I’ve been suffering pretty severe depression for roughly four and a half years now. Throughout this entire battle I’ve had with the snakes in my head, the demons in my personality, nothing has helped. I’ve been on different types of drugs, I’ve seen councilors, I’ve talked to friends and family in a search for hope and understanding – and I always end up back in this state of desperation. It’s reasonably well known that there are suicidal people who don’t actively want to die, they just want the pain to cease. The thing is, I actually want to die. I’ve had on and off feelings […]
I’ve struggled my whole life with depression and for a very very long time I’ve been convinced that suicide is by far the most likely way that I will die. I just can’t take it anymore. I’ve done everything right. I’m doing the drug/therapy thing, I quit drinking, and I exercise regularly. Unfortunately none of these can stop the heart crushing loneliness that I feel so often. I hate my job, I’m broke, and I have no real friends around here, but those aren’t the main reasons I think I’m going to kill myself soon. Ever since getting treatment for depression I’d have short periods […]
Hi everybody, my name is Dolunay 34y male.
I found myself in this website by chance, I’m not suicidal at all but it shocked me to see all these confused spirits, & it saddens me to see they have reached to this blocked way.
I love offering my help by listening (at least) & I promise to not misjudge or misunderstand, & I’d love to read from anybody. don’t hesitate to send to my email, I’ll reply gladly;
goods_maker@yahoo.com
love you all, have a nice day.
Love is a murder! Finally i give it up, i cant defeat my fate.might be is fate lead me in the way that i should go? Here is only way i can go is commint suicide .Im so lost and the voice inside my head keep saying that off myself is the only way keep me safe from harm,then i can rest in peace forever.Love is sooooo fuck up!After 10 years to dating by diferent people. None of them took me serious.them r cheated on me. I always the second choice even less. They just wanna play love game wiz me.whatever i do that all wrong. […]
is superhero real exist ?
are superheroes real exist ?
is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ?
you know, like in those ‘cool’ superhero movies : X-Men (X Men), Superman, Thor, Spiderman, Iron man, Captain America, or in those ‘cool’ fantasy / sci-fi (sci fi, science fiction) movies : Harry Potter, Narnia, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, TRON, or games like Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, etc etc ..
otherwise, fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!
I hate reality, I hate life , I hate this very *LIMITED* & […]
During the day my smile hides my feelings,
at night they come out,
that dull, empty feeling,
consumes me.
The urges come back,
my mind wonders.
How can you be so sad,
when no one has a clue,
I’m the master of disguise,
My feelings are my shadow,
my black cape I hide behind.
ive selfharmed for about a year now, with minimal people knowing the cuts are getting alot more deep and my arms are covered in scars ive also burned myself alot, i wear long jumpers most of the time. My parents are never at home, people think i am happy, but that’s one thing im not, my parents want me to do so well in school but i cant focus anymore, i cant concentrate at all, i get around 3/4 hours of sleep most nights because its just impossible for me to sleep and all i do is cry, im really nervous and anxious but i […]
The big question whist happens after we die, where do we go. Do we go into a spiritual realm for tortured souls, do we go into nothing, do we go into a dream world for good, do we see others that are past,do we go to heaven, do we go to hell? These are the questions that every one wonders, even the most religious person must think in the back of their minds I hope there is a heaven. So to kill yourself is a sin and then we end up in hell. Whet if you think life is hell, why is there such a […]
I am heartbroken by how many lives suffer daily. Abused, tortured, bullied… I often just want to leave the earth and take man kind along with me, but I can’t.
I am making this post to say to all people, non matter where you are, if you have mixed feelings if you should kill yourself. Then speak to me.
I used to be suicidal myself. My life was luckily good. I had education, middle class, but my head. My head killed me constantly. Causing me to injure myself to get it to stop. I am better. Kinda, and I decided that I want to spend my time […]
Why movies is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why video games is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why novels is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why comics is much better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why anime/manga is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
in conclusion :
Why human’s IMAGINATION is better & more interesting than this boring […]
If Love is the problem
You just need to find a new love
If Money is the problem
You just have to make more money
If Other people is the problem
You just have to find new people to hang out with
If past mistake is the problem
You just have to disregard it
If Sadness is the problem
You just need to be happy
So all these problems have alternative solution. It might not be easy but there are possiblity, however slim, to fix these situations.
There’re examples of people who find love again even at old age
There’re examples of people who have nothing […]
There is, what I believe to be a misguided therapeutic view of suicide by medical people, social workers, government types all chattering about the different aspects of this troubling and discordant reality, but they have accomplished almost nothing since the advent of modern medical and academic study, and may have even exacerbated the issue.
Scrupulously fact checked books, articles, medical, philosophical, academic discourses on suicide almost universally call for a psychiatric or therapeutic “cure” to stop suicides from occurring, and despite titles like “Reasons for Suicide” and topic headings to that affect, they really never address the real reasons for suicide and they refuse to lend any shred of credibility to the endless hours of […]
I’m depressed, anxious and suicidal. Over the last few months, a chain of bad things happened to me. Deaths of grandparents, family tensions, stressful work then redundancy, relationship trust issues, fallings out with friends, the list goes on. Seeking employment, supporting family and trying to forgive a cheating partner became too much for me, and rather than kill myself, I immediately moved out of the family home. Two days later my boyfriend broke up with me in a very cruel way. I’ve been staying in friends’ rooms while they’re on holiday – thank god it’s the summer.
I’m still suicidal. Moving out of home was […]
She smiles through a thousand tears,
and harbors adolescent fears.
she dreams of all that she can never be;
she wades in insecurity
and hides herself
in
me.
Not sure if my post fits in with the purpose of this site, but I need somewhere to vent… I am actively suicidal.
I am 24 years old. My mother had borderline personality disorder, depression, etc. She killed herself 5 years ago. I could have the same disorders but I’ve never seen a shrink to get diagnosed. My father has since re-married and moved away to another state… we don’t talk. I feel so alone all of the time. Life feels like such a burden, I am just going through the motions… getting through each day. But why? What is the point? I feel no love- […]
‘Pearls Before Swine’ by Stephan Pastis (May 6, 2012)
I’m not looking for advice at all since I have zero motivation to improve my lot in life. I’m merely writing this to ***** and vent and commiserate with any potential like-minded souls that might feel the same way while I’m still here.
I have no money. No job. And only got a high school diploma. I am 34 years old and am living with my parents, whom I am […]
I am not done or anything, I think I don’t really want to kill myself, I just find it soothing to have the posibility at hand and I know I would be brave enough to do it. I guess I’ve always been addicted to something, whether it’s a person or a drug or a thought or a fantasie or an action. I’ve had a lot of best friends and I have been addicted to self-harming and alcohol and weed and I just can’t seem to land on reality because I am always daydreaming. Reality has always been a burden to me partly I guess because […]
I’m 27 and male, never had a girlfriend, don’t have any friends, don’t have a purpose and everything that I seem to give up on everything I start at the first sign of hardship. When I pick out something to do, I always think i could be doing something better. I have problems deciding. I constantly feel unloved and don’t know how to heal that without the help of others. I feel that this is partially the fault of reversed gender roles with mom being the silent more rigid one and dad being the very caring person and sometimes overaccomodating. When it looks like I will be […]
I started out in a hell hole. I was born to a family that was a mix of two. One brother from my mother and one from my father. The one that lived with us was James (names have been changed). I was two and james was 10. So, one day our parents up and left. James had to look after me for about a week I think. When they came back, they were mad. The mother threw me into a window. My brother tried to protect me and ended up getting all his fingers bent backwards for it. Next door heard the screaming and […]
I’m 18 years old, and I’m done with life. It all started when I was 12. I started self harming. I’m not really sure why I started, but I couldn’t stop. Anytime anything went wrong, I would cut. 6 years later, I’m still cutting. I can’t control the urge, ive tired so hard to stop… but I just can’t. I’m covered in scars. I’ve seen therapists, counsellors, every kind of mental health professional you can think of and they still can’t find out what treatment works for me. They’ve tried it all. I’ve been sexually abused by a man who is still walking free, abandoned […]