I’m having another episode right now.. it’s really bad. i want something to happen… i either want to end it all right now or i want someone to just help me out of this and figure out what I should do next… I’m tired of waiting and letting this happen over andover again. please.
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*Hugs*
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Please don’t do anything rash..
hi im going through the same. do you want to talk to me?
i would love to talk to you. would you prefer text or email? or maybe do you have kik?
I managed to calm myself down.. I have episodes like this and they’ve been increasing infrequency and intensity lately. It’s so frustrating to me. but I managed to get it together. like always. but it’s just going to happen again and for all I know it could be sooner rather than later.
i get panic attacks so i understand. i would hug you if i could
is that really what I could call it though? I thought a panic attack was when you went into the “fight or flight” mode… I just get extremely angry or sad or both and start screaming and hitting things and myself… I don’t know what to call that but if that constitutes as a panic attack then I guess… is that what happens to you too?
im not sure hun. what happens before you feel that way?
heres my email p.manavi.pm@gmail.com
well, it varies. sometimes absolutely nothing happens. sometimes I just burst out for no reason. sometimes something causes me to get angry or sad in the first place like an argument or something like that. and I sometimes I’ll be totally happy and I’ll just start making myself feel bad. it’s just a lot to go into. it probably just stemsfrom a lot of self hatred.
i dont see any other way. i have nobody to talk to. i dont take drugs they have made it worse for me. im alone and i cant even take care of myself.
sorry i didnt mean to write that here :/ im not sure how to delete it
have you seen a good psychiatrist? some of them are drug pushers so be careful. you might have something you can be diagnosed and that can help you get better.
ive never seen a psychiatrist… I don’t know that I would want to because it just seems like such a drastic step to me but then again killing myself would be drastic too. that’s another things is that I don’t want to be put on some drugs.. I self medicate with marijuana and that’s working out fine but soemtimes I jsut don’t have the money for it. i don’t feel like I have to be diagnosed with anything but if that’s the only way i could get better then I don’t even know how to go about doing that.
Look up Bipolar disorder. If that sounds like something you might have, go see a psychiatrist and get diagnosed. They have drugs that will stabilize your mood swings. Even if that doesn’t sound like it, you should still go since it sounds very much like something that is diagnosable and treatable.