Tired of life!!!

Life is really , weird , I’m done with with everything . It’s just over , dealing with this shit has made me sick , it feels worse , I’ve lost all my interest in every single damn thing , dealing with the shit your parents are giving u … I don’t understand what the hell is wrong with me ,, this shit is over man , suicide is the only option left maybe.Today I stood at the end of the Cliff , nd yelled loudly . I just wanned to jump off it nd wanted to feel the warm blood flowing from my head nd smile for the last time nd than sleep for ever with a realif smile on my face , maybe I would go to heaven becuz , I’m living in the hell.
I’m just done.
At this point I honestly don’t care anymore. I really don’t. I don’t know what it is to feel anymore. I’ve lost this ability to feel now. I’ve become so numb. All I want to do is cut. Most people have better things on their minds, but then there’s me. All I can do is think of just dragging the blade on my skin. It terrifies me as to how bad I want it. I’m not good for anyone….I’m just done. My mind is such a mess. The loneliness is eating me alive. I’m just another nothing. I’m done trying to open up to people when quite frankly they couldn’t care any less. I’m done. I’m just fucking done. I’m gonna sit here and let the sadness destroy me while I tear apart my skin. None of it’s worth it anymore. I just fuck everything up. I never knew how sick I was until I tried to recover. I’m just sick of this shit 🙁 🙁 🙁 people do not die becuz of sucicde they did becuz of sadness!!!