This is my story..
In the past few years I started getting a really bad temper. I would hit my mom, throw things, break things, scream and yell. Well this past August it got really bad..the cops came to my house. I was taken to the hospital, I was put into a partial program..I was supposed to stay for two weeks, but I only stayed for a week cause my mom didn’t want me to miss my first week of school. That was a mistake, it didn’t help. I went to my first week of school, then I stopped going..I wouldn’t go. I’d spend days […]
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Suicide
I’ve been on the end of my rope now for about a week. So many things have been going wrong and getting so much worse. The reality of physically not having anywhere to go after I move out of the dorms for the summer is really starting to sink in. I tried to convince my boyfriend that we should stop seeing eachother to make it easier for him when I go. I can really see that there’s no getting better for me. I feel like it would be easier for him if we weren’t together when it happens. He was so confused and it made […]
Hello,
I’m suicidal, I have an active plan and the means to carry it out. Â I really am just tired of life. Â I’m married and am concerned about the impact my suicide will have on my wife. Â I am all she has. Â Her family has basically disowned her because they don’t like me. Â I guess if I’m out of the picture, she could go back to them. Â I have paranoid schizopherina and major depression. Â I’m medicated, but its like the medication isn’t working. Â I try talking to my wife about my suicidal thoughts, but then she starts talking about putting me in a hospital. Â I’ve attempted […]
Sometimes I love so truly and deeply that I forget about myself.Â
The person I am with becomes everything to me. I put them first in everything I do. However, I never have this love returned to me. So I question whether it is right for me to love this way. The price I pay for this love is myself. In return what I get is pain. So is it right to love this way? May be not.Â
The reason why I love this way is because if I don’t wake up tomorrow, then I will know that I have done everything that was within my power […]
I sit here hating myself for being myself. I try everyday to live to be happy, but nothing ever works. The realization of the fact that the one person you love so much will never love you back torments me and leaves me unable to move. I pray for the torment to end.
He says I don’t try enough and he gets mad at me. But I know not what to do. I do what anyone deeply in love does when they are hurt by the one they love…I cry. I cry a river that turns into an ocean. My bloody tears mean nothing anymore because […]
When I say it’s been a “full” life, I definitely don’t mean it’s been a happy one. But I’ve accomplished a lot, experienced a lot, and now like a runner who’s exhausted and crippled from running so hard I’m going to stop.
Human society is anti-suicide. Everyone tells you it’s wrong, everyone tries to talk you out of it. That’s fine. But I really think suicide is a logical action when you no longer have a desire to live (a lot more logical than continuing to do something you don’t want to do).
I lost my desire to live a year ago when something horrible happened. I held on for […]
Okay, So I’m 15 years old and my depression all started near the end of summer. It all started a few days after my girlfriend decided to take a break. Just for a week. I lasted about 2 days, Then I gave her a choice. Get back together or never be together again….She told me her friend said that she shouldn’t have to choose if I really loved her. Well She couldn’t have been anymore wrong. I went on with my normal day after that, Got high, ate, then chilled with some friends. After the high wore off I started feeling lonely. I then turned […]
I’ve never been abused. Never been neglected. I’ve never failed. I have graet co-workers and a loving family (though quite overbearing @ times).
I was bullies in every grade! Where was the publicity and outcry then???
I cry myself to sleep every night. Who hears me?
I hurt any second I am not actively ingaged in conversation with somebody. Who notices?
Why is suicide a bad thing for chronic depression? It’s not a phase in my life… I’ve been this way since I was 5. I’ve been on meds. I’ve seen a couselor. Why should I suffer every morning knowing I have to face another day. Why? Because people […]
People are getting confused, they know something is up, but the don’t have the slightest clue of what. I have not written in a while, and I miss it. I can’t express myself, and no one will know what is going on, there is just a whole bunch of missing pages in this story; if I can even call it that anymore. I have been sad, sadder than ever. I can’t stop asking myself, “When will things be better?â€.I can’t explain what is going on in my life for, there is nothing. Just the Same Shit, Different Day. Time is just being wasted more and […]
She can pain a pretty picture but the story has a twist, her paintbrush is her razor and her canvas is her wrist.
by xolaynie4ev
written by xolaynie4ev
Hi. Im laynie. I am 13 years old in 7th grade middle school.
A summery of my life:
Im basically hated by my mom, she acts like she loves me but when it all comes down she really hates me. I started cutting myself about 3 months ago but they never got to serious. I love my dad more then anything and if it wasnt for him i would of killed my self by now. I hate my life, its not even a joke i think of myself as an ugly disgusting fat person. I Wish I could just not wake up and […]
i met my boyfriend  at work in march 2007.  i was heavily attracted to him.  he showed me around the workplace so i spent my whole shift with him.  he bought me lunch, was a complete gentleman and at one point he took me to his locker to give me his jacket.  i felt him lean towards me to kiss me but being an extremely shy person, i thought it was just wishful thinking on my part so i didn’t respond.  i was married at the time with a son and decided to do the right thing of talking about my family to dissuade him […]
I posted this on another suicide forum also, just in case no one responds/cares etc.
I’ve been feeling suicidal all year. I’m a senior in high school. I only have one more year until I’m out of here. I dont know why I always have to fuck everything up. No one notices I’m depressed because I’m excellent at hiding myself. I withdrew from my friends and read Sylvia Plath’s journals everyday in the corner of the library. I think about starving myself to death or overdosing on advil. I want to slit my wrists. But then I think about my little brother, and I just. He’s […]
I just overdosed a couple days ago and havent been able to get suicide of my mind. It seemed like i was doing good i used to go to the er about three to two times a day for suicide attempts swallowing batteries and overdosing on pills i tried to hang myself once didn’t work out to well cause we live in a freaking apartment. I dont want to die and its hard to even admit when im suicidal to people cause it feels wrong saying it. I havent been admitted to a mental hospital cause mostly i lie my way out of it. Im […]
What’s up guys,
I want to reach out to you all. I recently discovered this blog and it’s been an amazing experience reading so many people’s stories. I want to hear more. It’s kind of keeping me going right now. I guess the question I have for everybody is why can’t we do it? Why can’t we take that extra step? What is holding you all back personally? I have failed multiple times in the past six months and I just can’t bring myself to do it just yet. That is why I’m reaching out to you all. I want to make sense of it […]
I was one of those people that were always like killing yourself is stupid. I realize now that was because I had it pretty close to I prefect life. But I worked hard to do that too. I had all As and great friend. And I was so pretty. In my freshman year of high my mom told me we were moving. I didn’t want too. But would any teenager want to move 1,000 miles away from their life, friends, everything. I throw I fit but I knew I was making it harder on myself so I told her I would be good and go. […]
I lost the control that I’d maintained for so long…trauma…attempted suicide one day and the next…”saved” by my best friend…the loss of my best friend…I am collapsing into myself as I have destroyed my life and continue to destroy this moment and the next.
I look to people to talk with but all I see are names…all I can tell them is a story of self-pity.
I wish I didn’t tell me best friend I took 60 pills…
I wish I hadn’t told her anything…
I wish I had used a blade…
I wish I had the courage I did a year ago when I brought the handful of pills […]
I’m close to suicide…
I don’t want to talk to a national crisis therapist or counselor…
Last time I did that I was put on hold because my counselor received another caller… I felt a that point that my life didn’t have real value and I was almost worthless…
I don’t know what thrive I have left to live.
This is my last resort and I’m extremely certain no one is kind enough to help. This will just be conformation that I’m just about pathetic…
I was approached today by a friend about her supicion I was thinking about self termination. She lost her first husband to suicide and does volunter work for a prevention hotline a couple nights a month. I guess I was an easy read for her. It caught me off guard damn it and I stumbled. I confessed. What a stupid idiot I am. How could I have been so inept and careless!! It was a foolish liability to give away my desire/need. I hindered the time I had planned to make it so, by self sabatage. She offered to drive me to a hospital, like i would let that happen again. I […]
I just stumbled across this site and skimmed some posts and comments and a lot of it seemed so familiar. The issues as well as the advice. Personally, I never found certain kinds of advice helpful but I will refrain from pointing out specific ones and instead just share my story and hope it will help people who are tired of the same old cliched phrases. If not… I think Doug Stanhope is absolutely right when he says (paraphrasing): “Life is like a movie. If it is shitty every step of the way, you shouldn’t blame somebody for walking out early.”
And I am going to […]
Hey everyone. If you have read my post i then you will know alot about me if not then here it is i cut and burn, and suicide thoughts cross my mind alot. But today i want to hear your guys stories. I am doing a video for my school to share about how suicide efffects peoples lifes everyday. And i want your stories. If you would be willing to make a short more about what your going through or what you went through, how cutting burning or suicidee effected you or how its affecting you now> i would love to share and impact my […]