hi everyone that has read my story. this is the day after easter, also the day after i posted my story of myself. to make my story so much more shorter, to save people time from my worthless story. im only 17, junior in highschool, i hate my life completly and everything i turned out to be so far. i have no father and the mother i do have, we have no relationship. my father abandoned me when i was a baby, my mother was a teenage mom when she had me… she didnt know how to deal with me. so she took it out […]
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my name is alyssa, im a junior in highschool and im only seven-teen. i just turned seven-teen a couple months ago. ive dealt with depression since i was little. the furthest i can remember was when i was in kindergarten, when i started to get these sad feelings. i dont have a father, he abandoned me when i was born and pretended to care by taking me in here and there. only because my grandparents loved me and he lived with them, so he had no choice but to see me. he would steal from me, the clothes my mom would send me with, the […]
Hi. This is my first time posting here. My life was okay, always dark; but i never knew true darkness and depression until my friend killed himself in varsity. That destroyed me. Since then my dad died, my best friend has tried to kill himself, my other best best friend was/is becoming an alcoholic. But nevermind mind that. It was 6 months after my dad that I got really messed up. I couldn’t work any more, started suffering from post traumatic stress, panic attacks.. my girlfriend of 5 years left me too. Spent all my moving out money on trying to get better. Found […]
Suicide as the conclusion of a mind that functions ‘normally’.
The structure behind my previous post, and consequential days- all with the rhetoric of monotonous feeling.
Justification, if only for myself, about my consideration of suicide.
If i try again tomorrow, it will be attempt number 7 on my life. i live with minor brain damage and ADD and am fucking depressed, none of my “friends” talk to me and when i try and talk to them they dont pick up the phone or reply, im only 18 and moved out of home, i cant get into uni and missed out on tafe no one will hire me so im fucked, i contemplate suicide everyday and research methods online, i see other people talking about prevention, how to get help, how they can relate to shit, i think its all […]
I’m sure I don’t have it nearly as bad as so many people on here: I really have a perfect life, pretty much, it’s just I do I decent job of screwing things up. I know this sounds really emo, and I totally hate that, but I feel like I’m not allowed to be real with anybody, so I’m pretty much falling with nothing to hang on to. I don’t want to whine, but I guess this is kind of what this thing is about, so here it goes: I think about killing myself every day, and I can’t get to sleep every night because […]
i’m a man(22yrs old) that only live to help my family to get through their life successfully after my father left us with nothing…and now i think my job is almost done and i need all of you guys out there to give me suggestions…urm…those people who want to say”don’t do it” please don’t mind bout this ok…i’m not in a bad mood or sober or depressed,in fact i have a wonderful time with my family….it’s just i think my time’s almost up and i need somewhere to enjoy my death….Thank you …..
“blood gathers around the slits,
wells at my wrists,
ancles, and stomach,
and glide down my barely satisfied skin.
dripping down.
down to a dark pool.
made by me.
and the help of others
dripping
past any care,
and right to where hope should be.”
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“You strive for the top
because you crave the danger
but can you handle
the ever persuing fall?
every mountain has it’s precipice
which leads to a steep
fatal
fall
the sof wind of fake comforting words
accompany your decent
as the ensuind crash
puts you on […]
imagine a young girls body in a tub filled with blood and water and the smell of alcohol and gun smoke in the air. imagine a hole in her chest where her heart should have been and words cut into her skin. words like:Â ALONE. FAKE.MISUNDERSTOOD.HATED.FORGOTTEN.ENTITY.EVERLOST. and many more. you see her long dark brown hair float along the glassy water. Her dark, almost black eyes staring back at you. asking, “why? Why did you kill me?” you know it was your fault. you knew that you venomous words and cold eyes would break her. But you didn’t know that it would kill her. […]
i have had a very dangerous and sad life; when i was younger my father was abusing me, he abused me sexually, physically, emotionally, and mentally. he ruined my life, and made me not trust other males. He not only abused me but he abused my mother to, except he only abused her mentally and emotionally.
When he started up agan (metally and emotionally abusing me) i started feeling very lonely, sad, alone, i just hated myself and my life. i was always teased by eevryone during school and i started believeing what they were saying about me, which was *****, slut, horror, acme […]
People always say that suicide is a temporary solution to a temporary problem but in some cases people have permanent problems and I am such a case. All my life I have been seen as different and spent time in special education classes and was transferred to a different school because I had problems socializing with others. My life during school has miserable and in high school when most guys were getting dates and I couldn’t because of my differences and I considered suicide. Back then I figured that I shouldn’t commit suicide because things will only get better. I have regretted that choice ever […]
I am 16 years old, and alive. I came close to ending my own life a year ago. Practically out of nowhere, I went through a severe depression, and felt hopeless, worthless, and apatetic about my own existence. There were days where I couldn’t even make myself get out of bed. I would cry myself to sleep, and whenever I did wake up, I would go right back to sleep so I didn’t have to feel the pain. I couldn’t bring myself to tell anyone about what I was going through because I was embarassed, felt crazy, and still believed that I wanted to end […]
I’ve been there.
A place no one wants to go.
Not ever.
Being touched in bed at night, to being beaten unconscious.
Life never gets better for me.
I now lay awake at night scared of him coming in.
Scared to close my eyes and I’d open them and he’d be there.
That pain never goes away in my mind.
I have scars from all of the pain he caused me.
Cutting is my main coping resource, suicide running through my mind everynight.
The want to just end it all makes my brain freeze in time.
One day it will be over, and I’ll be […]
I am a 21 year old male college student. At age 16 I was very depressed and thought suicide was a way out. After some counseling and some time, I was “better.” Then I went to college and met the woman of my dreams. Quite literally, I had this image of the perfect woman and she fit perfectly. It took a lot of effort but I eventually ended up dating her. This was the happiest I had ever been in my entire life. Don’t think me so naive, I have dated women before, but this time it felt RIGHT.
She met me when I had no […]
For those contemplating i have been there and would like to share abit. Year 2002 After battling depression for years, drove my car 75 miles an hour into a semi-tractor trailor, slit my wrists, tried smoke inhalation.Am still here. My conclusion 1. only God has the finally say. 2. He must have created me for a reason.3. He does not give us all the answers immediately concerning life and difficulties. 4. most answers i have found in the bible when no one else could answer.5. This life is not easy and will never be. 6. This life does seem and may be is unfair in […]
My pain feels so unique until I get onto the internet. On nights like this, when I’m home by myself and need any outlet, no matter how pathetic, to the outside world and I turn to the computer, I am amazed and infuriated by how many people suffer as I do. Of course, I operate under the delusion that nobody *quite* suffers in the same way I do, but that is not to say it’s not to the same degree: just a different set of ingredients. I feel my mix is particularly bitter.
I am just your average twenty-something white girl, with complaints that make […]
I am A 16 year’s old boy I have been suicidal for almost 2 years now. I am taking depression pills but that isn’t really doing anything to help me. I became depressed because my best friend was killed 2 days after Christmas by a drunk driver who had several DUI. After his death everyday after school I just came straight home came in my room and thought about way I could commit suicide. I didn’t want to stab nor cut myself because of the pain I just wish i had A gun so it could be fast and painless. I’m one of those kid’s who […]
I stopped seeing my psychiatrist and psychologist because I thought I was better. I went cold turkey and suddenly stopped taking 225mg Venlafaxine a day and the 10mg Zyprexa (Anti Depression and Anti Psychotic Medications). It worked. Its been 2 years since taking them, and I think I just realised that nothing has changed. I never got better. Just deluded thoughts kept me going.
If it is any use to anyone – If a doctor trys to give you Zyprexa…. dont take it. do yourself a favour. I hit the point I would take any help I could get. Anti psychotic? Sure, throw me it, it […]