I feel like a failure and nothing I do is ever good

I’m not feeling good recently.. please allow me to share my current situation for you to read:
I feel like a failure, confused, and that nothing I’m doing is ever good (especially to my parents’ eyes).

What will you do in that situation?
especially when I’m 28 yrs old, and I’m still living with my parents, now still jobless (funnily because of my own stubborn idealism of getting out from the 7-years work you hate), still single (where you’re traditionally expected to already got married at 26, and now already have a baby), and constantly getting nagged and asked and even looked with a clear disappointment look on their faces.

And nothing seems working.

Also, today mainstream society seems to prefer those “alpha-type” people that are usually aggressive, money/business-minded, workaholic, firm and quick in making decisions, ruthless, and of course being super-competitive and driven.
While I’m more about being super-creative, imaginative, unconventional, spontaneous, adventurous, fun loving, freedom-seeker, people-oriented, very Purpose (or should I say “philosophical”) driven, and always love more ‘deeper’ meaningful things.
But my parents they don’t seem to appreciate all these traits, even probably view ’em as weaknesses and that I need to *change* and *grow up*.

Also, I just sometimes hate all about mainstream society’s notions.
I always yearn for Love, Peace and Beauty,
but it always kills me whenever today I see people can become so cold, ‘dry’, soulless, and even damn ruthless (in the name of being “competitive”) like animals because they’ll do anything for the sake of Money.
But then “Money is reality”, isn’t it?
so should we (I) then have to live our existence on ‘just surviving’ and living a bland, dull, boring life with 3/4th of your time doing a job you hate, only so you can become a cash-cow, money-making machine ?
and then people would just easily say to you “hey…that’s just how Life is. buck it up, suck it up”, well,…until you die?..

My utmost passion always lies in music, but at age 28, and due to listening to my very pragmatist and money-oriented dad, sometimes I wonder if it’s really already too late, and if it’s time to just give up my utmost dream, and time to get a “real job” and “join the Real crowd or society”.
Maybe this is why I seem to feel like I easily give up in music..because I’m afraid if there would be NO point in continuing it…all would be meaningless, and efforts in vain.. I don’t know..

I just feel clueless and feels like Life is just a heavy burden I have to damn repeat every day, meaninglessly.
I feel like a failure, and nothing I’m doing is ever good.
I feel stuck and even depressed and suicidal sometimes because of this nagging reality.

I wish to be free…..and find somewhere I belong…