What am I going to do…

I do not even care anymore. I is not carin about grammar right now. I remember I was at school about a month ago wen my sis and her friend came up to me and said rude things about me and my boy friend. I was sad. I ran home and cryed. my boyfriend was sad too. he tried to comfort me but he don’t know how much I hurt on the inside. of course I aint got no guts for suicide but it still hurts. I am in pain. there Is not light when yu have depression. and don’t you get sick of people telling you that things will get better? it really pisses me off. 0h well. I gotta deal wit it. I remember wen earlier today my family was havin the Christmas party while I was locked in my room with all the lights off and I was buried under my blanket. nobody even bothered to acknowledge that I even existed in their life. afterwards, my mom asked what was wrong but al I said was that I was tired. this is the awful life I am living in right now.