Life…….

So, im new here. Ive had manic depression since i was a child. But in the last few months ive been on a terrible low. I was thrown out of my house, due to an argument with a roomate that escalated to blows, they had a kid, they got to stay. So now im living in my parents basment, i lost my job when i lost my place. Realy the only thing keeping me sane at the moment are the chemicle kisses (drugs) and my childhood friend… But now he is trying to get clean… And i support his decision, drugs are bad…. Mkay? But when people stop getting high, they do t want to hang out with thelooser junkies that hey used to get high with… I could view this as an oppertunity to get sober with support, but like i said at the top, i need it sor my sanity. Im not physicly addicted t any substance, but i defnatly need my vices right now… I dont know what to do, i need my friend just as muchas i need my vice…. And itjust dosnt seem that the two are compatable……