im living on borrowed time here because i cant find the courage inside of me to commit suicide, and its tearing me apart. i want everyone to forget that i exist. i wish i could live in the shadows so that if i died, no one would notice and i wouldnt hurt anyone. i havent attempted anything but im scared that ill fail and ill have to live with everyone knowing my secret. my depression is my secret and ive been living with it for three years. it started when i was fourteen and i felt the depression grow with me. as i got older the depression slowly got worse and worse and now i dont know what to do. if i ever talk about my feelings i just feel silly. its better for me to bottle up my feelings anyways. it saves me the embarrassment.
on a side note, does anyone know if it is possible to overdoes on enalapril? i know its possible just like any drug, but will it be effective? (from the research ive done so far its just a blood thinner)
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No methods sorry.
Feeling too embarrassed to open up about you feeling is a common complaint on these boards. I’ve never had that problem but I’m sure there will be someone else coming along in a bit that has a good story about that.
Unless you planned on something violent probably not, though fair warning I’ve had personal experience with trying to exit via the pill route and it usually doesn’t work.
Taking pills aline even if they’re sedatives is just doing that and probably gonna put you in a world of hurt rather than lead to the desired result. Just wanna save you some pain as I’ve once downed more blood thinners, muscle relaxers and sedatives than I could count. Fell into a deep sleep but still woke the next morning with my stomach instantly regretting the desicion. I was so afraid of anyone finding out it was an attempt gone wrong I endured it for 3 days instead of going to the hospital.
pills did not work for me.