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Suicide

I dunno

by xen 2/19/2013

written by xen

I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve tried so hard for so long that i’ve got nothing left in the tank. What’s left for a person at this point? How do I continue to struggle on? Where can I find inspiration in a world that I detest so wholly? Why do i sit here typing in these questions hoping they’ll be magically answered?

Why is it wrong for a person who has gone their whole life caring about others to finally be selfish for once? Even if that selfish act is suicide.

I’ve no desire left to exist, I […]

2/19/2013 22 comments

Soulless

by ___ 2/19/2013

written by ___

I’ve been visiting this site for the past few days, and have been wondering why. Why am I here? Why am I reading other peoples’ stories? Do I want to post my story? Do I get some sort of kink out of the misery of others? Do I enjoy other peoples’ pain? Do I hope that I might be able to sympathize or empathize with them? Why? The reason I post this now is because I think I now know.

Is there anyone out there like me?

I’ve been wanting to die for six years now and have attempted suicide seventeen times, but that’s not want I […]

2/19/2013 3 comments

It doesn’t get better.

by poob 2/19/2013

written by poob

Hello.

Let me just start out by saying my life has been shitty since my teenage years.Â I started really feeling these types of feelings when I was 13.Â It was bad, really bad.Â My family life was not great and I had no social skills.Â I wasn’t abused, mistreated or any of the like.Â I just didn’t really develop those social skills you need to succeed in life.Â I started having these thoughts at 13 and it progressed as I got older and nothing really improved.Â There was something in the back of my mind which kept telling me things will get better, don’t give […]

2/19/2013 7 comments

my depression

by ihatemyself11 2/18/2013

written by ihatemyself11

my depression started when i was nine i figured out what had happend to me i was sexually assulted by parents i was put in foster care adopted into a family that is the reason of my pain and cutting and suicidal thoughts and many attempts they hate me they hate the way i dress my music everything about me they basically call me an attention seeking whore and when i cut i feel nothing and death hasnt taken my soul yet simply because i do not have one worth taking i feel like im drowning but not dying this is slow and painful life […]

2/18/2013 2 comments

I’m not sure what I’m doing anymore.

by ringo 2/18/2013

written by ringo

Honestly I don’t know where to start… Recently I’ve realized I’m depressed.Â I just feel so empty inside.Â Like I’m moving through the motions day by day.Â My family doesn’t or can’t understand what I’m going through.Â They’re all wrapped up in their own problems, and I’m not willing to become a nuisance to them.Â It feels like years since I’ve been thinking about dying.Â Just jumping off my roof one day, or drowning myself.Â But until recently it didn’t dawn on me that I wanted to commit suicide.Â I have lots of people in my life that love me, and would hate it if […]

2/18/2013 2 comments

what stopped me

by live4xp 2/18/2013

written by live4xp

AT THE TIME I FELT:

1. I’m an incompetent and pathetic loser who has ruined his life and will never change because of his own laziness

2. I don’t give a fuck about other people or what they may think or feel , not even those who love and care for me. All I care about is satisfying my own sense of personal justice.

3. All I can think about is how much I hate myself and my existence. The ultimate self-punishment is suicide. These thoughts are driving me nuts and will continue unless I decisively end it NOW.

MY TIMELYÂ EPIPHANIES:

1. I CHOOSE to judge myself the way i […]

2/18/2013 4 comments

Sadness

by ImDone16 2/18/2013

written by ImDone16

its like its eating me from the inside out im a cutter im emo i have tryed commiting suicide ive been to a phyco ward im bisexual but most of all Im Sad….. im bullied………………… alot i cant stand people because they are half of the reason im sad cause they make mean comments or do mean things they say really hurtful things and think that there comment wont hurt anyone but little do they know is the people around them might get offendedÂ but what do they care anyway………..

2/18/2013 5 comments

I don’t wanna wait…

by fallenangel33 2/18/2013

written by fallenangel33

Would they miss me if I left forever?
Why don’t they care?
Why do they laugh at me?
Why do they judge me?
Why does my past define me?
Why can’t I look past these scars?
Why do I cut?
Why don’t I belong?
Why can’t I be loved?
Why isn’t anyone stopping me?
Why am I still here?

I don’t wanna wait anymore.

2/18/2013 3 comments

Ugly.

by fallenangel33 2/18/2013

written by fallenangel33

Don’t lie to me telling me I’m pretty, don’t tell me it’s gonna be okay. The only thing stopping me from it is how I’m gonna do it. But don’t mind me. I know you don’t care. Because every time I tried to reach out and talk you shut me down and told me to stop talking about this shit. I apologize. Soon you won’t have to worry about this. 15 years, I made it 15 years, alone, abandoned and rejected. Nothing but a disappointment. I don’t belong anywhere. I don’t know what love feels like. I don’t know what it’s like to be wanted. […]

2/18/2013 16 comments

Everyone has a reason to hold on

by mysmilecoversalot :) 2/17/2013

written by mysmilecoversalot :)

Every 56 days, I donate blood to the American Red Cross. Iâ€™m 17 and Iâ€™ve done this ever since I was eligible, thereâ€™s something amazing about it, itâ€™s the simplest thing, yet it saves up to 3 lives each time. At first it didnâ€™t seem like much, but after donating 5 times I got a phone call thanking me for saving the lives of 15 people throughout my county. I canâ€™t put into words the feeling I get knowing that as long as I stay alive, the more lives I can save. Last March I was going through a really rough time, the only thing […]

2/17/2013 4 comments

I just want to say thanks

by Loser 2/17/2013

written by Loser

If it wasn’t for this website, Im sure i would have flipped… I still want to end my life.. but you guys… you guys made me want to live for a little longer. Im going to try and live that little longer… 🙂
I am a loser.. i can handle it
I have problems, Its going to take time to slove them
Just put on a smile for a show
Make them dance
Thanks Suicide Project
Im 12 and i dont hate my life as much anymore

2/17/2013 7 comments

by MichelleJ 2/17/2013

written by MichelleJ

http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/jppeters

I’ve read this journal for years. I want to show God how unhappy I am for taking this amazing little child too early. If God doesn’t want us to be greedy, why is he greedy for the death of children? But no it’s ok. I’m doing fine. I have a guide dog and all I want. Life is fine. I’lljust pretend that death feels ok, I’ll pretend not to grieve, while inside I’m sick of hearing about people dying after fighting for their lives for years. It’s a pity this kid had a life-saving surgery, only to die of influenza because God didn’t want him […]

2/17/2013 2 comments

I have nobody, I have nothing left to go on

by alinsanity 2/16/2013

written by alinsanity

I’m so tired of crying myself to sleep every night. I wake up in the morning crying. When I actually make it into work I fight back the tears until I can no longer take it, at which point I go cry in the bathroom. I’m in college and when I’m at school I managed to keep it together as far as not crying but I don’t hear anything the teacher’s saying. My mind is a clouded mess. I can’t focus on anything school related. All I can focus on is holding the tears back or all the thoughts that are constantly bombarding my mind. […]

2/16/2013 2 comments

Maybe my destiny is suicide

by mysmilecoversalot :) 2/16/2013

written by mysmilecoversalot :)

Do you ever feel like maybe your purpose in life is truly to kill yourself? I honestly feel that way all the time. I trust God with all my heart and I believe that I have a purpose, but I also have this underlying feeling that my destiny is suicide.

Itâ€™s kind of crazy, not that any of you know me, but if you did, I would be the last one youâ€™d pick to write the above statement. A few people do know about my anxiety and eating disorders, but even they would never suspect suicide. Thereâ€™s those people, dark and mysterious, that you know […]

2/16/2013 4 comments

affects of suicide

by vlee 2/15/2013

written by vlee

I stumbled on this site looking for stories like mine i was devasted to find ppl contemplating suicide. i lost my fiance to suicide 8 mnths ago we were together 9yrs and soulmates I’m now 25yrs old and left to raise our 6yr old daughter alone i watch her cry for her dad every night as do i. i canot express or explain the pain i feel it is unbearable and to watch your daughters pain wile dealing with your own is enough to make u insaine. loosing a loved one to suicide is da worst way possible you are left with feelings of not […]

2/15/2013 7 comments

First Post

by nightgirl 2/14/2013

written by nightgirl

So I’ve been thinking about doing it (suicide). All day, every day, every year. And the only thing that’s really stopping me is fear of hell.

Is hell real?

I just can’t risk going to a place where I’ll suffer MORE than I’m already suffering now.

What do you guys think, is there a hell? If you commit suicide, do you go to it? Or do you just stop feeling anything… like before you were born, complete noexistance of the mind body and soul?

and don’t worry, your answers are not going to make me do it.

2/14/2013 10 comments

till death do me part

by devon 2/14/2013

written by devon

Hi my full name is not that important right now but I will be revealing it on a later post..

So this is my story..I’m a writer a very good one if I may say so myself and I “was” quite clever to, although I had a average life growing up with both parents and a grandparents who love me and spoiled me in every way possible growing up in the new South Africa..so if you asking yourself why am i here writing this post on this “suicide project” if I had such a good child hood..thing is life was never good to me..truth is the […]

2/14/2013 0 comment

by frustrated 2/14/2013

written by frustrated

I am frustrated because, the methods I think of to try suicide don’t work or I don’t know how to do. Â Also I am stuck at home so I would have to pay for a hotel, and a lot of methods wouldn’t work well in a hotel. Â Like hanging is one that seems could work but, I don’t see how that would be possible in a hotel room. Â I’m just so mad that the method I looked at wasn’t very reliable the more I read, because I had a sense of relief when I thought that would be the one. Â I’m just so mad that […]

2/14/2013 2 comments

I’ve lost all of my hope…

by Engeltje 2/12/2013

written by Engeltje

All my hope is gone… The little bit hope I had is gone. I really don’t think my life is ever going to be better. I’m fighting for more than 12 years now to get a better life where I can be real happy with, not fake happy. But in those 12 years, my life only got worse and worse… People say that when life is really terrible, it only could go better. Well, NO, it only can get worser!! (At least in my life) I wish I wasn’t on this earth anymore. I just want to die…. But I’m under controle right now. I […]

2/12/2013 3 comments

PHP

by Stillhere4now 2/12/2013

written by Stillhere4now

Feb. 8th I tried to kill myself. I have never attempted anything like this before, but God knows I have been thinking about it for way too long. I was down stairs doing some practice cuts on my wrist, just to see how hard I needed to press and figure the whole mess out. The first cut was quite demeaning. I think one drop fell out, so I tried again in a new spot, harder this time. This time I got a good amount to come out. As I was getting ready to go even deeper and harder I dropped the razor blade and it […]

2/12/2013 2 comments

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