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Am I selfish if I want to die?

by MySelfIsAfterMe 5/17/2015

written by MySelfIsAfterMe

It makes me very sad thinking about dying, but it makes me even more sad thinking about carry on surviving this life day after day… I can’t deal anymore with this pain, pain for the things I lost (my love, my family, my self esteem, my happiness) and pain for the regret that it was all my fault. It was all my fault and I could have avoided it easily. I am just weak and unwise.

The things that is stopping me from ending this agony are the consequences for those who will stay. How can I do something like that to my family? I already […]

5/17/2015 3 comments

Just a Thought

by rich51bruhh 5/17/2015

written by rich51bruhh

So today I attended my sibling’s graduation ceremony and, for some reason, the thought of my future has never seemed to be… true. Whenever I imagine myself after high school, I literally cannot see myself being a college student, or living on my own, or having job, or even being homeless. It’s all blank. It makes me think that I will probably have gone through with my plans before high school even finishes. As I was thinking this during my sibling’s graduation, I looked up to the gloomy sky and thought, “Today is a beautiful day to die.”

5/17/2015 8 comments

by sleeplessinSTL 5/16/2015

written by sleeplessinSTL

I’m forgetting him. I don’t remember what he sounded like without listening to a video. I have a faint memory of it, but it’s fleeting. I honestly think I’m going to forget him completely. I can’t do that. I mss him and I can’t stand the fact that I’m never going to see him again. I’ll never see that cute little crinkle in his nose or his weirdly thick eyelashes. His fucking blonde hair and his stupid fucking face. I wish I could feel something. I can’t tell if I’m mad at him or if I’m sad or if im just fuckedd up. He left […]

5/16/2015 15 comments

have you ever

by hiitsme0819 5/16/2015

written by hiitsme0819

have you ever hated someone so much that you wanted nothing more than to watch them die a slow and horrible death…

have you ever felt like there was no reason to let that person continue to live…

have you ever thought that maybe that person deserves to die…

have you ever hated yourself?

5/16/2015 5 comments

No Will to Live: Part 1

by QuietlyBleeding 5/16/2015

written by QuietlyBleeding

Hello there. Wanna hear a story? Well let’s take a look inside my head shall we? This story will consist of different parts and depending on how much i feel like typing, that’s how much of the story that will be posted. Anywho, let’s continue. Once upon a time there was a man who went by the name of Rodney. Rodney was addicted to cocaine. Rodney found a woman who was also addicted by the name of Renita. The two have a child and abandon that child to die. This child’s name is Isaiah. Growing up, Isaiah’s word was never believed. He would tell the […]

5/16/2015 0 comment

3rd attempt. How to stop?

by I_just_want_2Bhappy 5/16/2015

written by I_just_want_2Bhappy

I’m currently in a partial hospitalization program after half-hearted attempt number 3. Counseling seems to be triggering a lot and I feel worse. I suffer from depression, PTSD, am a victim of abuse, abandonment and neglect. Been in therapy for years. It’s not that I want to die (at my worst I do), it’s that I have no will to live. Does anyone else feel that way?

I want to be happy again. I want to stop the daily thoughts to kill myself. I’m on meds, I’m in intensive therapy, I like my psychiatrist but need a new therapist. My cousin is doing ECT, but I […]

5/16/2015 8 comments

My birthday is in two weeks. I would like to kill myself then.

by MySelfIsAfterMe 5/15/2015

written by MySelfIsAfterMe

I’m already dead inside.

I screwed my life beyond repair, and all of it for no valid reasons. All because of anxiety that got me and the depression that came after. I gave up my life and I cannot take it back. I cannot live in the “what’s left of my life” while facing everyday the “how bright my life would have been if I didn’t screwed it all up”. It’s just too painful and it drains my motivation away. I don’t like myself anymore and I think it doesn’t worth to live like this.

I didn’t commit suicide yet because I am afraid of the consequences […]

5/15/2015 4 comments

Please help me help this person

by SarahDe 5/14/2015

written by SarahDe

I already posted this before, but I think I need more support.

A person using the name Earthly Constraints on this website says it is inevitable that she is going to commit suicide. Her post is here: http://suicideproject.org/2015/05/the-inevitable/

Please write something, anything, to show that we are concerned for her. Earthly Constraints, I wrote this to some other people, but here: Love this […]

5/14/2015 1 comment

It’s all just a game.

by justanothergirl09 5/13/2015

written by justanothergirl09

When you feel alone.

Those are the moments when your demons take over your mind.

In those moments suicidal thoughts start circling around your head.

Trying to trick you into playing the game.

A game that once you start playing you won’t be able to quit.

And the only way you’ll get out is being dead.

Because in the end that’s what the demons want from you.

To die and never come back.

Because if we come back they will haunt us again and again nonstop.

Because they want to get rid of us.

After all, that’s what demons do for a living.

5/13/2015 3 comments

I’m can’t anymore

by BeautifulCalamity 5/11/2015

written by BeautifulCalamity

I’m sorry I just can’t do this anymore. I’m done with hope. I’m done with everything. I’ve lost everything and there is nothing left for me. I don’t want to live anymore. And there is no use for me anyway. Nobody will change my mind. I’ve already chosen what to do. I can’t even cry anymore. I’m not scared to die anymore. I am 100% sure of what I should do. And nobody will ever change my mind. This life is hell. And I don’t want to deal with it anymore. I will be free and so happy. And so will everybody else.

This is not […]

5/11/2015 5 comments

Three

by the-lord-of-the-lamps 5/10/2015

written by the-lord-of-the-lamps

I told myself I wasn’t going to post here until I started my short story, but I found an old journal of mine and felt like I should post anyway. I was flipping through it and I was kind of startled at how much I wanted to die. Not because I’m better, but because I have made absolutely no progress. If anything, I’ve gotten worse. I’m more isolated now. I feel things less. I’ve lost any bit of hope I had before.

Damn, usually when I see these types of things, people always say how much better they are, and I’m jealous. I don’t want to […]

5/10/2015 4 comments

I crawl into myself

by cephalus 5/10/2015

written by cephalus

I crawl into myself.
No-one notices, half surprised
Each wrapped up in oneself
After-all, aren’t we all disguised?

Ever hiding
Ever redirecting
Everything sliding
Barely suspecting

Embodied detachment
Am I a person anymore?
Tears fall in the catchment

—
But what can you do
You have no one
No one able to handle your words
Let alone your feelings

So you crawl inside
Unsure why death seems so appealing
Yet the only thing you are sure of, is how much you want to die
You don’t want to run, to leave everything behind.

5/10/2015 0 comment

i’m just scared…

by itstimetogo2015 5/8/2015

written by itstimetogo2015

After years of searching without and within – I’ve decided that the best decision I can make for myself is to die now instead of later.

I’m scared to die because I’ve never died before; however, I refuse to stay and am terrified more of staying here – miserable for no reason at all. I’ve spent 3 years coming to this conclusion, asking questions, researching, you name it. I’ve had 30 years of sheer misery.. it’s time to go and this isn’t an act of desperation. At least I don’t believe it is. I’ll know on the other side. Since we all fail (daily for me), […]

5/8/2015 5 comments

He left an empty shell of me

by melancholysarah 5/7/2015

written by melancholysarah

Two years ago I was almost strangled to death by my boyfriend. I have never been the same since that night. I hate myself I hate myself so much I just want to die and I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I’m not me

5/7/2015 5 comments

to be honest with myself

by Exultat 5/5/2015

written by Exultat

Being honest with my self, I feel suicidal, I constantly have toughs about killing myself and ending this misery once and for all.But I really don’t want to die, I just want to live without the constant overwhelming feeling of not having energy, being tired all the time, not seeing a good future, feeling alone even with lots of people around me and having this thing called asperger syndrome that makes me feel horrible when I try to socialize or establish relationships. Or perhaps its true I just don´t belong here and must end all of this as quick and painless as possible.

5/5/2015 5 comments

Lost

by Sammie 5/5/2015

written by Sammie

I like to consider myself recovered. However sometimes I still have the thought of suicide enter my brain. It catches me off guard. Sometimes I want to act on it. I don’t exactly want to die. I have a lot I will be leaving behind. I am so tempted to cut though. I crave it actually. I can’t because I’ll get caught by my boyfriend. He will see the cuts and I can’t stop him from seeing them. I want to cut and I hate that I do. I don’t want to get locked up again. Sometime I wonder if I do this all for […]

5/5/2015 1 comment

Lost New Girl

by Lostreadergirl 5/5/2015

written by Lostreadergirl

I am the outcast. I always feel like no one will notice if I am gone. When I go to high school I feel so trapped then I go home and I feel extremely alone. I never feel like I belong anywhere. There are moments where I came so close to committing suicide just I get scared. I get scared because what if I do it and it isn’t any better on the other side what if I am even more alone. My family life just is terrible and my school life is so much worse. I have to pretend to be someone I am […]

5/5/2015 2 comments

help me my love

by sadsadist 5/4/2015

written by sadsadist

I wish she could tell me that I can die id die a million deaths for her that statement would be met quickly with my death then she could go on with her horrible boyfriend and have a family I’d stop hurting and annoying people my thoughts and actions are unforgivable even if she left him my future with her wouldn’t be good enough I’d hold her back all I ever wanted in my life was the marines to die in battle she changed that but I’m not certified for shit I have no intention going to college I’ll just hold her back she deserves […]

5/4/2015 3 comments

I want to kill myself.

by Astley 5/3/2015

written by Astley

I seriously want to kill myself. More than anything. I said last night that I don’t think I deserved to live and his response was “Who are you to judge who lives and who dies”. Surprisingly that may have just proved how useless I really am. I am much more of a burden than I am worth. I hate myself. I hate the way I look. I hate the way I speak. I hate my unbreakable habits. I wish that at the very least I could cut deep enough to seem legit, but all I am is a superficial, self absorbed, burden on the earth. […]

5/3/2015 7 comments

death plan?

by zekabear123 5/3/2015

written by zekabear123

I’ve been depressed for a while, and it’s been an up and down thing. Lately, I’ve been extremely stressed, and I’ve been on edge,. My boyfriend is depressive and schizophrenic and has been on edge along with most of the people in my environment. Long story short, after a few sequences of inconvenient events, I’ve decided I want to kill myself. And not in a sporatic depressive episode, but in a more organized form. The only thing holding me back is that I was told that If I killed myself, my other would too and I couldn’t stand that. Although it on occasion becomes my […]

5/3/2015 6 comments

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