but somehow when it comes I always seem to screw it up. Then it’s over, and I’m back in […]
I lack the ability to be persistent,so it’s the end of the line.
by jackraiden
written by jackraiden
Up till now, i have always tried to change my life.
I have tried to be consistent, in everything but failed..in everything.
Everything i try from losing weight to even brushing my teeth ends up not being done, and im sick of it, im sick of it all, life is a god damn chore that i don’t want to join, its sucks,i have no one else that understands me, no one, all i have are idiots around me, my family and friends will never understand me and how painful it is thinking this way, getting up to wash your face feels like climbing a mountain.
I will never […]
My name is Scott Teller, I am far from a professional, I don’t even know what I’m doing really. However, I am genuinely offering my time to talk to you, or just listen to anything that is on your mind. If you would like to talk to me personally instead of on this forum my email is iwilltalk2you@gmail.com. I hope to hear from you soon.
I live in a world where i am always unhappy. my grades are slipping and my parents yell all the time now or ignore me. My brother is their favorite they would give him the world if they could. But to them im just that other kid who was raised by baby sitters until the age of 10. I get bullied at school. I try to hide my depresion so i fit in. Iguess i’m pretty good at hiding it too. For a while nobody knew the dark cloud that surrounded my mind. i first thought about suicide when i was about 8 years old. […]