Back then

Does anyone else remember when they were about three years old and you would say “no, I don’t need that, I’m a big girl/boy”? I do. What made being “a big girl/boy” so desirable? It’s kind of weird thinking about myself as a child, how innocent and pure I was back then. I never would’ve guessed myself to be nearing the end of my teenage years and already wanting to end it, which doesn’t really surprise me to be honest, I hardly ever finish anything I start. It’s just so crazy to think, when I was a child I wanted to grow up, be a teenager because teenagers are cool, be an adult because adults have freedom. But now I see that being a teenager is not cool and adults are the most controlled and enslaved people here, having to work in jobs that make them unhappy in order to provide for themselves as well as their families, bills and fees and taxes to pay. Now all I want to do is go back to where I was sane and my mind was calm.