When you come to think of those hard times you’ve been through you would think that you wouldn’t want it to happen again. Even though i have a boyfriend I know that i can’t lean on him when i’m upset or depressed because whats the point in bringing him down as well as myself… there is no point just because i have a fucked up life doesn’t mean i should fuck up anyone else’s and even though it pains me to write on here expressing my feelings i know that others have been feeling the same way as i have been and still am. Don’t […]
I used to be a very cheerful girl until the day I transferred to a new school. I thought people would accept me if I came here. I mean like this place isn’t my hometown neither is it my home country.
On my first day to this school, I introduced myself with hesitation and nervousness. At the break time, it felt like as if I was already accepted. But I thought way too fast and got it wrong. I was verbally bullied on my first day. I was talked about around the class for that time. But then soon enough they ‘befriended’ […]
Me, myself was a very unfortuante person because I wasn’t the most popular girl in school, however when leaving school I was the most popular girl there and everyone wanted to be like me or be dating me. Yet when I was wishing to be like the popular kids I didnt realise how much they hated it, when I started being popular I loved it but I found out that I was missing the real me, I was like what people call a *****. Yet those wasn’t my intentions, however I don’t live in regret because I don’t regret anything in my life and this […]
I know I’m not pretty because many guys have left me for other women. My former fiancee constantly contacted prostitutes and denied it, posted pictures of his body parts online and to other women, and told me it wasn’t him. I’m being treated like I’m stupid. My boyfriend just said that I take credit for other peoples’ work, but he also told me I was fat. He talks about other girls’ butts and how smart they are, but whenever he says anything about me, I feel that it is fake. I’ve never done anything to deserve being loved in this life. Everyone else is married […]
life or something like that hey. Here we all are trying to …what exactly? humans are an incredible virus intent only to breed and feel . To feed off of selflessness in this poetic insanity. In all forms our humanity is formless. A virus intent with the production of destruction in a sick sad little world survived only by the fittest , the devils den . Welcome to the hell that is the human condition , frought with the distraction in every form. A narcissistic wounderland . The collective human experience ,so far beyond sodom and gomorrah.
I can think of no other animal so equally creative and […]
Hello guys 🙂 I just want to say that I am over with depression and that I believe that is something out there.I recovered my faith again. It’s impossible that a hardcore suicidal guy like I was to recover so quickly. God exists and it’s never too late. And I am not keeping this only for myself.
God dosen’t encourage laziness and dissapointment, you need to get up there and fight whatever the conditions are. God encourages work and being helpful with eachother.
So, go out there, get a job, pray, find a gf or a bf and you’ll see that everything will be allright. I am […]
fukk me you beautiful ***** — my darkness
i hate the organization im working for. i hate giving away my money to these fuckin organizations that cant be trusted. why i would i want to do that and get other people to do it. these organizations swindle so many people out of cash and there are so many looking for hand outs. its fucking annoying. its so true like we should take care of our […]
I wonder… I long for death.. and would welcome.it if it came so that it was not my who does the deed.. nor would I die without a struggle to go on.. this is in me. As I have proven for the last two years. I showed it with staying with the person who crushes me.. the person who took my sanitty.. or at least that what was left of it.
Some if if was taken by my family but at the age of 26 I was over it.. I mean it helped to meet her… The person who I wanted to marry. Cute, beautiful, sexy […]
Sometimes i wanted to end up this socalled life, sometimes im so scared about death, about the hell we sorta know less about.
and every night, like EVERY NIGHT, when i think about loads of worries, and all those problems of the years ive been thru i feel like shit, i dont know but i think its the uncertainty, which scares most humans, i dont know what am i doing tomorrow, my hearts pounding so loud, yet sorry not fast, thats the point which scared me like hell, i thought id die every single night, freaking creepy and i wont even kno im dead the other […]
In last domain, like breaking my leg
Was it the smell of the soy-sauce
Like burning plastic
Never, touch me
Weezing and the Muk
The benign in self-destruct
A peasant from thousands of years ago
Had it better
How can I quit, and press start
Maybe I should of tried to be in Africa
Darn, what do you think
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Hi im an introvert and i dont like people. im blunt and not very compassionate especially towards myself. I dont like myself and I dont know why. Ive cut before and have hurt others who dont understand what it is like to be me. I do care but i act like i dont. I feel alone even though i know i have people who love me. I dont know if others feel this way. Theres a lot of things that have hapend throughout my life people dont seem to understand. They think its a phase or just a way of acting out. Im talking to […]
Hi… this is my first post… I’m really young and stupid, but, I’m not interested in telling anyone my real age.
I had a few suicide attempts now, which I had no courage to continue. Yes, yes, suiciding is the coward’s way out, escaping and running away from your problems. But, it’s not as easy as you think it is. Well, I stopped those suicide attempts because I still care for the people around me… I was thinking, “What if they blame themselves because I killed myself? What if they think that its entirely their fault and choise to ruin their lives as well?” I know, […]
Just when you think it can’t possibly get any worse
my cousin died last night – motorcycle accident
RIP Mark
I think about killing myself every single day, and I don’t think it’s gonna go away. I think about where I would do it, how I would do it, and who is even worth leaving my last few words for. I just don’t think I’ll make it passed high school anymore, I will be dead by then. And the thing is, I’m okay with that.
If my friends and family woke up one day and found out that I killed myself. Would they care? I don’t feel like they would honestly.
Hey guys,
I have been suicidal for about 4 months now. And i have been cutting for the past one month.
It all started with this girl, who i liked but who didnt even think of me as a friend, and she had and still has a boyfriend. I started feeling useless and i talked to her, got to know her, i fell for her harder and i feel like shit all the time.
i dont have many friends, and it doesn’t help. I cant talk to my parents about this.
More importantly, i am in +2 rn, so college from next year. And i have practically stopped studying […]
Hey guys, I just thought of something random and was wondering if you’d like to join in:
QUESTIONS:
1) describe the nature of your mood, whether it be miserable or ecstatic
2) describe what you think is going to happen to you, and then what you want to happen to you
I’ll start:
1) I don’t even know if I have a ‘mood’ anymore. I think my subconscious has virtually blocked all emotions in order to protect my conscious mind from telling me to skip off a bridge. I have skeletons in my closet that I simply cannot banish from existence, and the demons that emanate from them grow daily; […]
Do you ever hear people say, “It’s okay. It’ll all get better.” Or “It’s only temporary.” And “Stay Strong.”
I’ve heard those phrases so many times in my life, it never really motivates me at all to keep going. Honestly, I feel like people only say that, just because they don’t have anything else to say that’ll actually make a difference. I’m glad I’ve found this website because, writing how I feel is far better than telling a “friend” how I feel. I’m about to be a Junior in high school and sometime during my Sophmore year, I texted a friend that I’ve known for 4 […]
I have a lot of time on my hands almost everyday and it gives my mind a lot of room to think. What I ask myself most often is if I honestly matter? Do I even have a pirpose in life? And if so, why does it seem like my purpoae is to only cause people pain. I don’t matter to anyone, they all just act like they care so they can get something out of it. I am sick of this. What do I do besides leave everything behind?
I really hate to burden people with my problems, but I need some serious advice on what to do.
I’ll start with the first of two things I am going to cover in this. A few weeks ago, I went to the school nurse and I got diagnosed with severe anxiety. They said that they were going to get CAMHS involved. However, I seriously think I have depression as well, as I seriously feel as though everyone would be better off without me and that I’m just a burden to everyone.
I also think about killing myself everyday, and think of various ways to do so. However, […]
I’ve never posted anything about my depression online for everyone to see. Hell, I’ve never even told anyone about it for fear they’ll look at me differently. Anyway, here goes. I’m eighteen years old and there’s not a day that goes by I don’t think of killing myself. The worst part is, there’s not just one reason or a specific traumatic event I can blame it on. Honestly, my issues don’t seem half as bad as the majority and I know I should be thankful and appreciative but I can’t. I’m just sad. All the fucking time. I used to think it was because my […]