I’ve been at my real dads since June 24 and I’m leaving August 3.
My mom has been verbally and mentally abusive for all of my life. She threatens to physically abuse me all the time. She led me to believe that my dad never cared about me and that he cheated on her with my stepmom.
That wasn’t the case nor did my dad ever do that. It’s got worse recently which is why I’m up here with my dad. I would call my stepmom everyday crying. My dad found out what she recently has done ( she was making others and friends believe I’m psychotic and that I hurt my mom) and he started crying because he thinks it’s his fault from not protecting me so much. My mother told psychologist and me lies convincing them I needed medicine. I don’t need it but if I just stop taking it I can possibly die.
My mother is psychotic. And she takes everything out on me. But recently My mom was blowing up my dads office starting shot about me being psychotic and how I steal stuff all the time. And how she found stuff in my room because she tore it apart. That among a lot of other things she accuses me of stealing 400$.
I didn’t do it. Any of it. She has everyone around her convinced I’m crazy. I’m not my dad knows it but as she started this I’m now ending up going home to a hellhole of a life.
The shit she has put me through hurts
Why do I care bout someone who hates me so much
I dread going back. Because she has don’t this before to my father made people think he was lying about his side of the story when he was telling the complete truth. I’m scared to go back into a home where I’m stared at like a thief and a psycho. She is supposed to be a mother . My dad and my stepmom and sisters are helping as much as possible
My dad is calling my mom tomorrow to talk about it. I’m scared to get out of this situation because she records stuff and alters it
She recently before I came to stay here for a bit was moving stuff around and manipulating me and also she gets drunk and says mean stuff like she will beat me till I bleed and then the next day she acts like nothing is wrong
But I can’t risk having stuff turned on me and me getting locked up. Because that is my fear
I’m scared to go back home. I’m not happy and I just feel like no matter what I’m always the peice of shit she takes me to be.
I’m not suicidal I think, No. I’m just really depressed and scared. I wouldn’t want to kill my self but if I got ran over or I fell I wouldn’t be scared to die because I dread life itself. Just I’m not scared to die. Even though I have a nephew on the way, if I were to just die from disease or something I would be glad to put my mom out of the misery of having me as a child. Just I’m sick of the mental and verbal abuse
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I know how you feel! My mom is the same she said stuff about my dad, I believe her at first then when I went to go visit my dad he told Me things, that night he told me I wanted to take pills. But I realized that is not the answer to my problems right now. I arugue a lot with my mom some nights I just want to hang myself in the room. But I stop thinking of that and listen to music and cry my self to sleep. It helps until I harm myself.
It sounds like your mother may be mentally ill. I really think it would be better if you stayed with your dad and step-mom. Going back with your mother won’t be good at all. Your mother made the choice to have you and she shouldn’t make you suffer because you didn’t ask to be born. I’m sorry about this pain you’re experiencing. It sounds like your father wants to protect you from her which is good.
I hope you’ll be able to work this out because it sounds like you really want to be able to live your life, but you just want to escape the pain you’re mother is putting you through.
I explained my pain to my father and my stepmom and it’s possible they are going to get me out of the situation
That’s good to hear, I hope everything works out. 🙂 Remember you always have a place to vent here if you need help.
Yes. And thank you. I have a year left of highschool and I just I want to finish it there but I’m scared to go back even though I love my mom but I am beginning to think that it would be better if I were to just die. I feel like everything is my fault. And no matter what everything ends up being caused by me. Just I’m scared to face life if I have to be emancipated.
Well maybe you can get family services involved you know? Legally she has to care for you until you’re 21, maybe they can help you out, or at least get you out of there