Yesterday, I made the hardest and biggest decision of my life.. I went to the police and told them about my ex boyfriend raping me coming close to 2 years ago along with the emotional, physical and sexual abuse and blackmail.. you name it, he done it to me. I walked over to the police station and asked for a police wife that I get on really well with, but I couldn’t tell her what happened, it took about 10 minutes for me to tell her. The minute I said rape, I had the worst panic attack I have ever had, I can type the word down, but I just couldn’t get the word to come out of my mouth! So she took me into the interview room to take all my details but all I could think about was my ex, like alot of abuse relationships, I still care and have feelings for the fucker. So they are going to help me detach my feelings from him! I wanted to write this for other people that are in the same situation as I was. I was 15 when it happened, I’m 17 now, so I waited a long time to tell the police but regardless of time, I was believed straight away! He might not go to prison because of what he has done for whatever reason, but he will always be on their record so if he had to do it to someone else, he would go to jail straight away! Going to the police lifted a massive weight off my shoulders and now I can actually smile and be who I am. I went through a spiteful phase where I hoped my ex boyfriend raped some other little girl so that way someone could feel the pain I felt for 2 years.. but as I grew up, I realised, nobody deserves such a cruel thing to happen to them, never ever! In a way, I’m not doing it for my benifit, I’m doing it for everyone else, no 15 year old or any age in fact deserves this! I still belive that it was my fault it happened, but it’s happened, it’s done.. all I can do is move on the best I can. So really, if their is anyone else out there that got raped or anything else horrid. Go to the police and tell them, it helps, it really does! Don’t give him/her a chance to ruin someone elses life! You can help them amd help yourself by not lettin the fucker get away with it.
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Thanks for sharing this, and well done for speaking with the police about this event. It took a bit of time but you got there in the end, and that’s what matters. My experience with these types of cases tells me that, yes, victims of this type of abuse find it extremely difficult to seek help, but all they need is that gentle hand to guide them to’rds getting proper assistance.
From here – I wish you all the best going for’d and thanks again for sharing this.
thank you for sharing this. There is NEVER any excuse for rape, be it male rapes a female, female rapes male etc. Please never feel that it is your fault for being raped, it isnt, its the rapists fault entirely. It doesnt matter who rapes you, wife/husband, bf/gf, friend, family member, stranger… Rape is rape full stop. I was writing in general terms there. I am so glad you told the police wow that was brave. Unfortunately many who are raped never tell anyone. He is such an asshole and i hope he goes to jail someday. Again thank you for this post
I think you’re very brave, not only for going to the police, but also for sharing your experience with us to give advice to people in the same situation. Not many would do it.
Thank you for this post
So proud of you! You are amazing, you did the right thing 🙂