I wish there was a pill that killed me. I just want a way out. But I’m too weak to do it myself. I always think “what about my dog?” Or “how will anyone find me if I kill myself at home?” Those are things I shouldn’t be worried about. Am I truly ready to off myself?
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I’m forgetting him. I don’t remember what he sounded like without listening to a video. I have a faint memory of it, but it’s fleeting. I honestly think I’m going to forget him completely. I can’t do that. I mss him and I can’t stand the fact that I’m never going to see him again. I’ll never see that cute little crinkle in his nose or his weirdly thick eyelashes. His fucking blonde hair and his stupid fucking face. I wish I could feel something. I can’t tell if I’m mad at him or if I’m sad or if im just fuckedd up. He left […]
Because Isaiah had no biological mother or father in his life, his grandparents and aunt claimed legal guardianship. Isaiah fears his legal guardians. Why? Because they gave him a lot of ass whoopings he did not deserve. During his elementary school years, Isaiah is bullied, teased, and harrassed constantly by his classmates and students of higher grades. Isaiah taught himself another skill besides lying. He taught himself how to withdraw himself. You see Isaiah knew that people didn’t want to be bothered with him, so he withdrew himself to reduce the chance of adding to the pain he was already enduring. One of the ways […]
I’m so unhappy. I feel there must be something wrong with me in that I don’t have any friends or relationships, I have no one to talk to and I’m desperately in love with a person who does not give a shit about me. I feel worthless and guilty all the time and it’s devouring me. I can’t accomplish anything without being moderately intoxicated. I hate myself and feel like I don’t deserve to be alive. I try to change my thinking and I can’t seem to stop it, but I want to feel better so badly. I just want to feel okay with myself but […]
The demon in my head just keeps getting louder every day. It’s to the point where everything around me is tuned out and he is all I can hear. I cant silence him. I’m at the point where im ready to listen, I just want peace. Ive chosen antifreeze and gatorade combo. Ive done thorough research and believe this is the best method for me. I only want peace.
I don’t want to get into who I am or why I’m doing what I’m doing. I am going to kill myself tonight. I have checked into a hotel room and it is on the 11th floor. I’m looking down and it is high, I’m sure high enough to kill myself, but I have no faith in my mortality so I don’t know if jumping from this height would be enough. I am however going to land on my back, with my head tilting down so the brain stem is completly shattered. I also have been trying to get a gun for the last couple […]
When I die I don’t want anyone to cry. I want them to look at the sky and say ‘goodbye’.
When I’m long gone and they miss me I want them to whisper to the sky everything they want to tell me.
I will listen to every word they have to say because when you die people get the courage to tell you what they couldn’t tell you when you were alive.
I want to hear that they miss me.
I want to hear the words “I love you” over and over again.
I want them to talk about me even after I’m gone. I want them remember me. To […]
This is completely disposable and completely anonymous.
I will be in from time to time when I can. But someone out there may want to talk.
http://us23.******.com/34217584665747
“SHIT I DON’T KNOW!!” ..? Did anyone actually say those things? Regardless of whether they did say these two, are you creating in your own head what else you want them to say about you? Do you see that you are upset because you waste your time justifying yourself to others? Do you realize that justifying yourself is grounds for more ridicule? Do you realize the importance of self-worth? Do you know the difference between an egotist and an egoist? Will you find out that one is dependent on instant gratification and the other will demand that you become competent? Do you realize the importance […]
I really want to give up.
I have to put up with so much, no one loves me, no one cares for me… So who would grieve when I die or disappear?
But that won’t happen. Why? Because I’m scared to. I’ve seen things that can prove that people will make shit up and jump to conclusions. For instance: I disappear, run away without any evidence to where I was going… Then people at my school would say things like this: “She got pregnant and had to find her baby daddy.” or “She decided to drop out and be a slut for her living to make enough […]
Let me start off by saying that I am only 16 years old and currently in the 11th grade. I have been going through severe depression for about a few years now and everyday is a struggle for me. When I open my eyes the next morning knowing that I have to get up and start another day of this pointless life that I live. I have been going to the same school for eight years and as the years passed by and we all got older I still ended up having no friends and only having acquaintances and being used all the time for […]
When you feel alone.
Those are the moments when your demons take over your mind.
In those moments suicidal thoughts start circling around your head.
Trying to trick you into playing the game.
A game that once you start playing you won’t be able to quit.
And the only way you’ll get out is being dead.
Because in the end that’s what the demons want from you.
To die and never come back.
Because if we come back they will haunt us again and again nonstop.
Because they want to get rid of us.
After all, that’s what demons do for a living.
I fucking hate everyone in this life. Everyone is selfish and hypocrite. They are saying that they care about you/him/it but in reality they just don’t give a shit. Everyone is doing what the ”majority” (the others) is doing. If everyone has an account on a social networking site (twitter etc) you also need to have one otherwise you are consider weird and strange. If you are not the man with the nice looking appearance and the fancy hairstyle you are also consider outcast (mostly in women). If you are not interested in things like sports & music just like the others do, again you […]
hi, so I have anxiety and depression. I have just experienced one of my ‘depressing days’ and I just want to end it all. I spent hours listening to a song by Nathan Grisdale called ‘Too Young To Die’, then I cried non-stop. I can’t take this anymore please help.
In this shaken twisted world I gradually become transparent unable to be seen. I merely don’t want to hurt you inside of a world that came out of somebody’s imagination so In the end I know I’ll corrupted as I waited for paradise. I know I won’t be the same anymore so remember the way I use to be as who I should be […]
The girl of my dreams doesn’t want anything to do with me, All I want is to hold her hand and see her smile when I tell her i love her, just want to spend my life with someone as perfect as her but no. Lots of other shit going on in my life.
Ive got two days off of school to go to counselling to stop me from killing myself.. Oh how ironic it would be.
Puts my mind at ease when there is a easy way out.
I dont really have anything to say, I just want to do something before i finish things. Be well world.
well, they recomended this page to me, because it is anonymous, and because here i would be able to talk about my suicidal thoughts or actions, and well, here i go: i’m very unstable, ever since my mother died i’ve been that way, i almost never talk to anyone at school, my father hates me, my brother too, school gives me a lot of stress and today i really dont know why i go there any more, my few friends are also suicidal, and well, literally no mater what i do, like sport or watever, i never get rid of the stress or the pain, […]
I’m sorry I just can’t do this anymore. I’m done with hope. I’m done with everything. I’ve lost everything and there is nothing left for me. I don’t want to live anymore. And there is no use for me anyway. Nobody will change my mind. I’ve already chosen what to do. I can’t even cry anymore. I’m not scared to die anymore. I am 100% sure of what I should do. And nobody will ever change my mind. This life is hell. And I don’t want to deal with it anymore. I will be free and so happy. And so will everybody else.
This is not […]
Im tired of medication and psychiatry sessions I’m slowly watching everything die around me or walk out of my life and i just want to get better but i cant save myself . How did it get better for any of you
Im a recent graduate and its hard not having structure. In order to feel any emotion or fill my boredom i have given in to impulse decisions,unsafe decisions and have alienated everyone important to me. I have watched my life fall to pieces in weeks. I just lost my bf of 5 years and im struggling to see the point. Im know people will […]