Suicide is the only answer for me, don’t bother telling me otherwise, I’ve tried and failed before but I haven’t changed my mind. I’ve been unhappy and apathetic for as long as I can remember regardless of how hard I’ve tried to push myself or the different things I’ve tried. I just want the pain to go away, it’s really unbearable at times. I think about bad times in my life, about God, about all the bad people in the world, how bad the world is, how worthless I am, and often enough I picture myself dying in gruesome ways. I end up crying, shaking, […]
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I have posted this comment a couple of times now and really have appreciated some of the responses. Â I posted the same comment to Facebook and still have received nothing so, I would like to say thank you to everyone for letting me feel heard. I truly appreciate it. Â I’d also like to thank xJohnnyChimpo for sending me this link to a very tasteful and informative documentary. Â ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=slZnfC-V1SYÂ )It was very reveling toward my own autonomy and thus granting me more freedom and hope than I ever had before.
I’m taking a class right now that requires me to write a persuasive essay on […]
First off, I want to say that I understand how people here feel, because I felt that way for years. And I do believe in an individual’s right to take their own life. So I’m not going to tell anyone that it’s bad to feel that way. I’ve noticed that some people here feel that they’ve exhausted their options, so I just wanted to throw a few out there that a lot of people don’t know about. So if you’re someone that would like to live if you could just feel better, think about looking into the things below:
-Hormonal imbalances and blood sugar disorders can […]
Yeah, Urm. I had an arguement with daniel earlier… About how i was going to put an end to him.
Kinda feel bad now. :/
And still so fucking nervous about this assessment.
Suicide sounds pretty good.
i tryed to commit suicide a few days ago… and i messaged one of the youth leaders at my church, telling her what was going on…. she never wrote back.
i told 3 of my best friends… they didnt say anything to me about it… its like no one cares… please HELP i dont know what too do anymore..
My brother died when i was 9. Withing a course of 4 years, 10 more family members died.
I was diagnosed with manic depression and anorexia at the age of 12.
I use to be a major self harmer.
I am proud to say it has been over one month. <3
At the age of 13, i fell in love, and lost my virginity to a boy who i thought would never leave.. 4 days later he left. I wanted to die.
He called me a slut, easy, whore, ****, insecure, ugly, disgusting, fat.
I have forever thought of myself as these things, since he has said them because at one […]
I’ve been sitting long and hard trying to think of the words that would be just right and not hurt or upset anyone. I hope you know who you are, we’ve always been so connected in life, 2 halves of one whole, and I don’t think now is any different. If you’re reading this and its not aimed at you I hope you also take some consideration that I’m sure there is someone in you’re life who feels exactly the same way about you as I do about her.
I know you feel that there is no way out, but I’m here to guide you through […]
I purely and thoroughly hate myself. There’s no sugar-coated layer to hide the fact of the matter.
Ever since I was a kid, clinical depression has lingered in every thought I’ve conceived. In public, I have it all: grades, musical/athletic talent, friends to fuck around with on the weekends. Reality? I’m smart, but totally unmotivated. I can answer questions in class and still not account for shit when it comes to my work. Music takes up my whole time, so what’s left for sports? I don’t want to get any unhealthier, but Jesus, my motivation spectra is as broad as the water level in the Saharra Desert. And sure, I have friends… Even that’s subjective, […]
How do you guys cope with feeling bad? Cry? Cut? Distract yourself? Get Angry?
Have any of you ever tried fainting?
Whenever I feel bad, I usually cry, but every once in a while, I’ll faint to feel better.
It feels good.
Really good.
For 3 seconds I forget about the world
For 3 seconds I forget about everything
It feels like
A 3 second suicide
What feels better is, when I wake up, for a few seconds, I get really light-headed
Almost as if I’m high
It feels like floating
You guys should try it
It might put some of you out of misery for a while
Just don’t over-do it, I’m pretty sure it’s not that safe
Anyways, […]
i don’t know who i am anymore. i don’t know where i’m going, i dont think i want to go anywhere. i want everything to end. now. i’ve come to the dead end, the end of no return. i no longer know what it’s like to be happy. happy- what is that word? what does that even mean? i wish i could wake up in the morning and love my life and love everything around me. but i dont. i wake up hating the person i am in the mirror, i hate the sun, and the flowers, and the trees. i hate the day time. […]
i’m 20 years old and my life always had been difficult, now i am at a point that i can’t go anymore further.. 🙁
My friends are slowly abandoning me,i don’t have a girlfriend and my parents hates me,i don’t have a job or money.
I started having panic attacks cause of my situation and i’m afraid of meeting people,i’m loosing all my self esteem..
i have searched in the net for so long a nice method for suicide,but every method seems uneffective
some people tells that helium can fail,pills fails… it seems that everything is more likely to fail that having effect.
I don’t […]
Depression is very common in my family! In fact almost everyone on my mothers side suffers from some form of depression or mental illness. As I sit watching my happy and very silly baby boy run around the yard I am plagued with the crippling fear of passing on my depression to him. I can’t bear the thought of one day Broox wanting to take his own life or harming himself in any way. I wish there was a way I could scoop him up and hide him away so he is always this happy, silly, giggly care free beautiful boy that he is right […]
A poem/song that I wrote 3 days before being admitted into a hospital for a suicide attempt.
I can’t even function
I mean there’s no reason
Why try for no cause?
Fuck everything, fuck it all
I give up
I can’t keep up
No motivation
To keep me going
I’ve tried so hard
Only to be let down
My heart’s broken into shards
I guess this is punishment
For having hopes high
While my feet were on the ground
My lips can’t crack a smile
My throat can’t muster a laugh
It’s been a long while
Since I’ve been put down this bad
I guess I had […]
I have been through shit in my life. Not metamorphic shit literal sticky stinky shit….
Got raped got pregnant got aborted at 16. Was a prostitute. Never lived a happy life. But I never gave up…. I struggled struggled and faced the world. Finished my law. Did my masters. Got settled with a job in a US based MNC which is paying me 3 times more than my friends. Known as one of the smartest worker. Yes i achieved what i wanted to!! Am i happy???!!!!!!!!!! No………………….
Now, i dont see any meaning in being alive. Everyday sucks. Mom reminds me of my bad past everyday. […]
Okay, well this is my story..
I’m quite young and I’m broken. I’m depressed and suicidal, clearly.. and i selfharm. I put on the fakest smile every single day. I’m miserable, I just want to be dead, to be free, to be happy. I have tried to take my own life many times, I don’t really have a massive story. But my depression has taken over me, my self eestem is horrible, I can’t leave the house without crying, I’m horribly fat and aswell so ugly. I hate leaving the house because I usually don’t have the nicest clothes because i’m not rich, my family struggles […]
Nobody in my town or my age seem to understand the idea that their actions effect other people as well. It has been a year and a half since I attempted suicide, yet nothing has gotten better. My final year in high school was complete hell. I was tormented by a group of girls who used to be my best friends. Day after day they told me how no one likes me or wants me around. They repeatedly shouted names down the hallway at me or spread rumors about me being pregnant. This summer they have peanut-buttered/egged/balognied my car twice. Then, try countless times to […]
Hi guys,
I’m just new here at this website and for a long time I keep myself seeking things related to suicide on internet and I got really into it after my life got really sux around six years ago. (I have a really large problem that cannot be solved easily)
Nowadays I hate the major I’ve chosen (since 2005 and I still not graduated!!), my job, where I live, my routine and my completely life. I read many testimonials here today and maybe I decided to start to share what brings me down everyday and my permanent nightmare.
I don’t expect any help from you, but sharing […]
well last night i lost it and dumped the rest of my pills down my throat…i wish i were like the restof youwhere i could drone on and make some huge intresting explaination about what happened but i cant…i feel like a real ass not expressing my issues because now you guys think i make them up right? Well here goesmy explaination:you dont know how it feels to wake up everyday and be drowned wit annoying bothersome voices and demons who leap onto you and rip your soul out! You dont know how it feels to always long for suicide, to always look down at […]
I’m taking a class right now that requires me to write a persuasive essay on something that I’m passionate about. Â I’m not really passionate about anything but I think about suicide most of the time. Â That not really being a topic I feel like writing an essay about, it got me thinking further and I decided that, legalizing Euthanasia for terminally ill patients, would be a pretty controversial argument to present. Â I would like to present it as being beneficial for the individual as well as society. Â I am asking for anyone’s input on how they feel about this subject whether they are for it […]
Feeling so down and sick, like a Ghost… Posting here rather than fake it on FB
by sowhat
written by sowhat
My anxiety won’t go away… the pain on my chest, the breathless feeling, so out of my mind. My friends keep writing msg on FB, I cannot open them, they txt me and I can’t txt them back. Nothing to say, I love them, I miss them, and I know they love me back… But I don’t know how to tell them that I won’t be allowed back in Canada for a long long time, I don’t know how to tell them that I spend all my day at home reading posts on THE SUICIDE PROJECT website, I don’t know how to tell them that […]