I didn’t think it was even possible to feel any more terrible than I did a week ago, but it is. It’s hard to even get out of bed in the morning. I’m just so exhausted all the time even though I sleep minimum 8 hours a night. I just hate this… I hate this so much… I wouldn’t wish this pain on anyone. No one. Why do I have to feel it? God, if you exist, why are you letting me feel like this? Why can’t you help me? Haven’t knocked me down far enough? Â Can I just please die now? I’m already more dead than alive.
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
4 comments
Oh my .. exactly the questions I used to ask myself. I understand your pain, I too said I would never wish this pain on my worst enemy for it is far too great. I may not know you, or what your situation is, but It hurts my heart to hear you (or anyone, really) feel this way, because I completely understand and I know it’s not easy. I hope we can talk about things, some of your posts reminded me of me. I hope I can help you or just be someone you can talk to because I understand.
I feel this exact way. People say you learn a lesson from these things or that you become stronger, but it’s like ‘when does the lesson end? How many do I need to learn or learn the same lesson over and over?’. I understand how you feel. I really hope you find support here, best wishes
Yes, I agree with this post fully and ask myself and ask God the same questions. How freaking long do I have to have a life of suffering. I have had like 30 + years of suffering and I keep hoping it will be over soon and God will give me some good times but it doesn’t really seem to happen. I think God hates me. I am convinced of that for sure… and Life pretty much sucks too.
I wish I had never been born
Why does God create a life just for that life to suffer, does that indicate God doesn’t exist or does he have a purpose for all this suffering? I, too, wish to end this misery that’s called a life.