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I’m done with life

by N0Futur3 3/14/2016

written by N0Futur3

I’ve reached the very end upon which I will endure this existence. Preparations all set…… Going to end it with a drink. I’m done with this shitty world, i’m done dealing with parasitic, materialistic, deceptive people. I’m done dealing with “family” that lies, steals, and treats me like shit. Love does not exist in this ugly, putrid, infected world of racists, murderers, politicians, corruption, prostitutes, and abominations.
I rather be dead then live with the likes of you…. You who see the light in this world are the real freaks, psychopaths, and ones who need help. “chill out, think about the positive” that’s a pitiful […]

3/14/2016 24 comments

The deep end

by DaylightFades 3/14/2016

written by DaylightFades

I jumped into the deep end,

(first my head and then my feet)

I’m drowning in the water;

I’ve fallen in too deep.

I’m drowning in this bed,

and I’m drowning in these sheets,

my hope was once my life vest,

now I’m sinking in my sleep.

They say “Seek Salvation”

but I haven’t found it yet,

I inhale and I exhale-

I’m still struggling for breath.

I’m running out of oxygen,

I’m running out of air

I’m at war with the world,

but the world’s not fighting fair

3/14/2016 3 comments

Suicide project 2013-2015

by darkwillow 3/14/2016

written by darkwillow

I’ve been on this site for 4-5 years. When i was more active in the community, these are the people who meant the most to me. Please let me know if you reconize or know any of these members. It would make my day.

No one remember Klaurens I’m sure. But exhausted24 was the coolest person ever. I still have the emails from kallie’s family after she died. Dawg and AtTheEnd, and Duke were everywhere. Every single post, they would comment on. There’s this annie girl that showed me this site. She’s always meant the world to me. I know pasceltrees is never going to see this, […]

3/14/2016 31 comments

Note or no note

by struggling_to_survive 3/14/2016

written by struggling_to_survive

I want to die and the urge is so unbearably strong. Right now, I don’t know whether to leave a note, I have no idea what to write and I’m thinking whether it’s okay to just leave the world without a note. I don’t want people who care (if any) to hurt anymore than they should trying to cope with the loss.

3/14/2016 8 comments

a real reason to die

by bnwB 3/13/2016

written by bnwB

I don’t know..

Are all my problems enough?
Is it enough to die?
Perhaps I’m just a young naive girl, in her depressed years, before she’s a woman. Think she’s the only person and her problems would change the world.

I don’t know.

There a so many people, with so many problems. I don’t know them all. Perhaps their life is much harder, than my life it is and they still alive.
What is a real reason, to kill yourself?

Are my problems enough to die?

I don’t know.

3/13/2016 2 comments

I’m Crashing…

by Ylem 3/12/2016

written by Ylem

I’m crashing…

I knew this would happen. The whole week I’ve been too busy, my mind too preoccupied with school work to dwell on the pain. Now, it’s the weekend and I have all the time in the world to feel the pain. I feel like the walls are caving in on me. I hate this feeling. I thought I was starting to get over it, but I’m far from being cured from this. This is who I am. An empty shell. An empty void. I’m just empty. Nothing. I feel absolutely nothing. There is no need for pretense when I’m alone. There is no need […]

3/12/2016 34 comments

Random Thoughts on Everything and Nothing at all

by chelle428 3/12/2016

written by chelle428

I don’t really know have much of a direction for this post in my head, no horrid incident or crazy profound thoughts, just stuff that runs through my head.

Do you ever wake up and you feel so empty? Not even like sad or upset over anything in particular. You just feel like nothing at all, you just feel so tried that you don’t even know how you’re standing. That’s how I’ve been waking up a lot lately.

I feel like everyone has something they’re good at, something they’re smart about or something they have a passion for. I don’t enjoy anything, I don’t have a talent […]

3/12/2016 9 comments

Paradox

by ashley68@q.com 3/12/2016

written by ashley68@q.com

It seems an interesting paradox that people who kill themselves did not choose suicide.
I say this because anyone who is at the end is only there because they feel that there are no other options. At any moment if someone came along and proffered a better alternative, the person would choose life.
Life does not have to stop here, and it does not have to stop today. Alternatives exist, one merely has to turn around.
When one door closes people often stare so long that they miss the doors that have opened behind them. These are similar to the wise words of Helen Keller, […]

3/12/2016 2 comments

The only reason I ever had to live

by disgusting 3/11/2016

written by disgusting

My cats….

Let me tell their stories…
Top row:
1. Heidi – she was my grandma’s cat, which made me want to get a cat. She passed away a good long time before any of mine did.
2. Salem – my first baby. 3/1/98-11/5/11. She passed away from FIP.
-skipping ahead for a reason-
5. Gypsy – my 4th baby. 7/25/03-3/3/12. She passed away after eating a cat toy, having surgery to remove it, and then getting a blood infection. She was only 8.

3/11/2016 12 comments

Gas station from hell..

by cstar4004 3/10/2016

written by cstar4004

I’ve been working a dead end job in a tiny racist town, known for being religious nutjobs, rednecks and KKK members. I could just end my story there and it would make sense, but im not done ranting.

My boss hired me under the table, so i do not pay taxes and cannot use my job on my resumee to find a new job. I pump gas 37.5 hours a week. There is no room for promotions or raises, i make minumum wage and forever will. My co-worker makes more than me, and works the exact same hours and the exact same job title. Ive been here […]

3/10/2016 13 comments

how’s everyone

by Drowning 3/10/2016

written by Drowning

Why can’t life be simple why do we have to go though so much pain and suffering why is the world such a horrible place what is our purpose for being here I didn’t ask to be born so why must I ask to leave with out feeling guilty

i envy the people born into a happy homes loving family money etc I think they get the best chance of life wile the rest start from the ground up but how can you start building if u haven’t even got a fucking dream or no were to start ?

but that’s just me how’s everyone

3/10/2016 2 comments

I dont think life sucks, I think my life does

by blank-clutter 3/9/2016

written by blank-clutter

First off Im not saying that people here should be out there enjoying life, if they can great.

What I am saying is that in my mind, I have come to realize more and more that there isnt much wrong with the world, I just cant enjoy it.

There are people out there with good friends that they can connect with, or even the strangers that they meet. They can be creative and set goals, be satisfied with what they accomplish and fine with what they dont.

I dont think I can.

I am a mess of emotions and wrong thoughts. A sadist that sucks at life. If I […]

3/9/2016 1 comment

by NicoleK 3/9/2016

written by NicoleK

I feel such a burden for the things going on in the world, in the US, in my community, in my family, in my church, in my own mind. I no longer feel capable of carrying it. It’s ripping me inside out. I can’t take the pressure or the pain. It’s all around me and inside of me. I can’t ignore it, but I can’t bear it either. This dread is eroding my spirit.

3/9/2016 2 comments

I am a complete disaster today

by claritee 3/8/2016

written by claritee

I woke up completely unhappy and lonely. I tried to take a shower, turned on the water and just collapsed into the corner. I was annoyed at myself afterward for leaving the water running, such a waste of water. I was in the corner for like an hour.

I don’t understand why I have to be this way! I walked into the kitchen afterward… and seen knives and had every desire in the world to end it right then and there. I ran to my bedroom and just got under the covers. I finally got strength from somewhere and started feeling a bit better, but I […]

3/8/2016 5 comments

What if..

by Procel 3/8/2016

written by Procel

What if, we are all angels, mischievous angels, and indeed bad angels punished by God? at the beginning Lucifer lead the revolt against god to over throw him and take over right? Well what if, when God won and cast all the angels who sided against him out of heaven they landed on earth, striped of their powers and wings, and their memories of heaven removed and thus started humans? and the really bad angels, such as Lucifer and his Dukes were sent down further to hell. Now God being merciful gave the angels a chance at redemption and those who live a good life […]

3/8/2016 3 comments

Clarity

by claritee 3/6/2016

written by claritee

I finally realized that I’m depressed; and death enters my mind like a lost cat tiptoeing in my mind, giving a small purr. I’ve never been good at life. It feels like a job. Even when I was young, I wished for death. It’s strange hoping to die when you’re 10 years old.

I read Anne Sexton’s poetry all of the time, like they’re my words:

“Even then I have nothing against life. I know well the grass blades you mention, the furniture you have placed under the sun. But suicides have a special language. Like carpenters they want to know which tools. They never ask why […]

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3/6/2016 1 comment

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Ending it tonight. Life doesn’t get better.

by N0Futur3 3/4/2016

written by N0Futur3

Wished I ended it that first night I joined. Life doesn’t get better, it’s just a lie. Funny how people say suicide is selfish, what is selfish is them expecting someone to continue living a life of pain because they want them to. You say family, friends, community get hurt… Fuck them they don’t give a shit about me. No matter how hard I try, it is not good enough in their eyes. We live in a fucked up society and world, fake people smiling…. They are the ones who need real help. I’m done….. I’m done living this fucked up life in this fucked […]

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3/4/2016 37 comments

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by Costy 3/3/2016

written by Costy

My name is Costy. And I am shit. Do you know what shit is? It is Costy. Costy just dosen’t understand life.It is a miracle? or just an accident? Whatever it is , it dosen’t have any application in our daily lives…I guess that the major cause for my downfall was nihilism, even if I would have everything in the world..we are going to die anyway. What is there for us? Nothing or maybe “something”. I don’t want to get old..

I have so many fucking toughts in my head. Why do I exist? I just want peace.

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3/3/2016 7 comments

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Our society wants to have its cake and eat it too

by blank-clutter 3/1/2016

written by blank-clutter

This has been on my mind recently and I think it’s the reason why there is so much mental health issues in the world. I think our society wants to keep its nasty habits and yet still have no issues.

Like one obvious example is that it wants to blast us with models and perfect bodies and yet it doesn’t want people to have bad self imagine. It wants to load the movies, music and media with dark themes yet it wants no violence. It offers and encourages addictive behaviour at every corner yet it doesn’t want addicts. It fights all the bad outcomes with “awareness” […]

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3/1/2016 1 comment

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by Drowning 3/1/2016

written by Drowning

I think that time is coming soon to try again iv had enough of being depressed battling to survive everyday simple life situations seem so differcult to handle watching the world move on wile I’m suck watching everyone building their lives and mine falling apart what kind of life is this struggling and suffering everyday If there is a god why dose he make us suffer so much and push me to the edge were I want to end it all I don’t I don’t understand I’m not sure how long I can stand on this edge without jumping

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3/1/2016 11 comments

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