Am I the only that get trapped by hope, thinking that, soon, all’s gonna be ok and then realize that it’s not, that it’s just gonna be worse? I wish I had the balls to end my life and leave far away from this hell. But I’m staying, I’m thinking that it’s worth waiting and then, I’m suffering more, I take a razor and put it in my flesh. As I watch the blood out of my skin with colds eyes, I’m wondering when do will I commit suicide. Right now, I want it but I can’t. Hope is what making me stay but it’s […]
I’m 22 years old and have a year left in college…I don’t really have any close friends and had a tough break up recently. I cry a lot because I’m depressed and lonely I guess and have thoughts that I’m awful and unworthy all the time and a feeling that there’s nothing I can do to change it. I try to be passionate about my artwork but have begun to question whether that has any meaning or value whatsoever. I used to get enjoyment from that but for some reason I’ve been stuck thinking that it’s wrong to be passionate about something that doesn’t involve […]
Ever since I was 13 I had sucicidel thoughts, I would cut almot daily, I was pretty much on my own and I would barley say a word, I’ve also atempted suicide but by destiny’s hand I still alive. I saw this as a sign, that maybe things in my life would get better, all the wrong would turn right and the darkness in me would fade. My depression and anxity where disapearing my problems didn’t seem so big any more. I’m 19 now and I feel as if nothing has changed, I feel that I was lieing to myself. My dad would take his frustration […]
Hello. I’m 23, a college student, and was just diagnosed back in September with an anxiety disorder and depression.
I don’t know who to blame. Or didn’t for a long time. I’ve dealt with what I suppose is considered self loathing since I was eight years old, and always assumed this was just a result of causality. I didn’t have many friends, my grades were shit, I often felt angry and isolated from people around me. I assumed that I hated myself for these reasons- because I was somebody worth hating. Because if I were somebody else, I’d probably hate me still. Now I don’t know.
I […]
I don’t know how I ended up here. I had so much “potential.” I was smart, funny and somewhat attractive. Atleast on the outside. I suffer alone, in silence. I go through my day taking care of everyone and everything else while inside the pain is unbearable. On the outside people would say what do I have to complain about? They don’t understand. They see what I allow them to see. I try to compensate for my emotional pain with outward success. The more I hurt the more I try to accomplish. I feel so lost. I have always been expendable to the people that […]
– Maybe I’m just imagining them. The pain will not exist. It’s all in my mind. It’s mind over matter. It will not. It should not. It does not. –
Hi bestf
I just wanna hide in corners with ya. Hide hide. Cause I like looking at people but not people looking at me.
Don’t hurt yourself for me. Stupid idiot. Silly silly. You’re pretty and an amazing piece of work. You are really amazing. Sigh. You idiot. Thank you for sticking. You’re really a wonderful gem in my life.
Don’t worry. I’ll be there to help you whenever you need. No matter how confused you feel, how upset […]
I have not had suicidal thoughts. However, I know the pain of loneliness and the feeling of being hated and not being wanted. I know other people that have had suicidal thoughts. It is not worth it. There are many other alternatives for the pain, and there are many other people who care for you, even if you don’t think so. And if you think you do know that there is no one that cares for you, you still have one person. Me. I may not know who you are or what you look like, but I can tell you that you are a living, […]
Why do we try? One swipe, one, stab, one shot and its over. No more hassles, no more fight, no more struggle. No more isolation, depression, desperation, no more thoughts. Just action, commitment, sacrifice. It would be worth it. I don’t want relief. I know I’ll never get it, why wishful think? I’m beyond relief. Relief is something thats there, yet out of reach. There is only numbness left for me, but even thats a feeling. So nothing would be better than this! Cause what we [at least I] have is worse than nothingness, worse than death! So, why try? When we could be dead […]
To be honest I thought my depression was done with. I hadn’t had any suicidal thoughts in a good 4 months and that seemed to be how I defined depression…. Suicide. But I didn’t realise how much I’ve been staying in and drinking alone at night, how little I’ve been eating and how much I sleep during the day during those 4 months. I’ve never really associated these things with depression at all. My first suicidal thoughts since then happened a couple nights ago. Reoccurring images of familiar deaths, my family finding me, the aftermath of everything, it was like 4 months worth of suicidal […]
For the longest time, I have felt like someone who just “doesn’t matter” to hardly anyone. I am generally someone who is forgotten about and it seems like I’m simply not worth most people’s time or friendship. I will admit to not being very outgoing and am certainly socially awkward much of the time – hell, you could even make a case for describing me as “creepy,” I suppose – and I used to feel that these things had a lot to do with it. Quite honestly, though, I do wonder if there is something about me that is actually not related to those characteristics […]
In him she found answers she was looking for, so she stopped asking questions. In her, he found fire and freedom. They walked to the edge and she jumped, without looking, into the deep blue. He stopped, he paused, and decided that falling was not worth the risk of landing to hard. She floated there for a while, but with no one there to help her swim the waves will eventually wash her away. He starts to apologize, “I wish” but she dams up his words with her hands and her eyes, “don’t.” He tries to fix things and make her smile, but wounded waters […]
I’m an intrusion and a burden to everyone I have ever knew or anyone I come into contact with… Idk why I get my hopes so high for people to just shit on it all…. It’s not worth it…. Fuck it
I have not had suicidal thoughts. However, I know the pain of loneliness and the feeling of being hated and not being wanted. I know other people that have had suicidal thoughts. It is not worth it. There are many other alternatives for the pain, and there are many other people who care for you, even if you don’t think so. And if you think you do know that there is no one that cares for you, you still have one person. Me. I may not know who you are or what you look like, but I can tell you that you are a living, […]
I have tried hard this year, please please, oh please, will you grant me my Christmas wish?
I want to be re-born into a world where I’m not valued as trash. Can I maybe be so bold as to ask for just one friend? No? It was worth the try…
I hope Santa grants your wish. I didn’t even get coal :'(
I am writing from a deep dark hole. I do not feel that my life is worth living. I am depressed because I have worked all year, and now that Christmas is here, I have no money to spend on my family for Christmas presents. I spent all of my hard earned money paying bills – medical and dental bills, car repair and insurance.
My employer is a remorseless entity. They work you to death,pay you nothing and treat you like dirt. I have tried but am unable to fins another employer. I feel so guilty. I have no friends to share my experiences with. My […]
This can obviously be taken a number of ways, but remember – nobody is worth your severe depression and they sure as hell aren’t worth your life. Just a thought.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)
I really wish I was never born.. nothing I do is worth anything. I cant make anyone hapoy and everything and everyone I come in contact with turns to shit. I just want it all to end. Realisticly it would be better for everyone in my pathetic life.. I just cant deal with the disappointment I cause everyone. My wife and kids would do better without me……
I’ve been basically alone for 2 years straight, my family is “against” me for a couple of reasons. But anyway, i feel like i have no purpose to go on, really, i’m depressed, i don’t have REAL friends, i was bullied last year in school, and my family thought it was just a “phase”, i’m constantly critiziced for my looks and ideals, i’ve had so many people going in and out of my life, so many liers.
I have nothing to do with my life, i’m not interested in studying a career, i don’t have a hobby even tho i’ve tried many things.
I consider […]
Our Father in Heaven, blessed be Your Name. We thank you for the grace You’ve given us, for blessings everyday that we’re alive. We’re grateful for Your guidance and the plans You’ve planned for us. Your plans are perfect and you have shaped us to be this way.
As as much as I appreciate Your Love, my Father, I am afraid I am not worth much. Forgive me for my sins. This servant of yours is not holy and is not worth Your Presence. But again, it’s by Your divine love that You’ve picked us up again and again, never leaving our side. Thank you for […]
Hello my name is Jeff black, the truth is people have the right to do what they want to and freedom comes at a price,
anyway well I have changed my mind on how I feel, it comes to my attenstion that’s life isn’t worth chucking away,
to be honist, things happen to people that make us wake up some times, to I still think people have the right end their end own exsitence if they want to yes, but that doesn’t mean that happiness is impossible to find,sometimes it can be found when we least expect it,
anyway good luck to people on this […]