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Sick and tired of loving someone…

by ppprx 1/9/2016

written by ppprx

She’s the reason why I’m happy and at the same time she’s also the reason why I get depressed. She inspires me to do my best in everything and at the same time she’s the reason why I feel uninspired to do anything. I know it sounds weird.

I feel like I’m a third wheel to a relationship that should obviously work out and yet nothing’s happening. I’m stuck to be some girl’s friend while she and my guy friend are all head over heels each other but they aren’t even together. It fucking sucks to think that since they aren’t even together, what I should […]

1/9/2016 5 comments

If Gary555 was the drummer that want to play

by tiredthoughts 1/9/2016

written by tiredthoughts

In the led zepplin cover band. I hope he is okay too!. I think its so cool to make zepplin music even so just drumming. I hope he’s good. I missed the whole problems thAT arose with the discussion. But i do hope we can work it out. TOGETHER!

1/9/2016 2 comments

What would seem like my last chance.

by thelost 1/5/2016

written by thelost

Eyes that one could get lost in for hours, they bring warmth to any that look in them, regardless of the glasses she wears. The hazel color comforts you as you drink in her beauty, letting you be somebody that you thought was long gone. Her long, dark hair is manipulated so that it doesn’t interrupt the vision before us, but it is beautiful in its own right. Long and dark, it cascades down her back and moves gracefully with each slight movement of her body. She is tall, which one grows to appreciate, for it gives the eye more to drink in. The eye […]

1/5/2016 2 comments

Another Public Episode

by JiminyCrispies 1/4/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

Graphics went okay, I guess. It turns out they’ve extended the deadline to next Monday, and my tutor didn’t see my lack of work as she was busy.

However, the morning was unbearable. I was in college no less than 15 minutes when I started to have another ‘episode’, for lack of a better word. Thankfully, it only lasted roughly 3 hours. I see my doctor tomorrow morning, first thing. And I’m debating on whether to tell him about what happened today.

I can’t remember most of it, but I vaguely remember believing everyone in college were robots and were part of a plan to attack me […]

1/4/2016 4 comments

Emotionally and physically exhausted

by nicole123 1/4/2016

written by nicole123

Class started again today . We went in the clinic to learn X-rays . I literally cannot stand the people there .I usually just work alone . I work best that way anyways.

It’s so hard to think in class when I can only think about how tired I am . I can barley keep my eyes open. I sleep so much so I dont understand why I can’t be awake . This has such an impact on me . I feel like I have the capability to do nothing .

I like to sleep . I imagine that’s what death is like . Black . And […]

1/4/2016 8 comments

Fail

by disgusting 1/3/2016

written by disgusting

I’ve given up. It was the other day I decided to not message the guy I love again, but then by chance he ended up sending me a message. However, I’m still resolving myself to just give up. I know I’m not important and I have no place.

Odd that I’d finally get around to trying to complete his promise to me since he never will. I just pored the shit, so, if it comes out at all, it’s gonna be seriously jacked. The mold was split in half and in 3 sections. Took a shit ton of work to try to seal it up. Best […]

1/3/2016 1 comment

by JiminyCrispies 1/3/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

Tomorrow I go back to college. I haven’t done any of the work. Despite what my mum has been saying, it’s not due to me being lazy. I haven’t been able to concentrated, and I’ve wasted entire days spacing out and such (although a few people have told me it’s possibly depersonalisation or something -they have it themselves).

I’m not ready to go back to college, I couldn’t cope with daily life without the added pressure of college work. And I’m terrified of what my tutor will say about the work. It’s not like I can go up to her and be honest, saying ‘oh, hey, […]

1/3/2016 3 comments

Mutually Assured Destruction with my own brain

by pandemonium2 1/3/2016

written by pandemonium2

All my life I’ve studied and worked like a dog to achieve success. Now, at 27, from the outside, it looks like everything is perfect – money, friends, girls. Inside, however, I’ve been battling anxiety for 9 months now. Every day I wake up and I dread the next bedtime. I fear I won’t be able to sleep well and everything I built up will slowly turn to dust as insomnia destroys my life.

Then, most nights, I actually do sleep well. The fear stays, though, and gnaws at me constantly. People say, “Let’s meet next week!” And I’m not certain I’ll make it to next week.

I envision catching […]

1/3/2016 7 comments

To Be Ok With Not Being Ok

by thehusk 1/2/2016

written by thehusk

So…my thought for the day is that I will probably never be happy. I don’t I have it in me. You don’t get to live how I’ve lived and be happy. There is no peace for me here.

Despite that, for the time being, I think I still want to live. I still want to pursue my goals, however out of reach they seem, even knowing that gaining them will bring nothing but momentary satisfaction before the gnawing discontent returns.

The main obstacles to this settlement are sleep and work.

On my days off I can usually cope with my overwhelming anxiety/existential dread by focusing on other things. I […]

1/2/2016 6 comments

Ruining my life barely a day into the new year….

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 1/1/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

Im working as a temp and have been for a couple of months. I may have had a chance to get hired on but i just no call no showed now i may be jobless. I kept calling the temp and company the past few days to see if i had to work with no answer with either. Now someone is telling me i did have to work and idk what to do. There is a dam 10 minutes away i can always jump. Im soooooo tired of always fucking up my life. My plan was to just go but i overslept woke up hella […]

1/1/2016 1 comment

Suicide thoughts

by luka 12/31/2015

written by luka

I went thro a lot of stuff the last couple years. I lost all my friends, i live alone, and practically have no family. I cant talk about my problems to anyone except to myself. i think about killing myself about 50% of the day, and all through the night. I wend to the doctor and psychotherapy. It didnt work out for me. I tried antidepressants but it makes me feel even less alive, and id rather be sad then just could. Feeling something is better than nothing for me. So basicly all i managed to do the last 3 years is loose […]

12/31/2015 4 comments

Sushiside

by anthropophobia 12/29/2015

written by anthropophobia

Going to eat some lovely sushi with an old friend of over a decade, who I also work with. Life seems like it could have some possibly good out comes. The loneliness is diminishing, I am growing closer to my friends, and I feel like my life might turn around.

Spent the past 8 years as a hermit, but every year around this time, I have to get involved with all of my old friends. Is it my last moment grasp to hang on to the world that is slowly slipping from my fingers, or am I just in that “mood”. Feel like when I […]

12/29/2015 5 comments

I was a lion… was.

by InhalingAnxiety 12/18/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

I complain about my job all the time and I’m sorry. But today I came across some new things.

Today, I had access to Z’s computer. I looked through her IM’s between her and T and they’re all complaining about me or making fun of me.

12/18/2015 12 comments

I don’t know how else to say it

by thelost 12/16/2015

written by thelost

I can’t help but want to scream when the memories of this day flash through my mind, as if they were not memories, but annoyed spirits. They fly around inside of my head, touching every aspect of my mind, looking for the slightest excuse to gain control and make my life a living hell. They seem to be a sentient thing, a personality outside, and yet within, myself. Made specifically to destroy me, and gruesomely efficient at their work. Perhaps, if they truly are sentient, they enjoy their work, and that is where their almost deadly determination and efficiency originates from.

They hurt by reminding […]

12/16/2015 0 comment

I’m a fucking mess

by InhalingAnxiety 12/14/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

I wake up in the morning feeling anxious. It gets so bad I feel physically ill. This causes me to miss a lot of work because I wouldn’t be able to focus on anything, and I’m not feeling well. I miss work from this, plus the days I’m sick from other reasons. So it adds up. T and Z believe I’m faking because I can appear fine today and be out tomorrow and come back the next day. They don’t know it’s from anxiety though. I just tell them I’m sick. They wouldn’t understand if I told them the truth. You could tell me to […]

12/14/2015 2 comments

Sleeping At Last – Neptune

by architect 12/12/2015

written by architect

If brokenness is a form of art, I must be a poster child prodigy

If brokenness is a work of art, surely this must be my masterpiece

Every time something begins, I can’t ever wait for it to end.

12/12/2015 1 comment

One week into my plan – reflecting…

by SoVeryTired 12/11/2015

written by SoVeryTired

It’s been a week since I decided to tidy up my life and then leave.

its been a mixed week since. Stress like hell at work, but at least no conflict. A few nice thing like a dinner with my best friends, a Christmas dinner with my work colleagues ( who are all really nice), a beautiful moment with my son. I’ve got a gorgeous little pet parrot, and she’s very affectionate, and just about jumps out of her skin with excitement and joy when I come home from work

Yet the the pain does not relent. Even when I was with my lovely friends, I was […]

12/11/2015 4 comments

Help

by InhalingAnxiety 12/11/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

So I called my work this morning and told them I was feeling sick, which I was but not that bad, and I told them I wasn’t going to be in this morning but I’d see how I felt around noon and come in. I just needed a little break from them and work is extremely overwhelming for me. Plus I don’t really have any urgent/important work to do today, so I didn’t feel too guilty about missing the morning. But T, who’s basically our whole HR department, said “This sure does happen a lot. You should probably go see a doctor. You […]

12/11/2015 1 comment

Good first step

by SoVeryTired 12/9/2015

written by SoVeryTired

Today at work I started to really feel bottomless sad, and the desire to end my life became once again overwhelming. But because of that recent lovely moment with my son, I actually had enough sense to not let myself sink further, but call my psychologist. Quite by miracle I got an appointment that very afternoon, due to a last minute cancellation. Usually the wait list is weeks long, unless it’s an absolute emergency. I take that as a good omen. And she is wonderful. I’ve been seeing her for years now, and she’s one of the major reasons I’m still alive.

Im just in my […]

12/9/2015 2 comments

I know, I know.. “just quit.”

by InhalingAnxiety 12/7/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

Don’t even read this. It’s pointless and a waste of time. Just a lot of words. If you do read this, props to you.

12/7/2015 16 comments

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