I feel suicidal

Hello

I am pretty sure most of us, or probably all of us already would like to go out with you to wherever, the movies, shops, whatever, despite our different ages, why? because we are all touched by your beautiful sensitivity and that is all we would care about. This should start making you realize how valuable it is what you already have.

You know, now in “modern times” it seems that every 14 year old boy or girl has to have a girl or boyfriend. That is completely wrong. I believe it is a very negative thing to have at that young age. Why? because the emotional involvement is more than what the mind of a 14 year old kid can handle, and when things go wrong, there are all kind of terrible dramas following.

Being a teenager is time to have fun with friends, but not time to engage in “romances”, aside from the fact that teenagers don’t have a clue of what love is. They engage in it because of the excitement of something that they dont even understand.

Once you are 18 or so, then you can start exploring that world, always paying more attention to what you hear than to what you see with your eyes. You will spare yourself a lot of suffering.

As the other commentators rightly said, it is extremely common the case of mindless retards insulting other kids in the school. I am a man, and I was insulted and mocked always at school, only in their case, I would knock one or two teeth out of many. Girls are more sensitive and they suffer it more deeply because they dont have the aggressiveness that we male do. But you are intelligent and smart and I can see you understand things, you understand how kids are at school and that is why you should just ignore it completely and dedicate yourself to enjoy your beautiful youth.

You can also try eventually, instead of going head down away when they mock at you, you could stand up to them and tell them something like :

a) If he is a guy:
what is it retard? do you have some psychiatric issue with your mom, maybe is it because you cant get a hard-on and are frustrated at it?

b) If she is a girl, you can go: what is it retard? to me your life is worth less than the air coming out of your asshole” (that is a blowing insult of its kind) so I dont give a rat’s ass about your name or whatever you thing are.

And of course, you must report the issue to your counselor, to the Principal of the school. Let him know that you know that bullying is a serious matter and that if you see that he is not taking things seriously you will report it to the police.

If you think you cannot do that, I can do it for you. I have no problem at all to talk to your principal at school.

and I am sure that in future years you will be able to look back on and read your posting and our answers and will realize how right we were. I hope that you remember me.

With regards to your “falling in love with an actor”. Well, dear girl, this is what I was talking about, it is not love, it is infatuation, it is just how emotions build imaginary pictures of what someone is based on seduction etc. So, you need to distinguish or identify the difference between love, and need and similar things. Do get a book called “The art of loving ” by Erich Fromm. It will provide you with a very valuable insight that it will be essential for your future life. Believe me, that book is a master piece and can be read in a few hours.