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I’m a human . No other specifications needed . But I’m a bit different , then again I’m not. I’m classified as well, bipolar, suicidal and I tend to have hallucinated like things which im not sure if it’s the isolation. Any who , I just wanna know how you guys do it . How you “power through” for so long . It’s really amazing , I know a lot of my friends with similar issues but . Is it really just switching off the sadness because I never quite understood that . And I don’t tell people my problems right now my best […]
Need to vent. Try and puke this stuff up on the page (sorry).
I have Bipolar 1, and I have it bad. It’s ruined my life. While manic I did so many crazy and awful things.
When criminals are tried, if a doctor says they were ‘of unsound mind’ that can be a defence.
I have no such defence. Nobody ain’t defending me, and I can’t defend myself.
I brought a child into the world under these regrettable circumstances.
He now, understandably, hates me.
I distract myself continually. I can’t let myself dwell on the past, present or future.
Long time since I posted here. I came back.
Putting my hopes in somehow […]
My best friend (were both girls) this weekend kissed me. We both like each other a lot. And we know about it. But i just told her lets not do it again Because i don’t wanna ruin our friendship. I just ruined it though by telling her shes mad at me now. Its hurts a lot. I ruined our friendship, I ruined it. Shes the best thing that’s ever happened to me. But she deserves better. I want to go to sleep and never wake up. No one will ever be able to love me. Â I push everyone away. I’m a terrible person. Her heart […]
If anyone can help me get grand canyon or any deserted place like an isle unhabitated or desert  just leave me there i wanna sit and wait to die … or even the amazon .. i don’t have places like this in my country..
the past few days have just been the worst I am seriously in so much emotional and mental pain. I havent ever felt more empty or hopeless than I do now and sometimes I just wanna say fuck it and grab my fucken gun and just try to end it and hope that i’ll be lucky enough to die. I swear it feels like a shitload of misery and sadness and hopelessness just fell out of the sky and landed right on me. I feel so alone right now so empty i’m sitting here just bawling me eyes out and I can’t stop I just […]
I never asked to be here, nor did I ask to be a burden. You can only give so much of yourself before nothing left. I cant scream or clinch my fists anymore, you wanna talk bout it no one listens, or cares think its a joke. They say theirs light at the end of the tunnel but always stuck in reverse. Maybe finally get the balls to eat the bullet until then more waiting and wondering…
Sometime I just wanna kill myself but people are in my way and I cant do anything but I really don’t want to live anymore here,i hate the fact that everyone talks behind my back and they were the ones I thought are always their for me.And it hurts a lot like I really don’t wanna be here .
all I wanna do is let go…
I just can’t keep going, but there is one person…
if I die…
she probably wouldn’t handle it at all…
why couldn’t she have walked away…
just like everyone else?
I have fucking everything
I wear namebrand makeup
guys who wanna talk to me
decent car,money,looks,young big boobs pathetic ass *****
SERIOUSLY i cant live any longer. i have failed at everything and am too weak of a person to pick myself up, and im too weak to kill myself.
i never delayed gratification growing up just always drowned my pain in smoking pot.
i craved adventure and always seeked for more, till one day in highschool my depression kicked in.
my time has come for me to go. i’ve contemplated hanging, and jumping in front of a train, no. i cant do it.
if we’re gonna die , might as well make it worthwhile.
so the question is, is there anybody serious out there ? anybody in the state of […]
Someone help me understand why I continue to do everything in my power to make a man happy? Four years, and a child later and I’m still a wreck. The good days make me feel powerful, confident, loved. But those good days only come a few times a month. All I ask is for respect, loyalty, attention. I give you all you need, plus some. I don’t wanna feel terrible every day. But I don’t know life without you. What am I supposed to do with myself? I love you so much, but I want to love myself more.
Hey everyone,
I’m new to this “posting” online to strangers but I guess we’re not since we all have something in common. Which is suicide. Recently my ex-girl friend left me completely, and she is out of my life forever now…. I fell in love with her again before it happened… torn me up inside really badly. After that happened, I fell into a dark depression and felt suicidal through the months since November 2013. I still am today and the thoughts are coming back. I let go […]
In the world of gaming, especially for the RPGs, you get to erase your character if you fucked up your character build.
I think it’s the same here. I’ve been living wrongly and I don’t see any patch is going to happen to save it so I wanna erase my character.
The only difference is there’s no ‘start new game’ feature here but even if there was, I don’t think I’m willing to start it all over again.
You ask :” Hey how are you?”
and just for once I wish I could just say: ” I’m miserable and I wanna die. Every breath is a challenge! My loneliness is endless and there is this black hole at the bottom of my heart that seems to eat away at my soul” Oh what a load off my chest. JUST FOR ONCE, to be completely honest.
But instead I smile and I say”fine!, how are you?”
which is your cue to tell me all about your wonderful weekend. It is all you wanted anyway. I think even if I tell anyone how i truly feel, they […]
My boyfriend who “loves me” is messaging his ex, saying they are close friends or whatever . Well I don’t like it, it’s not that I don’t trust him, it’s about respect and if theirs no respect in a relationship then theirs no relationship.
It’s not the fact that he can text her a storm and rarely message me throughout the day no, but for him to get upset about my feelings?
He wouldn’t like it of I were to be messaging my Ex, no, no, no he wouldn’t. You know what else he wouldn’t like if my Ex messaged me saying […]
Ok so ik when i say i wanna kill myself.. nobodies gonna say shit because im not important anymore. Nobody fucking cares about me except maybe one person and im loosing her to her boyfriend. She says i have a perfect life and nothing is wrong with it, thats because i dont tell her everything.
I cut myself, so deep i couldnt pay attention to anything but that during school, i cry myself to sleep.. Every night, i never knew my real dad and i got my two foster Brothers taken away from me, my step dad ruins my life, so i was thinking, if […]
you can talk to me on my fake Facebook page if you want : https://www.facebook.com/missholly.grey
Lyrics to song I pretty much jus stayed up all night writing..
Oh and uh.. *All Rights Reserved*? haha.
* Rapped
When was the last time you breathed?
I mean honestly, fully, whole heartedly took a breath?
When was the last time you took a stand?
I mean verbally, viciously, fought for something you believed?
When was the last time you fell in love?
Fell so hard, you found yourself unwilling to even get up?
When was the last time you truly cared?
Thought about somebody else, not the person in the mirror
Self-centered, self-ish, but sophisicated
We pride ourselves in all the wars and the domination
But what’s the point in killing other beings created
Like ourselves? We’re just […]
Just called a suicide hotline.. they guy i talked to .. he just kept saying uh well you need to look at it from a better point of view.
I lost my 2nd oldest brother cause my oldest brother raped me! and you exspect me to look on the bright side. I look at his facebook everyday, hoping to get to know him. I DONT EVEN KNOW MY OWN BROTHER. And i hate it.. i hate it so badly. I only found out last week he’s graduated highschool.. i never knew.. i didnt know..
I miss him so badly, we would stay up reading the hungry catapillar, […]
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