Today, for some reason, I could not stop thinking of her. I thought about her throughout the day as always, but when I got home, I napped and dreamed about her. After my nap the thought only got stronger. All I know is, I am never going to have her again the way we used to be… I’ll never forget when she told me, “…things aren’t going to be the way they used to be…” As much as I knew that was true, I didn’t want it to be. I wanted things to be the way they used to be but I ruined it. I sit here, lonely, with the inability to move on. The thought of suicide has come back. I remember I wanted to kill myself for many reasons, but after a year of therapy and some problems being solved I no longer thought about suicide. Now, I can’t stop pondering about how I will never have her again and how she will not be in my future and because of that I want to die. I feel nothing without her. I want to die.
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Your story gets to me because it reminds me of how much I love my girlfriend. I know what you felt and I know what your feeling. You came so far getting past suicide before, don’t let one girl hold you down. I can’t say it’s easy because if i lost mine I’d be such a mess and I’d feel like you do now, but this is the time for you to focus more on yourself. Don’t worry about her.
I get it. I’ve been there. Wanna know a secret? You’ll get stronger as time goes on. She will eventually become a distant and fond memory. You may never forget her, but it will get easier. I promise it will.
Sometimes the people who dont want us are doing us a favor. You can find someone else just as wonderful willing to be with you.
Right on, Don! I’ll never forget the time that Hitler dumped me for Eva. Well I had the last laugh when Joseph Stalin and I hooked up!