I’ve battled with depression over several years; I’ve tried different meds to help out, but with varying success. They can keep me up to a certain level, but once life hits, there’s no staying afloat.
There’s been so much turmoil in my life; business going bust, marriage on the verge of breaking, custody and visitation battles, verbal fights with stepkids, friends leaving me, money running out, vehicles break beyond repair or being stolen, workplace f**ked up..
I’m at the point where I just don’t see what my purpose of being here is – people and situations just constantly push back or throw spanners in the […]
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this is to all who are considering suicide…please don’t do it, there is so much help for you out there and you can feel happy. my mom had attempted to commit suicide about 5 months ago and i still cannot sleep alone, i have visions at night, and my anxiety is through the roof. something like this cannot be forgotten, your family and friends will be forever scarred, and so will you. i know you may be struggling to the extreme right now but there is so much hope, soo much. please don’t do it, please. <3
I have been seriously considering suicide for several years. I am a hard-core cutter. I have several ways that I am considering killing myself. I have attempted suicide before, and ended up in a psych hospital, which absolutely sucked. I think that the easiest method by far would be to take a cyanide pill or to inhale cyanide somehow, but I don’t know where you’d get it.
If nobody does yet, I’ll probably revert back to one of my other methods. I ‘m sick of everything at this point, and I don’t give a shit about anything any more, and I just want it all […]
Suicide..been thinking to do it.
Haven’t figured out how.
I could relate to most of your posts.
Been cutting myself, drinking, taking meds just to make me fall asleep..to forget for awhile.
Guess we can’t find enough reasons what’s the point of being alive.
Reading through the posts, its amazing how different all our stories are.
We have somethings in common – that feeling of not being able to carry on, hating our lives, hating our past, not feeling like we have a future.
How many of you have read anothers story and thought either:
Thats far worse than my life,
or
thats not so bad?
It something to think about – if we put ourselves in other peoples lives how would we feel then, worse or better than we do now.
If one can get one spirits up just a little – its really important.
Having severe PTSD (post traumatic stress), having a nervous […]
I’ve failed.
at so many things.
life, mostly. work. people. I’m consumed by the pointlessness of it all, now, too. I can’t see a way out. And nothing makes sense.
I just want it all to go away.
One way or another.
Whenever i think of committing suicide, there is nothing going through my mind. It just revolves round one word SUICIDE. I think it to be the escape of all my worries and sadness of my life. But then i think, No i cant for i have to stand for myself in the most worthy way and live above all. I dont want to get noticed all i want is love. So why dont i love myself. I started earning and doing things for myself. Pampering me is the best way which i think anyone can do to get out of this feeling of suicide. All […]
I’ve been depressed for about 4 years now. But nothing really hit me hard till about the end of last year and steady increased through this year.
My family is overly Irish. They live in the old Irish Catholic ways, meaning: you marry young, girls don’t go to school, family always comes first, and leaving isn’t an option, meaning you can never think about leaving, because once you move out, you’re officially disowned, and I can’t live knowing that.. which is why I haven’t moved out.
I’m extremely different from my family.
The first girl to ever graduate high school (i had to fight to […]
i’ve just come out of a relationship, and before you all start, that isn’t the reason i’m feeling the way i am. i can deal with not being close to somebody, its the fact that when something goes wrong in my life, i have nobody i can talk to about it? if i tell my mum she just gets the whole family involved, and i don’t want that. all of my friends seem to have turned against me these past few days, and i know break-ups are hard, and it isn’t the end of the whole, but this is so difficult and i can’t express […]
Exactly a week ago i ran away from home. why? because my so called mother told me she hated me & that she was alredy tired of me. i love my mother very much but the way she treats me just gets this depression of mine worst. i know i’m supposed to respect her but how does she want me to respect her is she doesn’t respect me. when i was little she used to cheat on my dad & she would do it infront of my face. that really hurt me growing up with the picture of my mom cheating on my dad with 4 guys. […]
I just got into high school and it has over 2,000 kids and all i feel is alone. I’m a middle child and my younger sister has autism and my brother is a huge sports star. my parents never have time for me and the only time we ever talk is when they are yelling about my grades even though they know I’m dyslexic and try as hard as i can. all through middle school I struggled with getting beat up and failing classes because i couldn’t keep up. Every day i struggle with suicide to this day i cut my self on a regular […]
Mabe its satan but i need to die like now, i am possessed, and honestly this world is ending, im not dealing with this any longer, i lost everything in 2011 and suicide is my only way out.. i try every week
Today was really good. Went way better than expected. So it’s just typical to come home and have that feeling destroyed. Walk through the front door to a grumpy brother and a sleeping mother. Great, Recipe for success. And then it just got worse.. And now i’m this. I don’t know what this is, but I am it.
I have a surprise maths exam tomorrow. Am I going to be able to do it? probably not, I fully expect to break down… At least they say I can write in pencil as it’s only a mock. I don’t know how much longer I can go on […]
i had the worst time sleeping last night, i woke up every hour I had a headache and i was feeling like i wanted to puke all night i am shaking today i have dry mouth all because of my attempt i made yesterday… i want to rip my hair out and scream i can’t stand it… i want to die but all that happens is we are sick then dying when we try to commit suicide……….
If you feel like suicide because of how life is, I understand. This world is full of liars and corruption, people telling you that your problems are self created, and that you are somehow too lazy or unwilling to fix them. This is untrue. Since you were born, the NEW WORLD ORDER has sought to indoctrinate you, through TV, school, and even the radio. Everything works opposite to what it should. The wars of the world all happen by design, to allow the filthy rich and powerful to profit. 9-11, JFK murder, and the London bombings were inside jobs. If anything, fight the NEW WORLD […]
Well I’m 14 years old, my name is Elise. If I go from the start it will be the longest story ever so I won’t, but my dad left us for no reason at all about 2 years ago. We dont have any contact with him whatsoever, its been about 9 months now, my mum got sick and was in hospital for 3 months neither dad or his family looked after my sister and I during that time so we stayed with friends which was horrible.
This year I started self harming and am now considering suicide. I planned it and all, I see a counsellor […]
I’m just going to write and I’m not going to bother writing well. I know I will die of suicide, I just know it, since i was 12 i had a bet on with myself that i wouldn’t make it past nineteen, so just two years to go and it should be over. I’m not even going to bother going through all the shit I have been through, starting when i was four years old, and yet i tell people it all the time for the joy of seeing their faces. I’ve been raped and abused both sexually and emotionally (suprisingly the emotional abuse is […]
Hi,this is my first post as in such . I am nineteen years old and am a male. I have always hated myself since god knows when .I am 6 foot tall and people call me ugly and fat and incapable to have a girlfriend.I always felt shy around people and I always go by the motto ” I dont give two hoots what other people thinks of me”. I have so called “Friends” who smile and laugh at me and say stuff around my back and people use me to do stuff for them. Its as if I am their puppet. My mum […]
Im 24 years old, married, a mother of two, and i have been suicidal since the age of 12. I attempted many times, been hospitalized, been on any med you can think of, and i still cant pull myself out of this. Truth is, i love my husband, but our relationship was abusive in the past, i developed PTSD. Also coupled with molestation as a child, i have alot of anxiety. I have also discovered that i have been in love with a long time friend for a long time. I sleep with him on occasion, and i just want to stay there. Like i […]