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It’s so simple.

by babypanda 12/9/2015

written by babypanda

So simple. SO FUCKING SIMPLE.

all it takes is one misstep

or maybe a slight jerk of my hand on the steering wheel

perhaps a quick lead foot

could I slip into neutral and into the lake?

It’s just all so simple. Right there in front of me, a token accidental death with sinister roots. And yet I sit here, with my car turned off, writing this instead, talking myself off the ledge once more.

I’m so passively suicidal sometimes it scares me. I don’t want to die, but I also really, really want to. Oh well.

12/9/2015 8 comments

My Story

by veryeasygoing 12/3/2015

written by veryeasygoing

Hi there person reading this my name is Barry :D. I hope you would read my story and how I’m at the point of just..being done. *Excuse my horrid grammar/spelling*

It all started when I started to live with my Mom. l had a step-dad, but I never really got to meet my real dad since he died in a car accident. It was around the age of 7 I think I moved with my Mom since I used to live with my grandma.

During elementary school people would judge me because of the way I walked. They used to say I always stuck out my chest […]

12/3/2015 9 comments

I need your advice

by Blackdog 11/30/2015

written by Blackdog

How do you tell your friends you are suicidal? And more important, should I tell them?
I don’t like to talk and I have difficulty to explain myself. Therefore I was thinking of send them a video about depression. But the video doesn’t talk about suicidal thoughts so I don’t know how to introduce the subject. Any advice?

11/30/2015 10 comments

Sunday Blues

by nextime1988 11/29/2015

written by nextime1988

Usualy people dread mondays, something i’ve always found dificult to grasp as my least favourite day of the week has always been Sunday, specially since my depression and suicidal thoughts began, specially now during the winter. when the cold and cloudy days take their toll.

And here i am again in the living room thinking about killing myself, and as opposed to perhaps all of you wishing for Monday to kick in.

11/29/2015 6 comments

Selfish Suicide?!

by Hance_Soelow 11/28/2015

written by Hance_Soelow

I hate it when people generalize suicidal patients and suicide victims as selfish. I hear my friends, family, and doctor say this about suicidal people all the time. Its even prevalent online. They always say that we are only thinking of ourselves, not those who love us. For me, those who want to keep us alive and call us selfish are in fact the very people that are selfish. They’re the ones who want us to live, to be with them, despite the sufferings and emotional torture we endure. They can’t grasp the possibility of us ending our lives by our own hands and accept us […]

11/28/2015 27 comments

I can live a bit more.

by viola 11/27/2015

written by viola

I’ve decided that I won’t kill myself on the 30th. After all, someone told me that one, my family and friends will be grieving and that if I kill myself, I might give a lot of people despair. Second, my dreams – to be a ballet dancer, to be friends with my crush (which is kind of weird to be placed here, heh), and to serve the country as a scientist – will all be lost when I die. Third is that I want to let other depressed and suicidal people live and know that we can all defeat our suicidal thoughts and not let […]

11/27/2015 3 comments

2 failed attempts

by abisslover25 11/25/2015

written by abisslover25

First failed attempt was Monday night I wasn’t feeling particularly suicidal but I saw an opportunity and took it.

Last night i took took a few bottles of sleeping pills but every time I would stop breathing I would jerk awake and concentrate on breathing. Needless to say it was a miserable night.

I just want it to be over.

11/25/2015 13 comments

New member!

by soul-less 11/21/2015

written by soul-less

Hello everyone,

New member here, after roughly 1 year of anonymously lingering around this site, I’ve decided that I should finally register, and here I am a registered member of this awesome site. So yeah, enjoy my company and I hope to get to know everyone well and that we may also exchange our suicidal stories. haha 🙂

11/21/2015 20 comments

always the same

by jano.11 11/19/2015

written by jano.11

the same end after any fight

tried to be a hero smash the bad guy , so guess what

back to cut again back to cry back to anger back to be a suicidal again ..! it’s not a big surprise I guess .. maybe just its who I am

a smashed one

11/19/2015 1 comment

It’s called “chronic pain” for a reason…

by tinydreams 11/18/2015

written by tinydreams

So, I want to die.

I am 30, and have been suicidal since I was 12, that I can recall. Why? My mother married a redneck Hitler wannabe when I was 5, and changed my surname to his. All my mother ever did was work to support us, and so I was essentially raised by this racist, psychotic sociopath who ruined me. What I mean by that is: he beat me down physically, spiritually, emotionally, and mentally. (My father was not in the picture, by his own choosing.) My mother’s husband ruined me completely.

I have no self worth, no self control, no self confidence, and no […]

11/18/2015 3 comments

Rejected, useless, pathetic, and lonely

by theloser102 11/7/2015

written by theloser102

It has been quite a while since I last posted hasn’t it SP? I wonder if anyone on here remembers me. Anyways to the story……….

I am surprised that I am still here on this planet. But I guess the primary reason I haven’t killed myself was because of a repetition of parasuicides. Well life has been getting significantly worse for me socially, economically however I am doing quite well and I do have a lot of money, but regardless of that the problem that I face the most is social connection with other humans.

I decided to write a 5,000 word document about how I wanted […]

11/7/2015 0 comment

Half-asleep rant

by Trix 11/6/2015

written by Trix

Hello all. 🙂

I tried to keep this short – and failed. I just needed to rant. Not about anything in particular. I seriously need some sleep, so please forgive any bad writing.

Today I used my wheelchair for the first time. It’s on loan for six weeks. Who knows, maybe in that time I’ll get outside more and it’ll help me start to feel less depressed. I’ve been so much worse lately, and I think spending more time in the house and with relatively little natural light has caused a lot of that.

This evening I went to a local light-themed festival. People make installations, play music […]

11/6/2015 21 comments

Let me off!

by AfflictedSmile 11/4/2015

written by AfflictedSmile

I can’t handle or control my emotions. My emotions fluctuate and change on a dime. Sometimes it’s stays that way for several hours or days, and other times it’s minute by minute.

I’ve been feeling really suicidal lately, and I’ve almost broke down several times at work. And as a guy, the thought of showing my emotions (crying etc) in front of other men is never a good thing. So I constantly have to regain my composure. I go from wanting to just cry, to being angry, to being filled with rage. And when I’m filled with rage, it’s explosive anger. I cussed out a man […]

11/4/2015 1 comment

A Reason To Stay Alive

by Kakubetsuna 10/31/2015

written by Kakubetsuna

“You need to find a reason to stay alive”

A simple and annoying sentence that people used each time I come to them to explain about how I’m having suicidal thoughts. It’s easier said than done. While I hate it so much because they kept on replaying it like some kind of broken radio, I do realize it’s because they can’t really do anything about it. About me. I tried and be open about my situation to my most trusted friend. We argue a little about how she didn’t reach me and try to help. But in her defense, there’s nothing to help when I can’t […]

10/31/2015 10 comments

Suicide Report

by blackvoid13 10/29/2015

written by blackvoid13

I’m conducting a report on the topic of suicide for school. This requires me to get multiple perspectives on suicide from others that have struggled or still struggle with a mental illness. I am required to respond to the following questions:
1. Why is there still a stigma around suicide?
2. Why is a terminal illness treated differently than a mental illness?
3. Why can terminally ill individuals receive Euthanasia but not suicidal/depressed individuals?
4.Should there be euthanasia for suicidal individuals if they meet certain criterias?

10/29/2015 15 comments

Attention Seekers

by Kakubetsuna 10/28/2015

written by Kakubetsuna

Are we?

Few people that fairly close to me are calling me that. They didn’t say it directly to my face. I stumble upon their post on social media because apparently word just got out that I leave everyone because I have depression. And of course, just like any other community or society in these world, most of them thought that depression isn’t real. “It’s all in your head”. “Try and be happy”. “You need to have a reason to move forward”. You know the deal. All these motivational quotes they get on Pinterest/Tumblr.

It does, however, make me think. Do I (we?) really need the attention? Am I an attention seeker? Maybe […]

10/28/2015 9 comments

Living With Wanting To Die Everyday

by EveryonesRock 10/20/2015

written by EveryonesRock

Is there ever a day that can go by without this desire? I have been this way for close to a quarter of a century….that I remember. I swallowed many sleeping pills in April of 1992. Oops, I’m still alive.

Suicide is selfish. It is crushing. People say it’s being weak. Well, that’s because life is too heavy and it’s too exhausting to carry it anymore. My burden is not your burden. Noone but myself can tell me whether I can stand it anymore or not. Noone but me can get myself up every morning and breathe.

So, people that I hear say things that dig at […]

10/20/2015 3 comments

Hey….

by -M- 10/17/2015

written by -M-

Hey guys. I haven’t been on in a while. My life really hasn’t gotten that much better. I did start on an antidepressant, but I feel more suicidal now. I started self harming again. I burn myself a lot. Life just sticks and I hate it.

10/17/2015 6 comments

Love

by secretz180 10/17/2015

written by secretz180

Ever since middle school I’ve always wanted a bf. Almost every night I would cry because I thought no one would ever love me. When I was 18, my best friend introduce me to a guy. We started emailing each other a lot. I get really bad anxiety but that one day I decided to meet him. He picked me up, all he wanted was sex. He kept pressuring me to do it so I felt like I had to. So I lost my virginity to him. He totally left me after that. I was heart broken and sad again. I met this guy on […]

10/17/2015 10 comments

Protected: Couldn’t it be just a bit more red?

by Trix 10/14/2015

written by Trix

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

10/14/2015 0 comment

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